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Monday, March 31, 2008
hii.... as usual at cafe ritazza corner... haiz! wat a bored day doing hub! everi single day im bored with doing hub! arrrgghhh........ unless i do ot,i'll come back and do arr/dep! heezzz... haiz!!! aku taktau... blluueeekkk...
apa lah yati... last few daes he msg and i didn reply... watever ar.. malaz! aku lebih rela tak reply..takmu merana... ekeke! oklah babes, will blog again soon... wed i ot off day! taking cares!! byes!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|9:11 PM

Thursday, March 27, 2008
heya! at werk now at as usual cafe ritazza internet corner during my free time. i got an hour more before a service briefing at sdo! wahlau... dunno what they wanna tok about then i go for an hour break.... trus go for MI flight at t2 and to arrival from sydney at T3... so far so gudlah...
werk was ok, but i need to learn more. sumtimes i dun really noe how to speak to passenger so thats my weakest point coz i myself sumtimes not too sure of airport! but i need to back up and learn more on this.... after that i will be at krischeck doing checkin,tranfer desk and bla bla bla...... haiz! dunno what it will be then....
i really hope that werk will be ok....if nothing occurs, i'll try to stay here and maybe sign a permanent bond with the company. hope so.... but if not,after 2 or three years,i'll try another government sector as about the same i ever did b4 and u noe what i really missed ryte???? my coffee life job as barista!!!! hahahahaha... i need it man! maybe i'll try one again soon but only after i c how much i earn for my pay this few mths to cum.... if it sucks,i guess... i fgotta hold a 2nd job at any coffee chain in sg again! maybe back to starbucks or pacific coffeee..... yuuhhooo!!
he had not been msging me for the past 2 weeks... i just hope his fione with his 'GIRL' coz his love to her is like a real love... but can u imagine,if u really love sumone,wud u play around with another person and had sex or watever flirt with another guy or gerl??? he did..... !!! if tyhe gf noe his attitude,serve him right! anyway,i juz hope he will be happy with his love life! me?? as usual im just as normal and im really hoping for a big change in life.... i need to be with frens and family! waiting for my suzuki swift soon and yeah.. travel all around sg and the whole world will be my pastimes! oklah babes, i need to chow... taking care yeah!!
allah,aku pohon kau temukan aku dgn insan yg dapat membawaku kejalan yg benar... amin!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|8:56 AM

Monday, March 24, 2008
hi babe! its been a boring dae at werk coz i been doing hub! but oklah.. got many free times at werk.. dunno when go krischeck!i juz hope to go class back and mit all my colleagues! haiz.... werk and werk and werk!! hope i can bring lotz since i got many ots and allowance! oklah..insyallah!
my life is still the same... no guys yet coz i believe god have got sumone for me and i noes he got 1001 reasons or more for my single life now and future to come...only allah noes and i believe in allah!
aku cube menyesal dgn perbuatan aku dulu tapi ia datang kembali dan kemudian ia pergi.. arrgghh! i hate him man.... y is he there 4 me??? i hate him!!! ya tuhan, temukan aku dgn insan yg dapat membawa aku kersyurgamu ke jalanmu yg terbaik dan jalan mu yg kau redhai! amin.... aku kesal dgn perbuatanku ini dan kau berilah aku jalan menuju jalan yg benar dan berilah aku hidayah dan kekuatan menempuh hidup ini dgn adanya keyakinan dalam diri kepada allah! kuserahkan segalanya padamu tuhan kerana kutahu hanya engkau yg tahu segalanya! amin.. insyallah!
siapalah gerangan insan itu???? aku menanti dia di akhirat kelak.....!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|9:38 PM

Wednesday, March 19, 2008
hie! werking at 4.30 today again! ahaahhaha..boring job man... haiz! wat to do... i got nothing to do nowadays.. have to only wait for some flight but not all flight have transfer hub crew.. i hope i can go back o class at aft5 asap.... hopefully lor... dunno how it goes...anyway.. my frens at werk was ok.. fun to be with and they are very nice towards me.. just that we still need time to know each other better...
i tink.. he get from his gal last sunday! up to him lah... as long he is happy with his gal..im ok. but i tink kan,i wanna try to kip quiet and tak reply his msg biler he msg me this time.jgn reply balik ar.. cube buat tktau jer ker... hahaha.... i must try to avoid him.... if not my life will be such a waste... haiz! i shud man i shud! oklah peeps.. today nite is pay day.... cant wait for it..hehe! c u guys later on...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|12:50 PM

