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Friday, July 27, 2007
hey!mit up with him.... hahaha! after 2 years plus didnt mit up... it was a last minute thing.
dunno leh..hahaha! i just feel like... miting.. we went to marina square adn watch ALONE.... he bought the tix then we go eat at macdonalds... as usual... if with him... he like to blanja.. hmm! dunno leh... he sanggup eh blanja all this... dunno y..since dulu. he is like a guy who can go out with me but he cant love me as it is.. heheh!
nvm lah.... between us just frens.... he got gal.... i no3 its wrong.. people will say scandal.. hahah!
werk was ok lah but sumtimes.... the boring part is the people i werk with.... cant do dis,cant do tat... not like dulu... than... i luv this job... fun and easy! 2 years to be this 8 august... mum,sorry for lying u...! b4 computer go gaga.. i log off first..byes!!
((maaf kan aku tuhan....))
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|10:03 PM

Wednesday, July 25, 2007
hi... HAPPY BIRTHDAY YATI.....!!! HOPE THIS 23RD BIRTHDAY WILL BE EVERYTHING TO U... THE BEST OF ALL..... HOPE THE BEST FOR UR FUTURE TO CUM...
HEHEHEHE,,,......PHEEWWWIITTT!!!!
and now...... im a year older....im old and i hope to be better than i used to...
dont wanna get life so bored and i really hope for the best in life...
anyway.... i hope the recent experience i've got in the past 23 years of living will kip myself more matured and more brave... and to myself... i need lots of improvements in my weakness....
god noes everything.. gud bad... im fine with my self.... anyway.. taking care....
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:36 PM

Tuesday, July 24, 2007
hahaha...besok birthday! im 23! hmm... dah tua seh aku..... but people say im like 18... hahahaa
weeee...... tak best ar... im 23!!!! mak ai..... no more 22.....
well.. hoping the best for my future.... and i hope to pass my next tp.... on the 24th of september...
wah....... tua tua tua..hahahaha! ape dah yati!
btw...... im really hoping to pass my 2nd tp on 24th spetmeber.. insyallah!
tak mcm semalam... aku gabra! hahah...
its not easy people! u have to be mentally well prepared!
oh yeah..... im still at ca.... havent change.. dah masuk 2 minggu aku tak keje
not easy.. its damn hard.. unless u prepared u will be ok for the whole day test! im not satisfied yesterday,.. n u noe wat?? the tp amount have increased from 154 to 156..... shit! all becoz of gst... i have to book two revision and both revision also need a lot of amount! haiz.. duit, duit...mana nak carik..heheh!
oklah.. gtg byes!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:11 PM

Monday, July 23, 2007
hi!!! bad news...
i flung! i failed my tp... have to retake on the september 24 at 10.45 am...
hahaha...dunno lah.. i go and langgar the curb! shit.... circuit was wat i've been doing ryte but at last.. i flung! well.. what to do ryte??? redha jelah... numbbers of people failed of course!! including me for the first TP!! dun give up.... stay cool always... n be prepared for the next test!today is not my day!!!
i just hope i wud passed the next test witth flying colurs! insyallah! hanya tuhan penentu segalanya.... god.. help me! only u cud help me with all this test! i hate test and exams siah.... it really makes me mad wen i failed!!! well... i hope the next one will be better... i got 28 point and considered immediate failure becoz of the kerb! shit! haiz.......
2 days to birthday! not my luck and bukan rezeki aku kali nie... we'll wait for 24 september.. bulan puasa... oklah! semoga di bulan puasa nanti.. banyak keberkatannya... insyallah! ameenn.... i gtg... c ya!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|8:39 PM

Sunday, July 22, 2007
halo... tomorow is the day!
then 3 days to birthday! had my off day today,leave tomorow and wed on off... yeah!
this week is great and quite relaxing! well, went heereen yesterday and wen back at 3.
now nak pi orang kawin and then go practical at 1.55.... the last one b4 tomorow.. anyway.. wish me luck ya people,doakan keselamatanm dan lulusku esok! insyallah.... salamz!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|10:48 AM

