it's been so long.
i never had a chance to play this for you.
cos everytime the music starts,
i always cannot go with the tune.
and then you went away,
now the lyrics seem to stray.
so how can i not love you?
when i live just for you.
you took away the heart in me,
that once beat in harmony.
now, i am torn apart,
feeling unemotional somehow.
sometimes, i can't help but cry.
i miss the way we used to be.
and the sad part,
the song i made,
is just a music that will fade.
and the reasonis you.
NoRhayati Bte SaLLeH
22Nd years old
boRn on 25Th juLy 1984
Leo Gal...
North Side of Singapore
Full time Career In SpineLLi
Loves the Nature,Arts,Coffee,Adventures,Excitement..
She's Simple And independent..
Well behaved and Friendly..
Reading,outing and Stubborn...
Shes now living life to the Fullest!!
but everythingmeans nothing.
Saturday, August 30, 2008
holaho... i already got the job at SB.. alhamudlilah.. 5 day werk week with sat and sundays off... yeah! hahaah...so the rest of the daes i can werk at cedele... hehehe! best best.. walaupun gaji kecik tapi hati tetap hapi ler... dari gaji besar menyusahkan ajer..hahaha! oklah peeps.. u all take care yeah.. msg u again later and u noe wat Cinta fitri wins!!! shireen sungkar and Teuku wisnu is artus negtop SCTV awards... and........... ungu is the band tat wins to...same as rossa.. love themm take cares!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:40 AM
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
hey. i got my tix to watch ungu on the 31st of october.. at esplanade... hope its gona be a great show of coz... aniwaez.. i hope life is gona be better wen i werk back in fnb line.. i juz hate to werk at airport as csa.. while waiting for ica... i juz werk for sb and cedele 1st.. oklah peeps.. semoga tuhan mmebantu aku.. dada...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:58 PM
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Oh, TUHAN... ujian ini terlalu berat kutanggung. Mencintai dan dicintai amat kudambakan. Tetapi, kenapa aku tidak merasai belaian jiwa lelaki itu?" -- petikan dari novel Sandaran hati from aini marisha..
Bukankah cinta memerlukan pengorbanan? Ahh.. tetapi tidak selamanya hati teguh andai cinta terus-terusan diuji. Sekali terluka, parutnya tinggal sampai bila-bila. Lalu, apa lagi yang terbaik selain nekad mengikut kata hati? Kerana... itu adalah lebih baik daripada merelakan diri hidup bahagia dalam kepura-puraan..-- petikan novel kerana terluka dari aida andriani..
ya allah... sekiranaya dia adalah jodohku.. aku berserah segalanya padamu.. kau bukakan hatinya untuk kembali kepadaku dan kau lepaskan kami dari siksaan yg berat. sekiranay jodoh ada pada kami berdua... kau satukan kami berdua ke alam pernikahan ya allah.. sekiranya jodoh kami berlainan.. kau temukan kami dgn insan yg dapat membahagiakan kami dunia akhirat.. insyallah..amin..
tis sunday cinta fitri hero and heroin shireen sungkar and teuku wisnu is cuming to sg! yesh... and on friday 31st october.. ungu consert live at esplanade.. yahhoo...i already bought the tix at cck lot 1.. haha! i luv it man.. i get the 1st 3rd row and im so happy for tat. yeshlah... ahhahaha.... i love ungu man.... oklah peeps... taking care yeah...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:32 PM
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Download Ungu - Dengan Nafas-Mu Mp3 [*] Izinkan ku ucap kata taubat Sebelum Kau memanggilku kembali pada-Mu, menutup waktuku
Izinkan ku serukan nama-Mu Sebelum nyawa dalam tubuhku Kau ambil, kembali pada-MU
[**] Karna ku tahu, hanyalah pada diri-Mu Tempatku mengadu, tempatku mengeluh Di dalam do’aku
[***] Dan demi nafas yang telah kau hembuskan dalam kehidupanku Ku berjanji, ku akan menjadi yang terbaik Menjalankan segala perintah-Mu, menjauhi segala larangan-Mu adalah sebaris do’a ku untuk-Mu
hey babe! u noe wat... monday im gonna gif my resign letter... 2 weeks later im gona call it i quit.. hehehe! i noe im doing the wrong think but im very sure that i cant live in the airport environment and job animore...i dun noe.. i follow my heart here and i dun have to say anithink... i juz have to say i quit...hahahha!
