it's been so long.
i never had a chance to play this for you.
cos everytime the music starts,
i always cannot go with the tune.
and then you went away,
now the lyrics seem to stray.
so how can i not love you?
when i live just for you.
you took away the heart in me,
that once beat in harmony.
now, i am torn apart,
feeling unemotional somehow.
sometimes, i can't help but cry.
i miss the way we used to be.
and the sad part,
the song i made,
is just a music that will fade.
and the reasonis you.
NoRhayati Bte SaLLeH
22Nd years old
boRn on 25Th juLy 1984
Leo Gal...
North Side of Singapore
Full time Career In SpineLLi
Loves the Nature,Arts,Coffee,Adventures,Excitement..
She's Simple And independent..
Well behaved and Friendly..
Reading,outing and Stubborn...
Shes now living life to the Fullest!!
but everythingmeans nothing.
Monday, February 26, 2007
im thinking.. i just get a letter just now afternun... a letter from ite simei... college east central...
u wanna noe sumthing??? i am selected for the interview at function hall this tuesday 10.10am... for the nursing course..haahahah
it was funny... from there on, i was frustrating... thinking and thinking shud i continue my school???
or shud i just werk at spinelli...
or shud i just werk at polar and apply next time??
aha.... haiz..dunno! i m still thinking and thinking.. boring lah life...
btw,hes ignoring mwe now.. gudlah... my love will fade again.. byes peeps...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:56 AM
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NuR Cahaya Hatiku|12:13 AM
Saturday, February 24, 2007
werk was fun siah just now.. with adrian and diana teng in e morning... then not forgetting joanne,Siti from nus,Nazrie(mr pakcik) hamid the indo trainee and many others....hereen was better and cleaner than last time...changes.. a lot of chnages lah.. but change alley better... hehe! mum forever wanna nag... haiz... i hate that.... oklah... i need to go... boring lah hear nag and nags... btw... Taufik won as lelaki paling popular and era farida as wanita paling popular..yeah! both i like... just now oso got chingay...adioslah..byes!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|11:40 PM
Friday, February 23, 2007
Happy 25th Birthday Sharul... may god bless u...!!
posted on 10.39pm...
im werking at hereen at 7 to 5 besok.. long day.. byes!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|10:52 PM
Thursday, February 22, 2007
life is oklah... mcm biaser..
penat berkerja,Nak carik rezeki...
my Perak mgr is back.. aiyoh! boring lor.....no fun liek last time...
2morow i until 12.wah... baguslah... senang je aku mcm nie...
i like tis lady... Dina lorenza and luna maya... in malaysia i like maya karin..
this is dina lorenza...oklah.. notin much to share.. tomorow maybe..
i gtg.. wanna watch tv lar..byes!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|10:15 PM
Penyebab Masuk Syurga Dari jabir r.a katanya, dia mendengar Rasulullah s.a.w bersabda:”Bukan amal seseorang yang memasukkannya ke syurga atau melepaskannya dari neraka, termasuk juga aku, tetapi ialah semata-mata rahmat Allah S.W.T belaka.” (Muslim) Huraian : Orang yang beriman sangat yakin akan rahmat dan pertolongan Allah S.W.T. Oleh itu mereka tidak pernah berputus harap dari rahmat-Nya kerana kasih sayang Allah tidak bertepi. Antara syarat-syarat untuk memperolehi rahmat Allah S.W.T sebagaimana yang dinyatakan dalam sebuah hadis Rasulullah s.a.w. yang diriwayatkan oleh al-Dailami dari Ibnu 'Abbas r.a. Rasulullah bersabda yang bermaksud: " Allah S.W.T merahmati orang-orang yang dapat menjaga tutur katanya, mengenal masa (ketika dia hidup) itu dan istiqamah dalam hidupnya." ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- DOA HARI KHAMIS _______________
Ya Allah, ya Tuhan kami, Di hari yang mulia ini , kami bermohon ke hadrat-Mu, berilah kekuatan , taufik dan hidayah kepada kami supaya kami dapat memperbaiki diri kami , tambahkanlah ya Allah kepada kami ilmu, iman dan amal. Kuatkanlah tekad dan semangat kami untuk berkhidmat kepada jabatan ini dengan lebih cekap serta cemerlang.
