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Tuesday, October 30, 2007
is it wrong to love sumones guy?the guy is sumone we love more than that gerl love him....
i noe its a stupid love feeling but it is a very true love. wen this guy who had a gal also met up with another gerl who is old fren very close fren back again... they both cant be seprated... unlesss they make their own decision not to mit up foreva and eva again..... but can they both make it? dunno.... the answer is....... lets c how its goes..... maybe the gerl will make decision....
the above story is a fren of mine.. dunno lah wat happen to her....i juz cant say anything... she used to forget that guy but then.. that guy came back to his life.... wat the hell.... and that guy is choosing which gerl he wants! plz wake up man... my fren had dne a lot of thing for u.... give u everything u need .... inner and outer of her.... but u neva appreciate her all this while..... since few years back... u have been making her life miserable.... maybe god have make a decision where u both must be met together and u both will get married sooner or later... but..... i hate u man.. u makes her life like shit..shes a great person...a very gud fren i had.... but u're the one who makes her life sucks!!! u'll c man.. u'll c....... make up ur mind man...... her or my fren.... peace!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|6:42 PM
Sunday, October 28, 2007
hi! aku bertanya pada diri sendiri..bile agaknya aku akan betul2 berubah menjadi insan yang benar2 baik dan bertaubat mengingati allah sentiasa.... namun aku maseh mencari kepastian... ntahlah...aku tau aku byk dosa dan banyak sekali melakukan kesalahan di dunia.... namun.. aku berharap tuhan akan membantu aku untuk mencari erti jalan yg benar.... tak hanya aku berdoa.. aku harus menanamkan dalam hati.... kerana itulah yg paling penting..jika hati ini tertutup.. sudah pasti dosa akan bertambah dan pintu taubat belum lagi ingin aku tujui.... haiz!!
aku harus tanya diri aku sendiri.. sampai bila aku nak jadi mcm nie... erm.. tuhan itulah maha pengampun..aku yg harus memulakannya.... taktahu sampai biler...aku redha...aku tahu segala kesalahan aku skrg.. tapi pintu hati ini.. susah sikit untuk menerima hidayah..... hidayah dari allah yg maha kuasa maha esa....aku akan cuba dan terus mencuba... insyallah.. aku pasti berjaya..... insyallah!!!! ku ohon padamu tuhan...... kau berilah aku petunjuk yg sebenar2 benarnya menuju jalan mu....
i cant wait for december.. the mth of success.... i think n hope so.... i wants to pass my 3rd tp.... then.. wanna go jakarta puncak bandung trip... and oso find new job..got bonus... wah! aku cuti 1 week lagik.... hehehe! hari raya dah dua minggu.... cepat.... takde rasa kenikmatan hari raya pon tahun nie... ntahlah... aku bosan sekali..... raya pada aku tiada makna.... hanya aku tahu menjalan ibadah puasa selama sebulan dan mendapatkan kemenagan pada 1 syawal.... itu sajer.... oklah ,i gtg.. will blog more later...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:10 PM
Hukum Solat Si PenzinaSoalan: Saya ingin bertanya apakah HUKUMNYA jika seseorang itu melakukan zina walhal dia juga seorang yang mengerjakan solat dan segala kewajipan islam dengan baik. Adakah solat dan amal kebaikannya DITERIMA kerana dia ada melakukan maksiat dalam masa yang sama?
JZ, KLJawapan: Jika seseorang melakukan perzinaan dan mengiktikadkan perbuatan tersebut adalah halal kepadanya, maka ia telah menjadi murtad dan terkeluar dari Islam. Dengan itu segala ibadat yang lain yang dilakukan olehnya adalah tidak sah. Ini kerana ia telah menjadi seorang yang kufur kepada Allah, kecuali jika ia kembali mengucapkan dua kalimah syahadah.