now thinking to get terminated or not?? if i kasi resign letter in 24 hour basis... i dun tink they will accept...i dun noe.. but i tot i wanna try it.. duh!!! hhahahaah... i got no more mood to werk there.... i hate myself for all this.. I DUNNO...but i always follow my heart... if my heart say go ahead... i jus go ahead... coz tats my own life...my own heart... i dun care at all lor.... hahaha! well..... i juz tink i have to go... go and go...tas say 24 hours i have to pay money so might as well i juz dun bother...make it besok my last day,... so no one noes... im gona go and wont be at the airport animore... hahaha! buat ape keje kalau tak hapi and hati merana.... walaupun aku takde byk masalah dgn dm tapi aku tetap akan berhenti besok.. wakakakka... terminated pun terminated lah kan... ape bleh buat...besok aku dtg keje tapi lepas tuh aku berhenti jer.... wakakakkaa...maybe aku dtg pagi untuk clearkan locker aku trus aku belah je mcm tuh...
wakakakakaka...i can do anithing man... k ar.... i hope god gona help me... if tis is wat god had plan for me.. aku redha... amin!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:58 PM
Monday, August 18, 2008
hai... ya allah.... aku berterima kasih padamu kerna telah menyelamatkan ku dari masalah berat dan tambahan dosa yg tak terampun... aku benar mahu menuju kearahmu.. aku mohon kau berilah aku petunjuk dan rahmat ke jalan mu yg lurus... berikan aku kekuatan dan temuilah aku dgn insan2 yg beriman dan bertaqwa padamu.. berilah aku jodoh yg terbaik yg kau telah siapkan untuk ku sepanjang hidupku menuju akhirat nanti... aku berharap kau berikan aku kekuatan melewati hari2 mendatang...
aku ingin mengubah hidupku menjadi insan yg bernasib baik.. yg berjiwa murni dan berjiwa nurani ikhlas dan baik.. aku tahu aku telah byk melakukan dosa dan kesalahan besar dalam hidup aku sepanjang 24 tahun aku hidup... ya allah... kerana cinta kasih dan sayang, aku hilang segalanya dan aku hilang harga diri... aku tak tahu ape yg aku boleh lakukan lagi untuk mengembalikan harga diri aku agar setaraf dgn kehidupan ku harian nanti...demi allah,aku bersyukur kau telah byk membantu aku dan aku telah diberikan kesempatan kedua untuk insaf kejalanmu...
2 minggu lagi akan tibanya bulan puasa... aku harap aku dapat menjaga tata tertib kehidupan ku di harian nanti. semoga aku jadi seorg yg penyabar,ikhlas dan penuh dgn keimanan ke jalan mu ya allah....
alhamdulilah.. smeuanya akan selesai.... thanks allah. thanks again!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|10:27 PM
Sunday, August 17, 2008
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|10:05 PM
hie...it has been almost 3 weeks tis tuesday tat he ignore me... oklor.. so if u ignore me.. i'll ignore u too.... wat happen to him? i dunno... wat i noe he is bz with his life and the gf... so later part of ur life dun msg me kay?
terima kasih tuhan kerana telah membantu aku menangani semua ini dengan sebaik mungkin walaupun ia amat memeritkan.. pedih sekali untuk melupakan nya.... aku terlalu sedih untuk melupakannya.... aku pasrah... jadi untuk aku memperbaiki diri.. aku harus melupakan cinta aku padanya.. sekiranya jodoh aku betul dgnnya... aku terpaksa terima..dengan senang hati..ape pun aku redha dgn kehendak tuhan.. masanya untuk aku bertaubat dan mengigati allah yg maha pengasih lagi maha penyayang....