Monday, March 17, 2008
hie! im at t1 again now.. after doing sq 961 now im here to jalan2... bosan seh buat hub but i got all my free tiem i want! alhamdulilah lah... keje maseh ok and stable lagik! aku bosan pun dapat masuk gaji per... i met and say my customer from spinelli today! she just arrived from, jakarta... haha! how i wish i cud go travelling now... too bad.. not the time yet... im waiting for nur and dara competition..lepas tu boleh pergi kl kali nie.. hopefully lah but after the competition next destinantion will be bangkok or maybe saigon. hehe! entahlah.. tgk mcm ner....
he met his gerl semalam again petang... well his playing around with my feelings still.. aahhhrrrhh....dun bother lah... yg penting aku happy with my lifes now... dia tyakde pon takpelah.. tak kisah! alah... tak rugilah.... i still luve him but takde gunanyer... haiz! takde gunanya yati.... jgn buang masa dgn dia.... tapi tahla.. takdir da menemukan aku dgn dia dgn macam2 dugaan.. aku terpaksa terima dgn rela dan senang hati.. tapi antara aku dgn dia sumone have to really gif up siah! me of coz!!!! haiz..... tahlah.... i dont love him aready but.... the feeling is still sikit2 tetap ade... ahaha! life is bored with all this problem but theres no life without problems mah...
klah... today i go back 3am... i wanna go sdo for a while.. c ya real soon!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|8:47 PM

Friday, March 14, 2008
hi! im at terminal 1 now waiting for 12am midnite i mean! i just finish my job understudy elva ling at hub transfer. so far its ok and great somemore i got lots of free time here. wow! hahaha... hub eh? y must i go here? how cum siah?
well,nvm coz after this i guess im going for krischeck and it will be more harder than wat i learn here. anyways... life is ok now... im been in luv with him again this few days... hahaha! idiot man.. i just go with the flow.... if the jodoh is him.. aku amek,kalau bukan dia than mungkin orang lain... aku hanya berserah pada tuhan sahaja. insyallah adalah jodoh aku nanti yer.. hehehehehe! anyway.... i need to g now.... will blog wen i got free time tomorow or etc... taking care... nites!!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|11:01 PM

Tuesday, March 11, 2008
i guess.... im in the dream world where i want him to be mine personally.. but i dont carelah.. i just want him for sumthing else. he is nothing to me.. i juz dont bother.. watever it is.. the love and frenship between us will never fade. coz he is sumone who i cared and i love to the max b4... haha!
aku slalu berdoa pada tuhan.... sekiranya dia adalah jodoh aku,satukanlah kami berdua ke pernikahan dan sekiranya dia bukan untukku,kau temukanlah aku dgn insan lelaki yg dapat membahagiakan aku dunia akhirat ke jalanmu ya allah...amin!
its hard to get sumone who is gud in religion now siah...a guy who noes bout islam and a guy who really love a women becoz of islam...
haiz.... wait lah yati..... wait and wait till u get one yeah! hahahaha.....
life sucks wen comes to love! i juz hate it! love is nothing to me... haiz!!! bosan sekali! this cuming thursaday im posted to doing hub transfer... aduh! boring but i juz hope i can still werk like usual... haha! wat to do... life. im waiting for another 13 mths and i can go out of this line but then.. i see how it goes as wel as the pay. if gud i stay,if not i juz leave and find a better one... oklah.. i gtg siap2 nak keje at 5pm.. all the best! buybbyyes...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:23 PM