Jika ia melakukan perzinaaan dalam keadaan ia tidak mengiktikadkan perzinaan itu sebagai halal baginya, sebaliknya dilakukannya juga kerana menurut runtunan hawa nafsunya, maka ia berdosa besar. Ini bermakna jika ia menunaikan solat dan ibadat-ibadat lain setelah melakukan perzinaan, maka ibadatnya itu adalah sah. Ulamak berselisih pendapat dalam masalah ini. Ada yang berpendapat ibadatnya diterima apabila ia bertaubat. Sesetengah yang lain pula berpendapat segala amalan baiknya diterima walaupun ia berada dalam kemaksiatan, tetapi ia tetap mendapat balasan di atas perbuatan buruknya itu.
Dalam sebuah hadis yang diriwayatkan oleh imam Al-Bukhari, Rasulullah SAW pernah menjelaskan seseorang yang melakukan perzinaan tergugurlah imannya. Mafhum dari hadis ini ialah ketika seseorang sedang melakukan kemaksiatan, ia jauh dari agama, tetapi apabila ia berhenti melakukan kemaksiatan dan kemudian melakukan kebaikan, maka kebaikan itu akan kembali kepadanya semula. Ini menunjukkan betapa luasnya rahmat Allah SWT kepada orang-orang mukmin.
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:35 PM
Monday, October 22, 2007
hey..tired siah today! ngantuk!!!
skrg dah masuk kul 12.45 dan aku belum tido lagik,..
aku pon taktau ape nak buat.....later keje pagi...
sekarang aku tgh duk terpikir biler aku nak kawin.... akan bernikah dgn seorang lelaki yang dapat menjaga aku dunia akhirat...terpikir seh...
ntah eh... mungkin aku nie akan bertemu jodoh tak lama lagi atau tak mungkin skrg...
insyallah... tuhan telah menetapkan seorang insan dalam hidupku.. setiap manusia ada pasangan yang tersendiri....doakan yang terbaik ajelah untuk diri sendiri.... amin!
bosan dgn kerja lama nie... kalau bukan kerana duit.. dan duit bonus lagik dua bulan.. aku tak keje lah nampaknnya...well... looking forward for next year 2008....
the year of forgiveness for me i guess......i really need to change man!!!! bubyyee.... c ya!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|12:40 AM
Sunday, October 21, 2007
hey..... halo, im bored!!!! like shit siah.....wateverlah ryte! i hate this morning...
mum neva understands wat we young people wants!!! haiz...bored!!!! ask her nicely but she marah2 plak....haiz!!!! she ungkit2..aduh! all mum like that meh????? walau....nevermindlah... wat else to do.... i have to ask for her forgiveness again.. u c... this is wat happen if u got a parents got a different age gap...very far gap i mean.... haiz!!! me n mum... 36,dad and me 40....
wow.... so far.... but my brother is 38 and 34.. still the same lor....age gap between us is more than 1o years far...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|10:58 AM
Tuesday, October 16, 2007
kutahu ku takkan selalu ada untukkmu,disaat engkau selalu merindukan diriku,ku tahu ku takkan bisa memberikan mu waktu yang panjang dalam hidupku....
yakinlah bahwa engkau adalah cintaku...
yamg ku cari selama ini dalam hidupku...
dan hanya padamu kuberikan sisa cintaku yang panjang dala hidupku,,
ku mencintaimu lebih dari apapun,meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu,
ku mencintaimu sedalam dalam hatimu....walaupun engkau hanya kekasih gelapku.,..
is he gonna be mine??? my head cant get off him...y huh??? i really dunno wat to do now.. he is like sumone who i need, in need of....really i nneed and i always think of him...aaarrggghhh! shitlah... i hate this feeling,cant get u outta my head.... hahaha! fucking shitlah.,,,
sempena bulan syawal.... aku ingin memohon maaf,zahir dan batin atas kesalahan aku yang telah kulakukan... semoga ia dimaafkan... insyallah/! amin!!insyallah......