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:58 PM
Friday, August 15, 2008
syahadat cinta is a new movie....
hope to watch this soon...
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Tuesday, August 12, 2008
im not werking again today.. yeeehheee... aniwaes.. how but urself? life has been ok but im still furios... im juz worried of sumthing tat has not been ok tis mth... i hope tat thing will come soon and i hope it will stay me away from getting dosa and more dosa.... weeehhheeee....
life has been complicated ..tadi aku try using private nbr public phone to call him.. and yesh.. he pick up.. mane tahu dier tukar nbr ker..ehhehehe.....he is still there... wah.... actually i missed him but... i have to let go.... after 2 weeks of kiping quiet.. we both shud learn how to stay away from each other then... hmm... dunno lah.. watever it is.. i hope life is getting better for me.... and him!!!
love is gonaa come one day.. jodoh pertemuan ditangan tuhan.. seandainya dier milikku.. aku akan dapat dier dan jadikan dier suamiku yg sah.. tapi sekiranya jodoh kite tidak bersama... aku rela lepaskan....but in future... now he did tis to his gf... in future... if not with me.. he will be having an affair with sumone else.. memang berat dan sakit sekali hati ni tapi aku teruskan... aku teruskan melupakan dier dgn sebaik mungkin.. aku harus melupakannya..... only god can help me..... tiem for me to change after did all the stupid mistakes in life... -----------------------------------------------------------------------------
pedih dan sakitnya mencucuk ke dalam kalbu amat menyiksakan jiwa... aku redha dgn ape saje yg telah tuhan berikan padaku... aku harap.. antara aku dan dier dapat diredhai tuhan.. aku harap sekali tuhan jauhkan aku dgn dosa2 yg aku telah lakukan.... pedihnya amat membara.... perasaan aku ini takdpt ditolak jauh.. haha! ia benar2 menyakitkan hati bile cube melupakan seseorg yg jadi pujaan hati... parah lukanya terasa deras dan teramat berat menikam ke kalbu... aduh!!!!!! hanya allah yg tahu segalanya.... hambabu ini perlukan tuhan disisi.... ampunkan dosaku tuhan... amin!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|7:20 PM
Monday, August 11, 2008
hi! on off day today and on leave for 3 days...and rest on friday! yesh..... hehe! im off from werk for 5 days! great ryte.. i like... oh yar... like wat my dream told me.. its true i gues... he is avoiding me and not gona reply my msg animore... so y care... yesterday i already ask him "senyap jer" and it was at nite dalam kul 12...maybe hes asleep... and by now... i juz dun bother to msg him animore... melainkan bulan puasa...dan hari raya untuk mintak maaf..tats all... i need to change and avoid him... hes sumone bf... i noe i cant get him.. so y still go on and msg him!throwing my hopes 4 him to love me ... lets go on and move on nur!!!!
ramadhan in 3 weeks time! yesh.. i like... oklah... working part time besok...hope its better than airport.. c ya!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|9:32 PM
Saturday, August 09, 2008
on MC AGAIN TODAY. HEHHEE! seow me... aniwae... im juz bored siah.. im juz bored here... i got a lot of problem yesterday at counter... so do i today.. mesti ade punyer... sebab aku kan counter..haiz... wat can i do then???
juz dont wanna say bout yesterday.. juz about lmc on with no booking tat was auth by dm robert and rover mira... and afternun is about a lady who left her passport with the staff mi internet c/in bagdrop..and want me to check if i noe whether the passport is there or not...watever and wanna complain complain lor.. im not in the wrong!! haahahaha..
bosan.............keje under airlines tak gune ar kadang2... haiz!!! shit man.. i dun like at all....dah masuk 11 ari dier tak msg.. baguslah.. oklah.. i gtg ! taking care!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|3:25 PM
Friday, August 08, 2008
08082008.... yuuhhuu...... 4 years back.. i set my goal to get married today 080808... but.... i fail to! hahahaa.... so have to wait lor... sad to say but i cant do anything.. hehe... jodoh blum sampai beb.. and im still very young though.. car duit and kumpul semua lepas dah ade semuanya baru bleh cari laki.. wekekekeeke...
