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Friday, January 30, 2009
hi! I miz him... Rindu sgt2 lah... Dia jauh dari aku, tapi dia kata nanti 1 hari aku mesti datang sana punye.. Dia takut aku carik lain.. Aku ckp kalau dia ada untuk aku dan tunggu aku aku pasti ada untuk dia.. Hhmm! he is so understandingkan? I luv him u noe... He is the great and the only guy who makes me hapi and makes me 4get my pass lover.
rupenyer yg waktu kat tasik maninjau,dia pun tengok aku semacam..rupenyer... samalah kite! Hahahaha.... Jahat seh dia..alahai! Rupenyer dia pon suke akulah... Arrrgghhh! Nie buat aku makin syg kat dier seh... Oh no! I luv him so much! Haahhaha...mampoz... Da cinta mati siak... Waakakaak! 3 to 4 yrs down the road i hope i cud be with him... To c my future with him..a veey happy lifw.. I noe im gona be happy with him.. The man who gona love me...
Dia ikhlas dari hati..aku tahu itu... I hope we r gona be together 4eva and thank god 4 everything.. Budi... Yati love u....! Nites!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|8:55 PM

Thursday, January 29, 2009
hai... I got gud news.... I n budi is in luv now... I luv him and he luv me...hahahaa! Wat the hell... We are officially together now... And he say watever it is.. Kita jalani aja... Yg lain kemudian. Dia kata jauh tak ape tau... He love me too... Arrgghhh:p, budi n yati... Haha! Oklah tu... So now.. Hes mine babe! Bye sharul... Hahahhahahha! It all hapen wen i ask him wether he gor job not.if not.. Go find and get married.. Terus,dia ckp dgn sape,aku ckplah dgn sape2 pon boleh..dia ckp takda sape.. ok then.. Aku trus ckp aku takleh luper dier sejak jumpe dia.. Aku penah suke org tapi sejak jumpe'dier aku terus dpt lupe org tuh.. Dia ckp aku suka tk sama dia? Nak tak kawin dgn dia..hhaahah! I said i got no money... Nanti ajalah ke sumatra.. Wahahaha! Dier pon ckp dia suke aku n sayang aku.. Tidur nanti jgn lupe sebut nama dia 3 kali... Hahaha! He is cutekan! Ouh no! Oklah.. I luv him..thank god for evrything... I hope u lead us together... Dada!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:05 AM

Wednesday, January 28, 2009
hye...hahah! sat was fun! went outing with mar ina and firah to town orchard. eat at far east than lepak kat liat towers sbux! yuuhhuu.... life was fun tat point of time only! haha..malam nyer on the way back home i give budi a kol, how nice he treat me at hone.. yelah..saat2 mcm nie semuanya nice... tapi kalau bercinta lagilah nice..haha! cumer.. ntah...tak mungkin kot tapi aku serahkan pada tuhan semuanya!
i still like him as he is..... baik lah dier.. up to date jugak! cumer.. tak berduit..biasa... yg scandal sg pun tak berduit! yg penting hapi dan ikhlas... duit tak menjamin masa depan pon tau! ahahaha........
sunday go changi airport and geylang with mum and makbusu... then monday 1st day of cny we went to jb..mum me and dad... gelang patah! then smlam tak kemana lah cume duk umah jer...nari aku da stat keje kul 4 to 10...haiz... boring ehk! cepat sangat masa.. tapi next week aku dah nak pegi interview dah..yesh!!! hope i got the job on the 4th... i need the money to pay my bills, my car and my insurance... i nd the money to pay mum and dad back and i need the money to get married and holiday.. haha!
oklH BABES...i gtg,taking care. will update again erk... life is so swit if hes with me all the time.. but hes too far..gd nun!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|11:40 AM