tomorow afternun shift.yesterday was a bad evening,i feel like wanna pengsan... headache.. pitam semacam... bulan puasa tak mcm nie plak.... syukurlah.... oklah,mim tired of werk! need to back up with my resume for new job next year... shit!! 3 mths left.... byes peeps...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|8:42 PM
Sunday, October 14, 2007
how i wish,, hes mine.. but sumbody go to to stop this... but how??wateverlah... i dun noe... i never think of it but sumtimes it really makes me headaches.... haiz...! ape bleh buat.... bosan selalu.... hahaha... i wonder wen i cud get married.... chehe.. with sumone i love..ape saje tah aku nie,mrepek sak malam2 buta nie... wakakakakakakkaa! lifes nothing new... boring! shud go out often to find my dream guy....hahaha! i wanna save money from now... save save save.... wanna go sumwhere one day! go travel..... ehehe.. i wanna go italy!!! all over the world i wanna go... especially mekkah.... but too bad.. have to wait.... oklah frens... i gtg.... see ya... 2nd raya is cuming!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:37 AM
Saturday, October 13, 2007
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI...MINAL AIDIL WAL FAIIZIN MAAFKAN ZAHIR DAN BATIN...ALHAMDULILAH....da raya pun hari ini.. gema takbir berlagu... mengundangkan keresahan di hati dan meliputi seluruh jiwaku..cheh!! hahahahah..... ape bleh buat,...raya pon da abes satu hari,nothing new.... the time really gone very fast...flies very2 fast..... raya pon tak semeriah dulu.... raya aidilfitri for me is as long as i finish fasting..its a great one then.....tu je lah yang meriah...ramadhan.... selain tuh..dah tak lah.....
well,its the day where i feel like im a newborn babyafter fasting and praying for the whole mth.... away from all sins.... cheh..... hahaha! mcm btol nya baik lah aku nie.... tapi insyallah... tuhan mengampunkan dosa aku...amin!
on thursday mit mar at city hall and go geylang for a while.. after maghrib baliklah... we end up eating kebab and nasi ayam penyet tak berapa sdap tuh...heheheh! boring je lauk dier... i prefer the kurnia shop ayam penyet..power.....yg nie biaser je..nasi pun tak rasa mcm nasi ayam.. hahahah! many people wen there.. of cozlah..buat persiapan akhir..... hmmm.... well.... everythings over.... back to werk on monday..... 6 to 5pm sumore.... wat a day! duh..... but thurs and friday dapat balik siang..tu yg shiok! 6 to 12 tau! gerek.... hopefully go back early no nid to stay.... im tired..... 3 mths more to end this job..wanna luk for better job next year. looking forward to it soon.... i hate werkin in the environment tat i never grow at all..... arrrgghhh......
dosa2 yg telah aku lakukan...moga diampunkan tuhan...aku tahu aku tak layak menjadi orang yg terbaik disisimu tuhan..tapi aku bersyukur kau telah memberikanku rezeki dan memberikan ku hidayah.....insyallah!
juz now went to maklong house.... shes the oni one ldest in the family.. no more grandmas,no more grandpas... both sides of mine.... dah takde semua.... tinggallah anak2 nyer yg jadi penyambung... my dad side is from negeri sembilan....maklong jugak.... tapi tak pegi... tak penah raya sane pon..hahahahaa! tak maulah.. tak shiok! wah... bulan 12 dah raya haji.. lagi cepat eh.... eehhehe! time to go haji in two mths more...i can only go umrah wen im 45 coz... they dun want to asep people whose young.... and maybe if i get married than i can go...if only my husband wants to.....if now,i can only go wen my father or my two brothers go.... haiz!!!! do u think they wanna go...... easy saylah.. their heart havnt open yet... doesnt mean must be gud u can go.. its all up to u...ur individual heart..hope allah opens the heart of my dad and brother to go tanah suci mekkah... insyallah!