the man nik is no longer in my list.. he attached to sumone aredy... the man sharul is half of my list but i dunno where our relationship go.. still hangng down the drain... hahha!oklah.. besok national day tapi kene keje.. i get my part time at CEDELE.. syukurlah... ok babes.. c ya!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|12:29 PM
Thursday, August 07, 2008
Lirik lagu ST12 - Jangan Pernah Berubah
Biarkan waktu teruslah berputar Mencintai kamu penuh rasa sabar Meski sakit hati ini kau tinggalkan Ku ikhlas ‘tuk bertahan
Cintaku padamu begitu besar Namun kau tak pernah bisa merasakan Malah kini kau ucapkan selamat tinggal Membuat keresahan
Reff:[*] Meninggalkanku tanpa perasaan Hingga ku jatuhkan airmata Kekecewaan ku sungguh tak berarah Biarkan ku harus bertahan
[**] Jangan pernah kau coba untuk berubah Tak relakan yang indah hilanglah sudah Jangan pernah kau coba untuk berubah Tak relakan yang indah hilanglah sudah Jangan pernah kau coba untuk berubah Ku relakan yang indah dalam hatinya
now..... at this moment of time... i feel i lost sumone i really love so much... he is one man i love in heart and unfortunately i have to let him go slowly from my heart and feelings... i have to and till today after 8 days he didnt message me at all.. didnt ask how i am... am i ok? have i eaten? hows werk? hows life? no... not a single msg or words from him.... i hate this man!! but i guess... this is the best time to let him go..... i have to becoz he is not mine... he is sumones bf... and for that gerl... i wish her all the best and gud luck with him... plz take care of him properly becoz if u lack of love he will for sure find another gal to play around with...sad to say yar??? i want him but...... god say hes not for me.... jodoh aku dgn org lain... jadi.... its best for me to suffer now and let go rather than i wait for him like hell.... i cant jus say.. i have to prove it that what i say is true.... haiz...
y u make my life so difficult by loving u??? i juz dunnoe how.... i juz love u for who u are...u are sumone i treasured most in my life... i love u deep and give u everything that i have... but in teh end.. i dint got u still.... i am stupid fool... i understand tat but im happy with what i did.... looking me from outside i look happy but from inside no one noes..... im juz bored without u by my side... im really hating myself for all this that i did but i never regret... never in my life i regret coz i love sumone in my life for 8 years.... and i dunno when will this end... love love love is really blind.... duh!!! hate myself for all this while.... god plz help me release this feeling that i really cant handle and take it... plz get him out of my life... im juz tired of all this dramas.... arrgghh!! allah.... hambamu ini perlukan mu..... time to think and change nur..
gotta werk at 5pm today..till 3am.. i like that shift rather than 3 to 1.. hate that shift... the driver sucks... oklah.. i need to be alone and think what shud i do now.. take cre!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:41 PM
Monday, August 04, 2008
lirik lagu egokah aku-wali
Ku… tak pernah merasa Gundah di hatiku, Ketika denganmu Saat kau, Kau belai rambutku Kau temani aku, Kau basuh lukaku
Kini semua berlalu Karena engkau tak memilihku
Salahkah aku mencintaimu Walau kutahu kutak dihatimu Egokah aku memilikimu Walau kutahu kau tak memilihku Kuharap tuhan cabut nyawamu Agar tak ada yang milikimu
Sadarkah kini ku tak rela Iman ku telah sirna Mimpiku tak nyata
Kini semua berlalu Karena engkau tak memilihku
Salahkah aku mencintaimu Walau kutahu kutak dihatimu Egokah aku memilikimu Walau kutahu kau tak memilihku Kuharap tuhan cabut nyawamu Agar tak ada yang milikimu Kuharap tuhan cabut nyawamu Agar tak ada yang milikimu
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|10:22 PM
Ramadan (Arabic: رمضان, Ramaḍan) is a Muslim religious observance that takes place during the ninth month of the Islamic calendar, believed to be the month in which the Qur'an began to be revealed..