Saturday, January 24, 2009
helo! aku betul nya bosan ler... haha! aku nak kuar nari petang jumpa mar,ina and firah..and for the 1st time after a very long time we are going to mit up each other again! yuuhhuu.4.30 later loh... ahahah! oh yer.. coincidencely u noe wat?? ahaha.... mamat tu punye gf is my fren frens... and she pernah suke dgn my fren bf u noe! but becoz shes not pretty and tak cantik she was not accepted by my fren bf but why mamat aku nie gemar kat dier huh?? ya ampun..i got his photo wen i mit him on wed afternun sumwhere in sg... haha! ape ler.... and wen hes not with me at tat time, i kip a look at the ipod and manage to get the pic.. woohhoo!! dier kasi tgk per... so dapat tgklah.... pricessz??? fuck lah princess...watt the hell! bukannyer jambu siol... mcm siak!!! hahahaa...she stay bedok.. woaaoaoah! hey gerl.. ur man likes me ok.... still want me and dun care u.. haha! dgr2 manja semacam but how cum mamat nie bleh suke dgn dier.. bukannyer cantik sangat seh!! arrrgghhh.. tak lawa.... shitlah! i just dun like to c her man... dun like at all!!!!
mcm tak rela dgn dis gerl.. biar dgn gerl lain...well, watever it is... i jus hope mamat nie will be fine... i still like u but, doesnt mean im gona have u as my future husband.. jodoh lah nie semua.. aku suke dgn budi.. mat i don jugak lah! he is so nice leh..hahaha.... well budi.. u must take cre and be fine always... semoga dapat kerja yg baik and selamat hendaknya.. amin!
im off.... 4 days not werking due to CNY... imlek.. and i wanna say happy cny to all chinese....take care bebz... will update again! dada!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|11:46 AM

Thursday, January 22, 2009
hie..alhamdulilah.. aku dapat jugak mengatasi hari2 aku dgn perlahan2 memberi ruang di hati untuk menjadi insan yg baik... aku btol2 tak pasti apa kerja yg aku akan dapat nanti.. aku mohon agar cdc dapat membantu aku kelak..
aku hapi kerja di starbucks and i noe i done all i cud.. life is so difficult sumtimes but like wise u have to learn from mistakes... mcm aku,byk sangat dosa,banyak sgt kesalahan dan kebohongan dalam hidup dan hati yg telah aku lakukan...
jadi aku harus mengenal diri dan aku harus menjalani hidup dgn kekuatan agar jiwaku tenang.. amin!
aku merinduinya.. sesungguhnya budi... aku amat memerlukan kamu.... tapi kau tak pernah memberi aku ruang dlam hatimu kerna kita sentiasa berjauhan.... ya allah... aku mohon kalau benar dier jodohku.. aku akan cari duit untuk menjadikan dier sinar di hatiku ini.... bagaimana dgn kekasih gelapku?? haiz.. tahlah.... both of us had been noeing each other for 9 years almost... and kite tetap kekal sebagai kawan yg baik... cumer.... aku pernah menyintainya sepenuh dan segenap hati... setelah munculnya budi... dier aku tak kisah sgt tapi aku cumer perlukan dier bila aku memerlukan.... kalau tak i juz dun care.... haha!mit him yesterday for a while n ternyata he is still like tat lor.... hahahhaa! biasa sajer.. takde bezanyakan... haiz.... ntah... bosan jugak dgn dier kekadang..tapi biarlah... aku tak kuasa....
he so the..... arrgghhh!! dun care him areadylah k... i hate his attitude but i will make use of him wen i need him.. dadalah... byes!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:12 PM

Saturday, January 17, 2009


NuR Cahaya Hatiku|8:59 PM

yo....im in luv deeply with hijau daun grup!! i luve their songs man... i luv them! oh yeah..i like their osngs so much!!!
suara dengarkanlah aku...apakah aku ada dihatinyaa... aku kan sering menunggunya pasti berharap di dalam hatinya......
yesh! they are from bandar lampung! i find out tat lampung got many people wwho can sing huh!! woohhoo.... life like tat.. hope cud go there one day!
well... i hope monday will bring a better place.. a btter job! i just hope i can grow with the company or at least werk for few years b4 i can migrate... haha! hopefully i cud migrate to other country and find more money! dudududu....
i wanna mit hijau daun!!! hahahahaha..............giler seh aku nie... well lifes like tat mah...mesti jadi giler kejap..hahah! baru lah on! oklah babe... aku gtg... im really hoping to be sumone great and i hope my life wud be bter than ever... allah lah segalanya! amin!.... btw... psssttt.. i mis him... hes at padang now.. i mis him but i cant mit and kol him... he is too far...nites!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|8:42 PM

