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Sunday, November 30, 2008
hey,im using wireless lan from my new E71 hp tau....haahaha! Da mcm komputer plak...aku tak on laptop lagik....hahhahaah! I bought E71 on friday tats my pay day...hmph! Tis hp got all i need man..hapinyer.. I juz renew my contact amd change plan to i two value and get extra 2oo minutes free talktime outgoing lor..haaha!
Babe,,aku tgh sesak uh skrg..how eh! I juz hope i get a better job seh...with at least 1.5 back home.. Tired siah.
Klah peeps..tired..gtg!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|6:38 PM

Thursday, November 27, 2008
hey! da brape hari tak blog eh.. miz u blog! hey.. im gonna change for the better and more enjoyable life i guess.... i,ve been wanting to akways have a happy life but too bad... my life is not tat great either...im too stress sumtime..dunno where to get money also.... need a part time job but dunno where shud i go then.. haiz! too badlah me! well... i juz hope my life wud be better... yesterday i kol him and he did reply my msg after a month of quietness! shit him! haiz... hahaha
wateverlah eh.... yg penting aku hepi....oklah.... hope god forgive me... take care..
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|7:58 PM

Thursday, November 20, 2008
today my sm mintak maaf coz dah cakap mcm tuh dgn aku...alhamdulilah semua dah ok... and i hope she is fine... tat pompan amek mc... mulut jahat..haiz! mcm nak tenyeh2 dgn cili jer... sialan! hahahaa
well people... i juz mis him but i'll let him go... i'll change for the better... i will take gud care of myself and i will change ... change in terms of berat badan and life.... i wanna be ah happy gal... and i wanna luk gud.. im 24... still young beb....im not getting youger but older..weehhhee! okies?? so lets starts from today nite... take care peeps.... nites!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|10:22 PM

Tuesday, November 18, 2008
aku tak tau lah eh.. nape ada org busuk hati sangat dgn aku...sampai suke sampaikan berita yang tidak2.... haiz....aku baru je keje..tapi ape bleh buatkan? manusia... mulut orang takleh tutup seh.....
kau tau ape?? mgr msg aku 7.53 saying tat i wana take mc again today.... if im not interested i can tender and dont have to make people life difficult....ape seh maksud dorg??? aku takde intention pon amek mc..asal ckp mcm tuh?geram seh mcm nie... and she wen i wanna talk shes not there for me....she go meeting and then will be back on thursday jer...tahlah... orang kalo mulut mcm nie tak bagus seh... haiz...!!!! watever..... if i got ica or cso... i convert lah nampaknyer.... hidup nie betulnnya susah.. and i look like im not interested plak? since wen? juz becoz i take mc is it? bull shitlah......haiz..... life is so miserable sumtimes.... ape aku bleh buat??? hanya berdoa pada tuhan mane yg aku harus ikuti... ampunilah aku ya allah.. mungkin ini adalah petunjuk padaku kerana aku telah banyak salah kepadamu..
life like tat.... bare with it....nites!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|11:41 PM

Sunday, November 16, 2008
hey.. tired lah me... besok keje pagi lagi... 8.30 to 6pm..wah lau.... punyelah penat seh nanti... aarggghh!
i juz dun like shift mcm tuh... entahlah eh.. tak sebati dgn hidup aku tau...
ni mamat hilang tah kemane tah... aku lagi frust dgn dier...lagi pening biler pikirkan dier...ape dah jadi dgn dier pun aku taktau seh... haiz,,i miz him thou but i have to learn to let him go coz he is not mine either... but i believe he will msg me one day.... im sure of tat... watever it is.. i juz luv u still till the end although i noe i wont get u.... take care dear...
tuesday aku closin...arrgghh shitlah...
but on the 16th of this month, im going for holiday.... alhamdulilah mum wanna go.... so dapatlah pegi and going padang bukittinggi and maninjau...
insyallah.. on the 16th and come back on the 20th of dec... lagi satu... aku applying job soon.... hopin to get the cust. service job... kat checkpoint..dapat aku amek jelah dulu... starbucks change to part ime then... hmm...... doakan yg terbaik kerna hanya allah yg tahu segalanya and if ica happens to call i go for it too... dada.. nites..!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|10:01 PM

Tuesday, November 11, 2008
yuuhuu....stil no sign of him man.. he still not here..dead i guess...! hahahhaa
wat the fuckk....nvmlah... will let u guys noe again...
im hoping for the better...insyallah next mth i going holiday and im applying leaves... c how 1st... oklah! i nd to go.... tired and no mood actually!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|12:51 AM