oklah.. i gtg.... its been a tiring day after cleaning...nites...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|11:55 PM
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
haiz..bosan tol ar aku tgk abang aku nie!!!! bosannn......!!! forever with his old attitudes.... like shit....i hate him siah..his old attitudes...haiz...wat a bored famil i had... sumtimes.. i feel like releasing all my stress to him... but hes only with me once a while.... never always... i feel like wen im with him...my problems were solv... wen i pray to god too my problems were solve.... haiz.... life is never better than with god...
makkah is full of people now.... i hope i can go there one day without waiting my age reach 45... haiz! sad.... life is never great.... boring as always!!! wat else can i do.... i guess today is malam 7 likur.... heezz...hope god give me the hidayah and open my heart twards the real world.... to becum a better muslims!insyallah..... alhough i did wrongs.... a very wrong thing..i neva forget him.... i onli need him in m life.... god always there for me...
if only he cud be mine.............. i wud be thehappiest person in this world..... i hate him but ineed him in certain thing and reasons..... wat shall i do then???life is always unfair.... hes sumones else.. but y must be sumone else?? not mine... i want him!!!! but.... oni god noes y! help me solve this god....... u are the oni one who can help... adakah dia jodoh aku??? hope fully... although i can say..... btween us is only fren...but we are more thenfrens.. to the extend of love.... i love him ots i cant denied it!!! serius........ can he be mine god??? haiz...... bull shit yati... nothing is easy in this world.... byes!!!! 4 daes to raya! ramadhan will be over... missing ramadhan soon...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:38 AM
Saturday, October 06, 2007
hey! its October 6th today! sorry for not blogging few days back been very bz and been too tired plus sleepy! hari raya is cuming soon in 6 days time.. 13th will be hari raya aidilfitri.... 1 syawal 1428... oh yer... life is ok lah.. werk was ok too now.. juz got three more mths too get another new job i guess.... i need a change.. bosanlah asik keje kat tempat samer... i dont grow, i learnt the same thing everydat man.... aaaahhhh! wat the hell.... boringness surround me at werk...
aku baru tadi balik beli bahan2 kueh dan lampu untuk hall... later nd to go out again... i gona make cornflakes madu..yeeaahhhaa! lets try..mane tau sedap..tak sedap takpelah..hehehehe.
oh yer... been a mth havent mit up with him... its very fast yeah.... both of us need each other and we need tat too.... many things we did tat makes us remember.... hes like my jiwa... nyawa yang tak dpt dipisahkan. but, i noe... we r nothing in this relationship... we r juz frens.... scandal kot...hahahha!well my dear... the more i have u in my life.. the more i care and luv u.... chehe! merepek.. but actually i dont love him tat much lah like dulu.. dulu terlalu cinta dan sayang hingga merana dan sakit hati.... tapi skrg tak lah..aku dah okey! cumer sedih sikit lah... coz hes not officiallu mine! tats all..... wat shud i do ? leave him... yeah i shud.... hanya diri aku saje yg dapat menentang segalanya....insyallah.... the time will cum soon.... cumer cepat atau lambat... seseorg itu tetap akan berubah.... kejalanyg benar.... heheh!
today he went geylang with her.... haiz... if only i cud gif everything that involves money for him...i cud gif him all.... but im not rich., aku sederhana sajer.... syukurlah..... pertemuan aku dgn dia menjadi tanda tanya selalunya... adakah dier benar jodoh aku atau?????? well.... only god noes its.......he say he do likes me too, bt the feeling cumes and go.. wat everlah u!!!
lets not talk bout him...... lets tak bout sumthing else....
i wanted to do my hair today..tak jadi plak.... tgk nanti... wat pattern eh? aku nak buat fringe and caler ar..sumting different..dunno lah! juz wait and c....will kip u update...
bulan ramadhan akan berakhir soon.... i will be missing it... very fast eh... haiz...! sedih lah.... ramadhan is the month of forgiveness..... god is always there for us....
ok lah peeps.... im off for two days and also next week off for two days,, great lah...!!
take care..... happy lifes!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|3:44 PM
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