يَا اَلله ُ يَا رَزَّاقُ Kami memohon kepada-Mu ya Allah, berilah kami iman yang sempurna , ilmu yang memberi manfaat, rezeki yang halal, anak yang soleh, rumahtangga yang bahagia, usia yang berkat, doa yang mustajab, hajat yang tertunai, kesihatan yang berterusan, hutang yang terbayar, keselamatan dan kesejahteraan di dunia dan akhirat.
Fun fun fun! i had a great fun with my frens.... went to starbucks tamp and then proceed to Costa sand... at costa sand we went strait back to tamp mrt and chill again at Starbucks tamp... coffee bean was full... then... we went seperated ways... well......... i'll update u more on the day soon... im just giving sum story to update..hahah! photos will be uploaded too... well my dear fren... i'll missed the days... the time we had today and hope to c u soon... a nurse,an engineer to be and a police coast guard... me??? hahahha... coffee girl.... muahahahahahaha! long day tomorow... c u soon.. bubbyeee...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|11:14 PM
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|3:12 AM
me and mum dah ok dah..alhamdulilah... sekeras2 batu.. dier tetap lembut jugak nanti... ehehehehe! love u mum,dad n my 2 brothers!!
later gona mit up with ina,mar,firah again! after a long time didnt.. heheh! yesh! i love them.. my old ite fren...i will missed them... great frens to be with... gona be a great dat tomorow.. their laugh always makes me cheerful...
tadi go jb,buy magazin and then go buy mums washing machine at cwp courts.
oklah i gtg.. its 3 am in the morning and here ui am still awake... fully awake siah! byes.. salam!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:52 AM
Monday, February 19, 2007
What can i say here??? mum is angry at me... but just becoz of a small thing,cant u juz understand me??? ur daughter?? aiyoh.... i hate it wen it cums to this.. u noela orang2 tua nie byk mengamuk,merajuk kan? but then,... what else can i do..?? aku melawan pun aku dosa... yeah i did talk to her but then.. she tot aku melawan.. mcm ner nie???????????????/ ya allah, apekah dosaku ini tidak diampunkan kamu?? aku tahu surga di telapak kaki ibu but idid not really lawan wat.... arrrggghhh,,,, salah ke kalau aku kerja dua?? salah ke kalau aku kerja balik malam?? salah ke kalau aku tak kerja nak tido sampai pukul 12??? bukan selalu aku mcm tuh... betul tak? sekali sekala je tau! is it hard for hwer to understand how i feel? is it hard for her to understand how tired i am after werk..??mum mum........ what can i do to make u understand ur child? ur own daughter here.... the ages between us is so far that she dont even can understand me at all... if she noe the problem between me ans that guy b4.. i sure kena want. till death i will be angered by her... watever means... i only pray hard to god to please forgive me all my sins.... i noe im wrong but tis happen wen u dont understand ur child... just becoz i dont wake up early and wen i ask her to go bath to go to Courts causeway asap.. she angry.. wahlau.... i need peace... i need people to understand me thou.. but y cant u all??? i've been bz werking and werking for the past two years after the incident between me and him.. and now.. tis happen again! shit... nauzubillah.. hanya tuhan yang tahu segalanya! ya allah! ampunkan aku ya.... lahaulawala huwataillah billa hilazim....
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:32 PM
Sunday, February 18, 2007
haiz... the love is over, never ever try to love sumone who is not urs.. plz dont ever do it... but,hes notbeing fair to his gerl... hes a really bad guy...
wed start werk,tiring lah... haiz! need more sleep... but i prefer to stay awake rather than sleep.. waste of time jer... hes having fun ryte now with that gerl... both of them dah 2 years so far.. baguslah.,.. semoga mereka berkekalan hendaknya.