Maksudnya:“Perempuan yang berzina dan laki-laki yang berzina, maka deralah tiap-tiap seorang dari keduanya seratus kali dera, dan janganlah belas kasihan kepada keduanya mencegah kamu untuk (menjalankan) agama Allah, jika kamu beriman kepada Allah, dan hari akhirat, dan hendaklah (pelaksanaan) hukuman mereka disaksikan oleh sekumpulan orang-orang yang beriman.”
Juga telah diriwatkan oleh Bukhari dan Muslim daripada Ibn. Mas’ud r.a bahawasanya Nabi Muhammad s.a.w telah bersabda yang bermaksud:
“Tidak halal darah orang-orang Islam kecuali berlakunya salah satu daripada tiga perkara iaitu orang yang telah berkahwin berzina, orang yang membunuh dengan sengaja dan orang yang keluar daripada agamanya juga yang berpecah daripada jamaah orang-orang Islam.”
Adakah sahabat-sahabat sekalian terfikir mengapa terdapat perbezaan di dalam hukuman yang dijalankan bagi kesalahan yang sama tetapi dilakukan oleh kategori manusia yang berbeza?
Sepintas lalu ulama’ menggariskan bahawa menghukum mereka yang belum berkahwin jika sabit kesalahan dengan 100 rotan adalah wajar sebagai pengajaran kepada mereka yang telah melakukannya ataupun remaja yang berkeinginan mencubanya. Hukuman sebat ditentukan bagi pesalah jenis ini adalah kerana mereka belum pernah merasa nikmat perkahwinan. Keinginan mereka adalah disebabkan oleh dorongan nafsu yang kadangkala dapat mengatasi fikiran manusia sehingga menjerumuskannya melakukan kesalahan zina.
Rejam sampai mati pula adalah hukuman yang dijatuhkan ke atas pesalah yang sudah berkahwin kerana pesalah jenis ini sudah merasai nikmat perkahwinan dan tidak ada alasan yang boleh diterima sebagai kemaafan kerana dikhuatiri tabiat mereka itu akan merosakkan banyak manusia. Rejam sampai mati adalah ubat yang paling mujarab bagi manusia jenis ini.
“Kalau nak pilih kawan, pilihlah yang dengan melihatnya kita akan mengingati Allah… Pilihlah yang menjaga solat… Bukan yang hanya bersolat kerana orang yang menjaga solat jiwanya hidup dan mati kerana Allah…. Hatinya sangat lembut, mudah terima hidayah, tidak sombong dan tidak ego…”
Open your heart
"Dan apabila hamba-hambaKu bertanya kepadamu tentang Aku, maka sesungguhnya Aku dekat, Aku memperkenankan permintaan orang yang meminta, apabila ia meminta kepadaKu, oleh sebab itu, perkenanlah seruanKu dan berimanlah kepadaKu, supaya mereka menempuh jalan yang lurus" (Al-Baqarah:186)
4 mesti dijaga
1. Teguh menjaga kehormatan 2. Redha menerima sedikit 3. Berbuat kebaikan setiap hari 4. Memelihara lidah
Quote
"Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow. Don't walk behind me, I may not lead. Walk beside me and be my friend." - Albert Camus
4 tanda orang berakal
1. Cinta pada ilmu 2. Tidak berubah muka menerima umpat dan puji 3. Bagus jawabnya 4. Banyak benarnya
3 tingkatan sifat sabar
1. hamba yang berhenti mengeluh 2. sufi yang puas dengan apa yang dititahkan (ini adalah tingkatan asketis) 3. hamba yang mencintai apa saja yang dilakukan Tuhan terhadapnya (ini adalah tingkatan teman sejati Tuhan)
3 tingkatan Taubat 1. Taubat dari melakukan dosa maksiat spt minum arak, judi, zina dll. 2. Taubat dari penyakit hati seperti hasad dengki, ujub, sombong dll. 3. Taubat dari sifat lalai, leka, lagha dari mengingati Allah; ubatnya zikir, baca Quran dll
4 alamat orang beriman
1. Meninggalkan maki 2. Menjauhi menyakiti hati orang 3. Lekas memberi ampun 4. Lama baru menjatuhkan hukuman
9 kemuliaan solat Tahajud
Dia dijaga oleh Allah daripada beberapa bencana. Berkat ketaatannya, akan nampak pada wajahnya. Dia disukai oleh hamba Allah yang soleh dan oleh semua manusia. Ucapannya mampu mengeluarkan kata-kata yang penuh hikmah. Diberi cepat mengerti dan mendapat ilmu pengetahuan. Dia dibangunkan dari kubur dengan wajah yang putih berseri. Diringankan hisabnya. Melalui titian siratul mustaqim bagaikan kilat yang menyambar. Diberi buku catatan amalannya melalui tangan kanannya di hari kiamat. (Raudhatul Ulama).
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NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:13 PM

Monday, March 10, 2008
how to win him back yeah? i just love him so much!! haha... wat crap am i saying here... hes not mine aready but still i like him lotz... hes sumone else yati! plz....haha! sumyimes i just wish i cud spent my whole day 24 hours with him! coz nothing can seperates my feelings for him.. well, only god noes wat went well and goes wrong. one more thing,its just a matter of bothered! he dont bothered me but i do..ape bleh buat kan.. dunia nak kiamat! well boy.. i like u much! thats y im giving my full heart to u.. although its broken but i still dare to like u max! watever!love is a feeing u cant lie.... its a feeling that comes from the heart! life goes on and on..
werk was ok.. doing hub transfer on thursday! hope it will be a gud one yeah.. coz.. i realli wanna werk and earn money ryte now... hope with this job, i can werk well and earn lotz! i wanna pay back my mum,dad and even myself back! ahahaha...
werking at airport is fun.... money is everything i need now for werk... hahah!
supposing yesterday sunday and today is my rest and off days but i turn up for werk... i got double for rest and 1.5 for off... ape tanak seh! im gonna werk hard and hope i still can stay awake and werk as hard as i can! hehe! phewwwit! life sucks wen come to werk.. nothing is great went comes to love! arrrgghhh....watever!
besok aku 5pm to 3am... keje lagik petang! haiz... only got morning shift on the rest day and on the 21st onwards..klah...hoping to go back to kriscek soon! miss my colleagues of the same batch!dada...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|6:52 PM