Thursday, July 19, 2007
the day is cuming really soon....
dag dig dug..hahaha! takpelah... akan aku cube bertahan sedaya upaya dan buat sebaik mungkin.. hingga ke titisan darah sekalipon.hahah!
eh.. nei computer jap bleh kejap tak.. giler...
semalam sempat pi johor beli magazin..kalau tak besok.... memandangkan besok nanti penat... aku pi smalam ajak mak...magazin semua dah out..baguslah...
wah.... werk is still mcm biaser.... masuk kul 2 ngantuk seh.. mendak! aku nak buat barista..ada orang nak buat...biarlah org tuh buat,, malaz aku... tak mu gaduh ar... sabar jer...tahan dan sabar selagi boleh.. im thinking of cutting my hair.. get a new look..shud i?? hmm.. looking forward soon to next week... oklah peeps.. before my computer go gaga.. i go first... byes!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|10:09 PM

heloo! hahaha...just tring to blog.. kejap boleh kejap tak bleh lah nie computer..giler!!!
i was hoping that it cud stay long and give me sum tiem to blog!
left with 6 days to tp and 8 days to birthday! yeah.. tiem flies....
oh yeah.. i just finish watching cinta fitri.... it wAS REALLY A GREAT STORY.. IT REALLY TOUCHES MY HEART...i luv the couple... fitri and farel.... true loves never lie yeah??
if i cud be like them.. how i wish i cud get sumone who is like farel..... hahah! no man in this world i guess....... i just hope the best in my future.. hope to get sum1 really who loves and can take care of me....
werk still ok... end of mth gona be my end time at ca.... miss all the customers i guess....
dunno where i will go nex mth... amara?? i guess so..dunno!
u neo wat? a store manager pay is just 1.9k! wat the???sikit ehmhaiz!
dada...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|10:09 PM

Monday, July 16, 2007
hie.salamz! aku kat luar kat zap it nie... hoping to pass my tp in a week time..haiz! hopefully... im gona gif my all to this one and for once..plz get me out of bbdc...hahah! i really wana passed and i really hope i got the lisence by 3.30pm on 23rd of july by hook or by crook!!!!!!! insyallah!\
im gona gif my best, put in the most effort after all my hard werks at bbdc for the pas few 6 to 7 mths there.... hahahaha! ntalah eh... c how it goes... time really flies...... watch out yeah people...
next week im gona be 23rd and im gona grow a year older n i really hope i get what i want...im taking tp next week.. hope to pass,im gonna transfered to another outlet next mth and i also hope i got the best store and away from all gossipers from spins peoples.... one more thing,i really hope marcus and vivian help me to be SIT! dunnolah.. hopefully lah...i heard mel gona be at Change alley... with adek and owen... old staff semua...next i heard tony my ex cbtl manager will be at Hereen,joanne to Far east square with khairul...,my ego colleague gona be up to another level taking over danny! wat the hell eh??? haizzzz........ntahlah....... i??? maybe to amara.... with VALENTINO????? hahahahaahha...LOL! c lah.... how it goes.. it has been be who had been goin to Hrn... thios week also.. back to back.. like shit ar...take fair seh.. mane bleh kan????takut malu per antar satria pi hrn???
one of this daes before i transfer...i wanna sabo him..hahah! jahat eh aku..taklah... tgk keadaan nanti! haiz.... hidup nie tak mudah.... susah lah.. tapi mesti hapi lah ehk!!! oh yer.... aku luper,next week aku 23!!!!!!!! wah... counting down the daes to 23..older and older.......
i more week...(7 day) to tp... and 9 more days to 23rd.... waduh! i hope all the best for myself.. thats all lah! today is bulan rejab aready.... syaabban soon and ramadhan... moga segala yang aku pinta dikabulkan... ameenn! oklah fren.. cya! next time kay... tc!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|6:09 PM