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NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:48 PM
Happy Chinese new year.. happy birthday yusmah and happy birthday Allard(my customer)...arrgghhh...watever it is,happy gong xi fa cai..
When the feeling is back... i just cant push it back.i dont want it but still it happen... y must i feel tat way?hes not mine animore... plz yati,stop messaging him.. hes not urs!between him and u is over! OVER..........!!!!!!!
Ya allah, berilah aku petunjuk yang sebenar... orang yang aku sayang pergi meninggalkan aku kerana orang lain..aku tak mahu mengigatinya lagi kerna dia bukan untukku... ya Allah,hanya engkau yang dapat membantu aku melenyapkan segala pikiran ku darinya... Akllah hu akbar...
life life life.. never change!!!! watever lah... wat i noe, i dun have to be jealous wen he go tioman with his gal... haiz! y must i?? the feeling say so.... i hate that!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|12:14 PM
Thursday, February 15, 2007
life is still ok.. im happy and im still fine. got to make sum changes in few months to my life... boring life..hehe! but im ok here.. still standing up right! cheh.. wat crap im talking about??
oh yar... Cny is cuming and im gona get 4 daes off... alhamdulilah.. sum rest b4 hard werk again! orite peeps.. i guess tis is the time for sleep... sleep late is usual for me...
love never ends wen u never end it urself... any meaning? hehe! byes!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:41 AM
ungu-tercipta untukku
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:27 AM
Ungu - Demi Waktu
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:27 AM
Andai ku tahu.... Kapan tiba ajalku... Ku akan memohon tuhan tolong panjangkan umurku...
Andai ku tahu... Kapan tiba masaku... Ku akan memohon tuhan jangan kau ambil nyawaku... Aku takut akan semua dosa dosaku... Aku takut dosa yg terus membayangiku...
Andai ku tahu... Malaikatmu kan menjemputku... Izinkan aku mengucap kata taubat padamu... Aku takut akan semua dosa dosaku... Aku takut dosa yg terus membayangiku...
Ampuni aku dari segala dosa dosaku... Ampuni aku menangis ku bertaubat padamu... Aku manusia yang takut neraka... Namun aku juga tak pantas disurga...
Andai ku tahu.... Kapan tiba ajalku... Izinkan aku mengucap kata taubat padamu... Aku takut akan semua dosa dosaku... Aku takut dosa yg terus membayangiku... Ampuni aku dari segala dosa dosaku... Ampuni aku menangis ku bertaubat padamu...
jauh di lubuk hatiku masih terukir namamu jauh di dasar jiwaku engkau masih kekasihku
tak bisa ku tahan laju alir untuk semua kenangan yang berlalu hembuskan sepi merobek hati
meski raga ini tak lagi milikmu namun di dalam hatiku sungguh engkau hidup entah sampai kapan ku tahankan rasa cinta ini
jauh di lubuk hatiku masih terukir namamu jauh di dasar jiwaku engkau masih kekasihku
dan ku berharap semua ini bukan kekeliruan seperti yang kukira seumur hidupku akan menjadi doa untukmu
jauh di lubuk hatiku masih terukir namamu jauh di dasar jiwaku engkau masih kekasihku
andai saja waktu bisa terulang kembali akan kuserahkan hidupku di sisimu namun ku tahu itu takkan mungkin terjadi rasa ini menyiksaku sungguh sungguh menyiksaku
jauh di lubuk hatiku masih terukir namamu jauh di dasar jiwaku engkau masih kekasihku
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:21 AM
Ungu -Andai Ku Tahu
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:21 AM
Ruang Rindu- Letto
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:19 AM
letto-ruang rindu..