The name "Ramadan" is taken from the name of this month; the word itself derived from an Arabic word for intense heat, scorched ground, and shortness of rations. It is considered the most venerated and blessed month of the Islamic year. Prayers, sawm (fasting), charity, and self-accountability are especially stressed at this time; religious observances associated with Ramadan are kept throughout the month.
Laylat al-Qadr, which falls during the last third, commemorates the revelation of the first verses of the Qur'an and is considered the most holy night of the year. Ramadan ends with the holiday Eid ul-Fitr, on which feasts are held. During the month following Ramadan, called Shawwal, Muslims are encouraged to fast for a further six days. The most prominent event of this month is the fasting (sawm) practiced by most observant Muslims. Every day during the month of Ramadan, Muslims around the world get up before dawn to eat the Suhoor meal (the pre dawn meal) and perform their fajr prayer. They break their fast when the fourth prayer of the day, Maghrib (sunset), is due.
During Ramadan, Muslims are expected to put more effort into following the teachings of Islam and to avoid obscene and irreligious sights and sounds. Sexual activities during fasting hours are also forbidden.[Qur'an 2:187] Purity of both thought and action is important. The fast is intended to be an exacting act of deep personal worship in which Muslims seek a raised level of closeness to their god. The act of fasting is said to redirect the heart away from worldly activities, its purpose being to cleanse the inner soul and free it from harm. Properly observing the fast is supposed to induce a comfortable feeling of peace and calm. It also allows Muslims to practice self-discipline, sacrifice, and sympathy for those who are less fortunate, intended to make Muslims more generous and charitable. Muslims can eat after the sun has set. Pregnant women, the elderly, the ill and children less than 12years of age are all exempt from fasting as lack of food could damage health...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|9:16 PM
saturday after werk wen out with mum and auty busu to east coast.. carpark full.... so slowly round and round juz to c whethers theres any space left.. its mum bdae.. we have some satays and mi goreng lus mum soto ayam... ehehe! then, reach home nearly 1am.. im werking at 4.30 siah... then...i sleep flat after the driving to east coast... soon after... i woke up at 4 and realise tat.... i already missed the taxi transport... then... i realise... tat.. im not gping for the otr tat day and i sleep back... hahaa! wat the hell!!! sdo kol at 0439 is guess... and i didnt even heard of it.. then i ask kak ju check ufis they put.... no show!! hahahhaa....wah lau!! then wen out with mum to admiralty and then to mot fei lian at city hall at 1540... haha! went jalan2 and we went to eat.after tat we go marina square and we go esplanade... ade grups of singers performing great songs.... had fun yesterday and im sad to hear tat fei broke up with her bf 2 mths ago.... sad for her... the relationship was like 7 years... duh! heart pain ryte..??? hmmm....
for my self?? i dun noe how my relationship with him werks... im juz noting t him... a doll where he can play around and juz sumone to kip him accompany wen hes bored lor.... im juz a playing doll! sedih kan?? tapi ape kau bleh buat... i juz have to be firm to myself and try to be happy like usual...i have to wake up and stop dreaming! he is sumones gerlfren man..... im noting to him... hes a great lier... how cud i left him?? after i gave everything in me to him???? how shud i left him... after i gif all my life and future for him..?? my heart really pains we tis happen.... but i have to learn how to stay away from him... im in deep trouble here.. and my life is such a waste wen im with him...after 8 years spending my love for sumone who i cant even get...isnt it a waste of time and effort?? haiz.... i dunnoe!!!! dunno wat else i can do.... wake up nur.... life is better without him.. im sure i can repeat wat hapen to me dulu....stay happy! and let go all tat u have to let go..... hehe! peace...
NoRhayati Bte SaLLeH 