Saturday, July 07, 2007
helloha...im at cybercafe.. off from spin two days!! yeeehhhaaaa greattt!!!
thats one gud thing bout spin.. u werk 44 hours perweek,dependlah on ur the store staaf and strength and then 5 days werk week and 6 days werk week the other week... and the pay is oklah in fnb line.. than... u get dollar 3 per day for ur meal and u had fun werking...my werkplace use to be fun but not now.. but the fun last time used to be was all liar!! like beautiful liar..hahahaha! weak ar spin!!!! watever... i stay at spin now becoz i love what im doing and i love my job..... thats the point... until one point of time i reall fed up and i feel useless, i'll quit!!! hahahahaha! giler....
oh yar.... eve ask me to cum to werk today at 8pm!! but i dont want too..... for wat seh! besok baru keje kul 7-3...haiz!!! next week schedule havent out..fasterlah jon!!!! walauweh!!!
supposed today i got a blind date.but,i didnt even contact him becoz he sday he will kol me to agreed bout it... i also dont want and dont fell to have adate out with him! look.... if theres love... there will be... one fine day,im sure i'll find the love of my life...haiz! for now the time being,i prefer to werk and prefer to be with my family mostly! they are everything to me..... im sure god have fixed sumone to be the man of my life..chheeeh....correct wat.. u c ELLA,belum kawin,nasha aziz,semua lawa2 belum kawin..hahaha! jodoh tu ditangan tuhan... hanya dia yang akan menentukan dan menjodohkan..kita hanya merancang...
i dont like his attitude wen he w2ants to force me to do this and that...n he wants me to be with him 24hr! aiyah....boring! nevermindlah... if theres sum1.. i'll let u noe..sure! tuhan je yang tahu..
let him be... i dont want irritating guys in my life...not im chossy but...c lah how....
im left with 16 days to tp and 18 days to birthday... im 23rd!! yahhoo.....
this is life.. once u get 20.... u will be older..... haiz!!!!!!
hidup hidup.. hnaya tuhan yang tentukan.. hari ini.. 7-07-07.... wah! ramai yang menikah including norleenah sister.... i do impikan 8-8-08...coz its on friday! hehehee! firday is the best day to get married after maghrib,haha! oklah people...if i free i will cum down and blog again kay! dada.... assalammualaikum! peace!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:16 PM

Thursday, July 05, 2007
wow....1010 post today on the 5th of july! yeah.. haiz.. im sick now, n yesterday i had a very bad stomach pain... it pulls and push and lost,n iot happen again after a few minutes...why eh? angin ke? or maybe aku kene gastric? tak makan ke?? aku padahal dah makan the day b4 seh! haiz... penat agaknya.... semalam after jon dtg i go back home.... around 1.30... coz i really cannot tahan.. n no point i stay at werk if i cant do anything! today also on mc... coz cant even werk.... n yeah, forgot to tel u all.... my computer is down.. i got a revision atbbdc at 9.50 and now im at cwp to use it for a while.. i noe its against the law to be outside wen im on mc...haiz... for today only!
my computer is getting worse..dont buy acer brand kay people??? yesterday i did another mistakes by not attending werk at cheers too..... coz i was asleep after taking medicine.. waduh!
evelyn must be angry with me siah..haiz! but i will make it on sunday lor.... watever.....
oklah peeps.. will c u all soon wen my computer is ok or wen im free i'll update... 7-7-07 is cuming! im miting sum1 i guess.... for a date..hahahahaha! mak ai... dunno lah... hati nie keras sekali... yati yati.....hahahah! k lah,take care.... semoga aku selamat dan sihat selalu...amin!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|12:39 PM