Di daun yang ikut mengalir lembut terbawa sungai ke ujung mata dan aku mulai takut terbawa cinta menghirup rindu yang sesakkan dada jalanku hampa dan kusentuh dia terasa hangat oh didalam hati
kupegang erat dan kuhalangi waktu tak urung jua kulihatnya pergi tak pernah kuragu dan slalu kuingat kerlingan matamu dan sentuhan hangat ku saat itu mencari makna tumbuhkan rasa yg sesakkan dada
reff
kau datang dan pergi oh begitu saja smua kutrima apa adanya mata terpejam dan hati menggumam di ruang rindu kita bertemu
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:13 AM
Gantung - Melly
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:54 AM
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
"whats worst than losing a man u love? its losing faith in love...."
got that from Blackrose blog at friendster... i guess she's heartbroken now.. sedihkan.. haiz! wat to do sis.... tis is wat we called life... sum1 we love will not be ours..as for me, i luv someone but that sum1 is far2 away from me... its 2 years and its over... but we are still fren... the feeling is there...
i would like to indicate this here.. share tis here...
if 1 fine day he is here for me, weants me to be his life partner forever... i would gladly let u noe, im gona take him back in my life... i noe its funny but, like i said,i never regret noeing him.. maybe god gif me the wrong person before giving me the ryte one...
God ones me to noe how gud or bad tat person is...how to create a great relationship and how to appreciate others..love and care for them is part of the love life that cud not be seperated...
but im gladly here telling u guys, if i had a choice, i would still chose him as my life partner..watever its is... i never hope he cums back this is just a situation that would never or wud ever happen.. hmmmm........... thats life... thats love....
no one cud seperate the luv that ever been created. i dont give u any hope.. i just telling. love love love...
saying bout love.. tomorow is valentines day.. happy valentine to all of u out there... i never celebrate and never gona celebrate coz 4 me.. everyday is love day... hehehe!
Werk was ok lah, customers always cheer up my day... nisa send resume and getthe job as part timer at Spinelli terminal 2 airport changi. gudlah, all the best for her.. wanna get married mah...while me myself is with polar and im ok with it. i dont werk everidae.. a few daes only... 3 day maybe in a week....oklah peeps, lets cheer up u r day and relax ur mind... dont think too much, i wanna read novel Sejujur hatimu.. byes!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|8:38 PM
Thursday, February 08, 2007
life was ok for me.. its thursday aready. werk was ok still until this man cums in... juz can say, good luck to people who gonna werk with him later on. "plz, dont spot a person mistakes without noeing ur own mistakes". u juz join 3 days, n no matter what, a MANAGER post to me is nothing... i noe im juz a stAff but plz, mind ur own business. i dont like to be disturbed by others... i noe what im doing. dont also thing that cleaners are ur slave... u drink,u wash ur own cups,glasses. watever it is.. we r juz human... nothing can change u, dont action.. i've been werking for spinelli for 1 year 6 mth today. alhamdulilah im still surviving standing still in spinelli....watever it is... thanks to god.. only u help me..
im starting back my part time soon... at gwc... haiz! wat matter is, i need the money for myself... my own family in the future ahead... nothing else.
to be continued next day.. byes!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|12:58 AM
Monday, February 05, 2007
pass few days i get to noe sum1 who is related to sinemart production from indonesia. he is the script writer of maha kasih,pintu hidayah,surgamu and maha cinta... wow! tat great ryte! im proud to noe him! he the script writer..!!!! the sinetron that i always watch... wah... best2! hope to noe him better and who noes one day i can mit up with my favorit actor or actress from indon! heehhhee....
werk today waas ok,im late!! as usual... i dint hear the mesej the uncle gave me.. haiz.. pity me ryte??? nvm lah.. lucky it was adek who was on shift. ok babes... c u again! tata!
eeehhh
wait a minute!
its 5th of february,... 2 years back incident,u remember?
wen i was 20+...
he turning 23....
the day i ...... hahahahaha!
precious ting kan?
ingat?
hahahaha.....
oklah, nites!!!!