Tuesday, January 13, 2009
hi peeps.... im here... im sorry didnt turn up for the checkpoint job! wat shit i've done here.... so bad of me! and i hope tat my life is ok.... aaarrgghhh! i dunno... but im trying to look for full tiem job like hospital ,polyclinics,etc... hope to get it soon..
life in sg is hard.... i plan my 5years in advanced aready... hope tat i can make it... in 5 years time, i hope i cud get married, i must keep money now,than find the man of my dreams... i must keep money... i must now how to take care of myself... must noe how to be a gud person... i want to travel..wanna buy house at indon too.... dessy say, 100juta can get house in indo aready means its just sg 12-16k... and i cud get a house there... so i must start saving from now on.. haiz!! life is so complicated hor.... its up to me to noe how to keep money.. haiz... if not. i die u noe... oklah fren, i miss him! i miss him so much in padang bukitinggi.... i just like him!! oklah..... pray for us... hope he will be mine! waaakkaka... dada..
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|8:48 PM

Monday, January 05, 2009
yeSterday i got to noe tat he quit his job..sayangnya brenti.isk....dah tak jadi kenek lagik.. Yelah..gaji tak seberapa agaknya. Hidup kat indonesia mcm tu...dia bukan org senang pon...hmmm! Tapi dia da dua tahun keje and dier brenti eh... Mcm aku jugalah... Tapi aku lain sikit...aku suke keje brenti keje brenti..tak hapi je quit... Mainan perasaan seh nie semua.. Skrg dia tgh carik keje..doa akuu agar dia dpt keje yg baik..amin..!
2 ari lagi nak start keje baru.. Smoga allah melindungi kami berdua...
Insyallah... Oklah..nites... Ngantuk nie..dada!
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NuR Cahaya Hatiku|10:33 PM

Saturday, January 03, 2009
hi...ape kabar? im fine here... jus came back from geylang with mum to buy medicines.. hmmmpphh! now i bored haiz... dunnola... life is so much more to bored den happy! besok diana wedding and hope to c her... raja sehari seh! weeehhheee... at last,nikah jugak lepas lama bertunang.. alhamdulilah...happy for them!
i miss the bukittinggi place even the people.... how i wish i cud mit up with them... life is so great noeing them.... hahah! well.... i hope my relationship with him will be fine still... coz i met sumthing in him! tahlah... org mcm dier sibuk kerja.. jumpe orang...tolong org semua... tak mcm aku! haha...
oklah.. igtg.. dada.
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|8:37 PM

Friday, January 02, 2009
hi! Hapy new year again! 2nd january today, and im so hapy to cum to werk,not like usual..i aready got a msg from Cinta yesterday.. Kesian dia..penat keje panjat gunung merapi.. Tak ke penat tuh.. I jus wana say i miss him so much lah.. thinking of him is much more better than tinking of kekasih gelap.. Hahaa! I jus hope for the better between me n Cinta.. He is sumone nice given by god to cheer me up and make me more happier than ever... After 8years of sadness and after years of thinking of him,i finally got to cheer up and change myself for the better..insyallah... Hidup mesti berani terima kenyataan...
Aku seperti menemukan keindahan diwajahnya..kalau aku boleh memilih,aku inin menjadi yg halal disisinya ya allah.... Bukan kerna apa tapi hati ini seperti berdetik mengatakan dia itu milikku! Cheeewaaaahhh!! Wat the hell u nur!hahahahaahah.... Kalau sudah suka..semuanya bolehlah..dulu suka kat kekasih gelap pon mcm nie..sampai berani kecewa.. Hahah!
Y wen i need him,he not around? And by the time i nd my new found love.. He msg me..wen i already stop myself from loving him like dulu. Hes a big cowardla...i aready gif him all my life and my heart n soul n he break it juz like tat.. By the time i hate him,he find me like hell... Hahahah! Stupid u man....watEver than..
Hidup mesti berubah dan hapy selallu.. I hope to go padang n bukittinggi again tis year... To release my tension n my love hahaa!
I aready convert to part time at sbux...sad to say,i didnt get the ica job??fucking shit... My gf got it...well,life is never fair but u have to live with it to make it faie...hahahaha! Take care... Gtg for my 15min left break..dada!
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NuR Cahaya Hatiku|10:41 AM

Thursday, January 01, 2009
he start not to reply me... asal ehk??? is he ok? haiz... sedih pulak aku.... jgn pasal nie aku give up lagik than suke kawan dgn sharul balik.. no way! he is my pass..painful pass... forgive but never forgets!! shit lah...
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOU.....2009 is here....
life so bored lah nowadays... i hope life in 2009 will be much better for me... ku harap ku temukan cinta.... amin!!!!
oklah.. i blog again.. nak tgk sinetron LIA!! bye!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|6:11 PM