Monday, July 02, 2007
hai! assalammualaikum!
tired today... i mean my leg pain.. wen cums to werk leg was ok but wen comes to home rest and relax,my leg wud be absolutely tired siah..hahahaa! watta do then.. nvm!!
i was wondering,wen is my turn to change outlet? did request for werk at 6pm at cheers but didnt get... eve ask me to take off,oklah.. but she always wants me to werk more daes what????????? now wen i give 3 daes,u talk much! wat the hell??? i also dont bother.. wednesday than will be quiet a long day... nvmlah...i just cudnt get along with this komathi one of the indian full timer,shegot this attitude that really sucks to the core!!!
i hate siah.. i mean if u're not happydont make a black face and marah2 ar.... relek ar sikit, uwanna go back early i noe, but if a bit2 u complain,abes ar!
how to survive??? u dont even werk 3 mths siah.. n u kip on complaining and complain about people.. how bout urself??? u c people... this is wat i hate wen we have colleagues, in front talk nice, back talk bad... than infront hapi,behind not happy, infront u praise,behind u fuck them upside down... WTF???
living in this world u cant think of urself... no one in this world is perfect... god makes us in different ways,attitudes n lifes.. if u wanna stay long in the job...work smart.. dont complain lah!!! hate it man!!! indians anyway.... always thing they r great.... but i belief there are people who are gud.. i mean,gud indians people...but most of them like 90% are really bad!
u can see my custoemr..hahaha! itulah,inilah.... aduh! geram... but who are we without them???
just dont bother.. but tis things really makes me pissed off! geram...!!!!
at spin also same... people with bad moth always last.. werk very long! those gud one never even got the chance and opportunity to grow from spin! aiyah..... i dont carelah.. watever it is.. life still goes on per normal n i have to becareful with people around me... shikss...shikkss....
tuhan tu maha adil.. hanya dialah yang mengetahui segalanya....
n now....
is he really angry and giving up on me after wat i did to him???
am i wrong? u cant force people to love u... or like u ryte???
be fren first lah.. haiz... wateverlah... people always say.... change urself yati...
but for what??? if i change,its not me or yati animore.. i am wat i am.. if i change i wud be a btter person only! but id ont noe y people thing me different way.... i have my own decisions and my own choices...u people out there never noe... only god who creates me noe... i did my best to fren with all n be great but people makes me sad and makes me down... but nvm, this is life.. whats life without problems ryte???anyway! take care peeps..... dont jugde a book by its cover,.. the inside is mroe important than out!
i belive this..... jika kita lakukan sesuatu dgn keikhlasan,nescaya ganjaran yang kita terima juga setanding dengan apa yang kita usahakan...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|6:54 PM

Sunday, July 01, 2007
its july now!!wow! july july july!!
its the month full of memories!!! my birthday gona be in 24 daes tymes.... wow!!!!
im counting the daes... counting n counting.... 23rd will be my tp... and it is like 22 daes left...
wow! a present to cum if i passed my lisence, n i really hoping to get it by 2rd of july!
life never changes! its the same.. the most important is... i have to be awake n be more careful with people surroundings me...haiz!!! lifes is bored but im happy with my life 4 the tiem being...
i already hurt sumone heart.. n i hope his gona befine soon.....im really bz with werk...
too tired n cant even go out with u..sorry lor.. dont angry...is it a crime?? haiz.. i dunno lah.. i really hope hes gona be fine.. im sorry ya..u guess im like this becoz of my pass.... but i do have heart,i do think n i do feel im wrong... i alreadyforgot him n i aready trying to be happy... the moment where i noe he is with sum1 really makes me hurt to death.... but after a year of trying to forget it really helps me well! n now.... im single n choosing the ryte one...
no one will understand....love is not a game...n a game is not love,...hahaah! haiz.... ape apelah eh.... hope u wud give me the chance of noeing u better...
cintai orang itu harus tulus,sepenuh hati.. baru menjadi.. itulah pesan dari cinta fitri..hehehehe!
besok keje pagi... all teh best to mama for getting new job,hope it will be a gud job for her though..oklah guys, i'll blog more later... nak relks japz.. k? byes!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|4:40 PM