***Memories are always remembered!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|11:33 PM
Saturday, February 03, 2007
hie! practical was ok still... i noe more and less bout cars... well... i just hope one day i can passed my test...duhh... im a bit of forgetful and a bit of blur2 siah... but i dun give up.. i practice and practice until i get what i want... tis one i cant give up... serius..i cant!watever it is.. i still cant give up. hmmm....wish me all the best for it yeah!
he mesg me like usual... as me hows my pract. oklah... he look like he cared.. but dunno lah... he have a gerl... unlike me no bf... hes a fren but i really hope the feeling for him wont grow again...hes just not mine! never mine....arrrgghhh!!!
wat shud i do.. ignore him? i cant coz his my fren.... but i can ignore his nonsense...haiz... wat can i do to make him love me? noting.. i dun wanna force like i used to and used to be fool of myself... i just hope i can be sum1 better one day! i hope to get a bf who luv me very much more than i luv him! hahahaha
insyallah... tis may im going to umrah with mum...there i will visit the place and visit rumah allah...i hope allah accept me there. niat to mesti ader... today at 5pm and next week at 5 pm me n mum going for the class... till 7pm. hmmm! god bless us!
monday gona be back to werk.. haiz... wat a boring week start. im going to stay for 2 weeks without practical. takut lupe plak...hmmm.... takpelah! booking is full.... ok peeps... i gtg! c u again kay! byesss!!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|9:05 AM
Friday, February 02, 2007
Bolehlah Kau Jatuh Cinta Asal Jangan Kau belenggu,
Biarkan Dia Bergelora Di Pantai Pantai Jiwamu,
Jangan Kau Bendung Dia Di Balik Tembok Tembok Kemunafikan Dan Dusta,
Biarkan Dia Mengalir Sedikit Demi Sedikit,
Mengisi Sungai Sungai Di Hatimu Yang Dulu Mengering Oleh Palang Palang Kebencian,
Agar Dapat Seorang Pencinta Seperti Aku,
Beristrahat Di Tepinya Seraya Membasuh Muka Sejenak Dan Meminum Sedikit Penawar Dahaga Jiwaku,
Sambil Menyaksikan Betapa Riang Sepasang Nila Berenang di Sungai Hatimu Yang Jernih.
Sayangku Oh kasihku...
Cinta Telah Menempatkan Aku Disini, Mendengarkan Desau Angin Bercerita Tentangmu, Cerita Tentang Seorang Malaikat Yang Tergeletak Tanpa Daya Dengan Sayap Sayapnya Yang Patah.***
Bagaimana jika seseorang yang membuat kamu berhenti menangis adalah satu-satunya alasan untuk kamu menangis? Apa jadinya jika seseorang yang membuat kamu terjatuh adalah satu-satunya sandaran bagi jiwamu yang rapuh?
SALLY (VO)
Telinga manusia tidak untuk mendengar patah hati seorang kekasih, sebab suara patah hati tidak ramai layaknya pasar, melainkan selembut dedaunan yang jatuh di tanah.
SALLY (VO)
Cinta adalah ketika ku ingin bersamanya...cinta adalah ketika ku masih ingin memeluknya...ketika aku berlutut mencintanya meski aku tak berharga baginya...Cinta adalah saat dimana aku yang sekarat karena nada-nada cintanya, tapi hatiku masih membicarakan dirinya..
SALLY (NARASI)
Dia seperti mawar yang akarnya meracuniku dan durinya memagari hatiku..bergetar saat hati ini menahan malu ketika matanya menikam mataku. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Jika ada Sejuta Orang Yang Menyayangi Kamu, Aku Adalah Salah Satunya.... Jika Ada Seribu Orang Yang Menyayangi Kamu, Aku Adalah Salah Satunya.... Jika Ada Seratus Orang Yang Menyayangi Kamu, Aku Adalah Salah Satunya.... Jika Ada Sepuluh Orang Yang Menyayangi Kamu, Aku Adalah Salah Satunya... Jika Ada Satu Orang Yang Menyayangi Kamu, Akulah Orangnya..... ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Driving was fun just noe.. haha! oklah but still not consistent... haiz.. what to do... im still not prepared enuff for it... oklah babes, i'll cu tomorow.. gtg!
NoRhayati Bte SaLLeH 
