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Wednesday, August 26, 2009
hi...assalammualaikum! pa kabaR? its been a long time i didnt blog..well... i had few stories to share here...
im now in a relationship with herry and i hope everything is gona be fine...
he is a nice person n hope that he gonna succeed in life in his career... sumtimes i get pissed off easily becoz im being ignored by him now... hehe! i have to understand and be patient but than its not enuff.. i hate my self for being so angry or pissed off.. i dunno y but i usually will be pissed off... hwo to avoid that feeling? i try my best to be a gud person n getting betta but its impossible... but im sure i cud.. nothing is impossible to me..just try my best and do it..
love is great and sumtimes it hurts but u have to bare with it... life is boring but u have to make urself happy with ur own activities or ur with people around u.... tats life... hope that everything is fine.now is fastin mth and its the first time in life after 25 years i had menses during my first day of fasting!!! arrgghh...angry u noe! hehe... takpelah....
ok blog..i gtg..will update again!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|12:19 AM

Saturday, August 08, 2009
hi...im now with herry... but i guess.... and i dunno wether this will be true love or last love or just a moment.. i just hope for the betta... life is a so sweet wen u noe sumones like u... life is sweeter if u love that person who loves u...
u love that sumone fully but wen time comes,,,, u suddenly find out that ur love to him is just a fool... isnt it a waste of time? but i make it as just a normal feeling... since im with aryo after i love him fully,i gave ma heart n soul for him truly i was pissed off with his attitude who dun bother me.... he loves me but he than dun take care of my feelings... i dunno but than i am so sad.... he leaves me just like that.with no specific reason.. i cry and i cant accept the fact..but after.... a while.. i guess im fine with it...im happy than n we are still frens...
now....im with herry...i was neva i love with him until i realise i missed him so much wen he is not around... sad to hear this coz u neva noe wen u love sumone.... he is s nice man n im happy if he is around.. he kol n sms me always.... n he is different from others..he have his own band and he have bengkel... jadi mesti ada duitkan... aku??? apa yg ada.... might as well, i dun really put my felings to it so much coz it hurts me lots!!! arrgghh... i dunno.... my heart is in pain wen i got no one to care for me.. especially him! sumore he is far from me... cinta jarak jauh ni memang mnyusahkan dan menyedihkan... tapi apa boleh buat... hanya padamu mu tuhan aku serahkan segalanya.... amin!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:19 AM

Tuesday, August 04, 2009
hey....its aready august..july is over.. birthdy also over..life has been great too..
well.... my love life is much more betta now....
mums birthdy also pass aready... werk is ok still but...certain days was hectic for me..!
life is so sweet now with him around,,,
dah pagi..nak tidur dulu...
herry... i love u!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|3:36 AM