Sunday, November 09, 2008
assalamualaikum!!! ape khabar?im gud.. great here juz tat bit problem with my car! hahaha..... ade oooppsss..lipas..hahaha! mane datang??? tahlah.... tak guna btol.... anyway i guess many people must have found lipas at their cars.... asal jangan benda2 yg bukan2 jer udahlahkan.... weeehhheee!!
aku penggeli lipas...... shit!!!
well...... peepppsss all im tired lah... today pagi went to masjid antar mum hahah selepas da berbulan lamanya tak pakai tudung,tak ke masjid untuk syarahan.. akhirnya tadi kite pegi..hahahahaahah ...wat a joke yati! hey.. people can change u noe...
btw..... dah 3 weeks he tak mesej me.... alangkah hinanya aku nie yer.... sampai mcm nie dier buat aku yer??? ape dosa aku eh???? aku nie buruk sangat ke sampai dier nak jauhkan diri??? i guess ur gf kene buang keje from dbs.. maklumlah baru keje... hahah! baru padan muke! isk.. ya allah.. tak baik seh aku tapi aku agak jer... mane tau kene buang kan???? i jus love tat..... well......... i guess let him be lah....
if he wants me.. he'll msg... if the gF TAT HE USED TO CALL PRINCESS ask for a fight or wat.. serve him right! let she herself noe her true colours.... yuuuhhuuu..... life is so unfair... but i dont care.. i noe god is always there to help me....
sape idup dalam dunia takde problem.. semua org ader... so lets take it easy! all will help me by all means!
walau hatiku pedh berbisa sekalipon... aku tetap akan tersenyum walau dalam kedukaan... hanya tuhan yg tahu segalanya.... dier maha mengetahui maha pelindung maha penyayang umatnya.... so nur.... wake up... look forward... for ur ow future.... love is nothing! insyallah.. i'll try my best although i noe its very hard to forget all the memories.... sweet and bad memories of mine and i hope... god mit me up with all gud reasons in life.... amin!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|6:43 PM

Saturday, November 08, 2008
on my way home... listen to song nurul-tiada kali kedua... but for me wud be tiada kali ketiga i guess..... coz im turning back for him for the second time... and for the third time i jus wanna say... im free from him! i have to let him go.. i have to forget him and its a must... coz its never gona end with me like this...my luv... i guess.. i need to mit u for the last time... hug u,kiss u and lastly... let u go with all my heart.. i have to with all my heart.... coz i luv u so much and i cant forget so i must let u go.... by all means i have to let u go..... well.... love, i noe u noe huw much i love u but plz..... if u wanna get away from me.. dun do tis to me... i cry wen i listen to nurul song u noe!! coz i really cant say how much i love u.. cant describe my love feelings for u too....
kalau kita menyintai seseorang.... kite harus berjaya melepaskannya dengan rela hati...walau pahit getirnya kite tetap harus melupakannya dgn sesunguhnya.... jika dier kembali dier jodoh kite... kerana hanya takdir allah yg akan menyatukan kite berdua.... ya allah... aku mohon agar kau bahagiakan dier, sihatkan dier dan berikan dier keampunan atas dosa2 nya yang tela dilakukan.... kau kuatkan dier mengharungi dunia ini dan kehidupan nya yang ada sekrg... aku mohon kau dapat jadikan dier insan yg berguna dan kau berkatilah hidupnya... ampunkan dosa2 kami berdua dan bukakanlah hati kami kejalanmu.... ya allah, aku berharap agar kau jadikan kami yg terbaik disisimu kerna telah alpa dgn kehidupan dunia.... berilah kami petunjuk sebanarnya.... ya allah,relakan aku melepaskannya dan cabutlah dier dari nyawa hidupku ini.. aku tak rela untuk mendekatinya sekiranya diriku sendiri disiksa olehnya..... ya allah..... tolonglah hambu ini.....
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|7:52 PM

hie babes! im here at 2.11am... im just wondering and juz only finish watching konsert by request from indo... haha! hapi u.. ada st12,seventeen and vagetoz...
he still never msg me yet... let him be.. im now bz with thinking of werk... well, i really hope i got the ica interview... hopefully i got in... i juz hopefor a better job than... life is so bored without a btter job.. im sick of it,,, so i hope i get tat job and go ahead till i old...insyallah! kene byk doa....
yuuhhuu.... my life i so bored sumtimes.. bored with werk.. i noe tat life not easy but it doesnt fit my heart and my heart doesnt flow with wat i want....tats y i always feel like this... i jus hate myself sumtimes... i dunno! i hate my own life..... love also doesnt werk..now i shud learn how to be myself and love myself.. i really hope my heart flows with wat i do. im really2 not happi with my life. hidup nie tersiksa kdg2... jadi masa untuk berubah dah start..hehee!
doakan yg terbaik untukku.....
take care...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:09 AM

Wednesday, November 05, 2008
Ungu
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|8:42 PM

Tuesday, November 04, 2008
enda and me..yeyehhhaaaa!!!


hey hello bebe! im ok here.. fine je cume penat smcm plak sejak keje starbucks nie.. ntahlah... penat diri kot...well.. life is so boring...got gud job but less pay..hahah! betul... aku taktau lah kan.. ape yg aku tahu aku lebih suke kerja yg bebas... shud i apply for ica now? ya i shud but if i got ica..its a commitment.. i will not be werking at starbucks all.... coz ica is my 1st priority mah...i shud.... try for my career...im 25next year... im so weak and so sick of my life...aaarrgggghhh!!!
wat i missed now is ungu konsert..... looking forward for ungu again soon...hope to mit them again!yeaha!! ahhahahah.......love ungu so much....
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:14 AM

Saturday, November 01, 2008
UNGU!!!! I LOVE U GUYS.. THANSK FOR UR GREAT SUPER PERFORMANCE MAN..... I LOVE U 5...
AND............ I WAS THE LAST THREE TO GET TO TAKE PHOTOS WITH U GUYS MAN... I LOVE U ALL... LIFE IS GREAT.. THANKS GOD FOR MAKING MY DAY! U HAVE MADE ME REALLY HAPPY NOE... UNGU.. I LOVE U SO MUCH!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHHAA...........................
IM LUCKY..REZEKI ALLAH SEH... well.... god really makes me happy and ungu i love u all..!! life is so happy with this kind of people who can make u happy.... well... i hope i can change for the better... insyallah!!
well..... im one of thelucky people.... take care peeps..will msg u all again!
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