Wednesday, March 05, 2008
hie! i just reach home after a date with him... oh my god! hes sweet as ever...ade goatie skrg! nak kata hansem taklah tapi makin sayang adalah kat dier..heheh! andainya aku dijodohkan dgn dia.. aku terima tapi andaikan tidak.. aku redha..tapi aku terah membuat dan memberikan segalanya padanya.. demi tuhan.. hanya dia yg tahu..
walau apepun... aku terima dgn senang hati... jika tuhan membukakan hatinya untukku.. aku terima...seandainya tidak... aku tak kisah kerana ini semua dari allah... walau aku jahat bagaimana pun.. aku tetap ingat pada tuhan kerana dialah yang menjadikan kita...aku bersyukur dgn adanya aku didunia ini.sumtimes i just dun understand him.. he is nice... a great man... but then.. he always makes me feel im bad.but,sumtimes hes too nice to me. my parents dun like him. even my brothers... i noe y.. even my schoolmates and frens dun like him! hes bad man... i've given him all but he never appreciated! well god... i love him! but i never given the chance to have him in my life..if only god noes how i love him... i always do....
if he were to get married with his gal... aku sanggup jadi yang kedua seh... becoz i like him!onli him dari dulu sampai skrg tak bleh lupe2 dgn dia.. haiZ! risau aku!
can u get sumone for me god... i need help god!! i just got this word to say... to my parents and brothers... especially my mum....im sorry for lying u mum! i got no other reason coz i only have to say so... i love him although u dun like him! but i dun bother... he is just my pastime..i dun regret meeting him. allah have 1001 reason y he met us. i dunno! hes mine maybe... watever...
to mum.. im sorry again.. i dunt dare to tell u the truth but i noe im wrong! im really sorry for making u worried bout me... god bless u mum! anyway... i'll msg again later or wen i free... job was ok.. taking ot soon! dada!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|6:35 PM

Sunday, March 02, 2008
hi hi...assalammualaikum semua! aku ngah bosan nie.. asik kene xc then down tikit seh! geram i! hahaha..watever... tak down tak sah lah eh. haiz.. ape nak buat! keje senang tapi kalau down tikit punyelah susah... mak ai... waduh waduh! ape hal nie semua eh.. ape aku leh buat?? apepun,aku buat taktau jelah.. yg penting aku dpt duit... keje mcm nie memang mcm nie... yg penting keje aku ok dan senang! i only left with 1 year 2 mths left.if i can cope.. i cope.. if not i just quit and join another job or line.. maybe in retail industries back or starbucks as part time... haha'1 dunno ar.. if i can still werk.. i werk.. .slagi my werk is ok.. i just cope 1st... life man.. wat can i do... if i run i wil habe to pay 5k siah!sape nak byr... mane ade duit.. kalau bukan kerana duit.. aku tak keje mcm nie... lagipun i wanna try the airport life.this is my learning process... like what raihan say.. he also asik do xc jer... haha!
from this job.. its easy for us to werk in service life, in retail,in hotel and in office jobs.. coz of this.... its the starting of my life career... sumtimes life needs a change...after 7 years in fnb,now im in customer service lne... it is also part of fnb... aku ingat makanan je manusia cerewet, tempat duduk pun samer gak cerewet..haha! mcm mcm... aduh!
i still cant get him out of my head... the feeling towards him is geting more and more.... y huh? i like him but is he my jodoh? sumtimes i feel like.. im just wrong towards his gal... is it wrong to love sumone who have a girlfren aready, but me and him known from 8 years and had been noeing each other very long time ago... just dunno y the feeling between us cant be resisted and both of us is very needed of each other.. haiz! dunno ar.... watever.. i just go on with life.... wat god gives me.. i take... wat were not given i just dun take... ya tuhan.. ampunilah aku kerana aku telah berdosa padamu dan gadis itu... apepun.... hanya kau yg tahu
1 semoga tuhan menjodohkan aku dgn insan yg dapat membahagiakan aku dunia akhirat.. amin! insyallah!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|3:37 PM