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Sunday, January 22, 2006
Mutiara kata...
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"carilah sesuatu yang membuatkan hatimu tersenyum ,akan tiba satu ketika di dalam hidup satu kehiduopan apabila kamu teramat rindukan seseorang sehingga kamu ingin mengapainya dari mimpi kamu dan memeluknya dengan sebenar."
"mimpilah apa yabng kamu ingin mimpikan pergilah ke mana -mana kamu ingin tujui dan jadilah apa yang kamu inginkan kerana kamu hanya memiliki satu kehidupan dan satu peluang untuk melakukan semua perkara yang ingin kamu lakukan"
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NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:26 PM

helo!! how r u??? im gud here juz tat a bit bored at home so i went out to Write my blogs and update..u noe sumthing??? i got the feeling of ...I WANNA GET MARRIED... hahahah! what the hell u talking bout ar yati???
but im feeling serius about this.. i felt like getting married and had my own life and own husband and children..hahah! but....will i get married??? only god noes it.. hahah! merepek ar yati... tapi kalau ade calon aku teringin seh... settle down early and learn how to be a wife..hahaha! but...wen i tink again.. i felt being alone and without sum1 is also great..im independent.. can go anywhere without any one Stops me except my parents.hehe...i need to noe people... get new frens here and there so that i will be happi..argghh,.,
what else shud i say here??? i need a computer at home soon...so that i can use it..
easy and dun have to waste money to use it outside here!next weekis pay day..hmmm... looking forward towars it coz i heard this time we fuul timers get extra..AWS?? i guess so lar...i missed berg!! nick.. the guy i admire much now.will c him tomorow..
and i heard Chee Kuan will be at my store soon...hope shes ok better than that GABY! hmmm..... love..love..wen will i find love??? haiz!!! i need love desperately! hahahaha seow nur! oklah... shud tell u more next time...werking morning on mon and tues.. and hmm... sat sun off! yesh!! chinese new year cuming up soon... take care peeps! assalammualaikum!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:06 PM

Friday, January 20, 2006
helo! peace be upon u! im at CWP ZAP it shop..as usual like 2 days back im updating my blog and cecking emels!oh yah..hahahahaha! im tired but then still have time to do this.u noe sumthing??? yesterday latest news...Gabriel was being terminated aND resigned...pity him but wat to do.. he dont know how to cover HIS MISTAKES WELL...i guess,tis is the time i can learn all my paper works and do more werk..im sure i'll learn many things soon.. and V have already sound me to learn paperwork from adek this cuming monday! hahahaha! wat the????? im sure i will be able to do it slowly... gaby,i wish u the best and gud luck in anything u do kay????? dont let this thing happen again!!! wat a bad day for him... well,god noes whose right and whose in the wrong.
oh yeah..yesterdwy wen back home late till 8.45 u noe?? u noe sumthing???? NICk!! he was on his way back home and he was whistling at us and he lambai2!!!!! he went back home so late like 8.40..duh!!!! tak sangka aku!!! oh yeah... nick i really got a big crush on u man!!!!!
and today... hes early around 7.30. tats his timing now.. and u noe sumthing????
he lives at Shaw centre cairnhill road saner...town area man!!! wow!!! hes so cute!! so the..arrggghh.. wat i noe.. i cair giler dgn dier!!!!i like ur style boy!!
today he comes around 4 times to my outlet.. told him i end at 2 and he ask me to go back and relexs at home..heheh! he too up economics wen his in Scholl last time and he likes designing! hehhe... tats gud.. same as me...we have the same interest ryte?? hmmm......... tats great!!! well... now ryte??? how to tackle him ar???? im into him in deep deep heart..hahah! wat english is this??? well,i like u man.. u're a nice an polit + patient guy too... puji lebih nampak!!! weeehhheeee!!!! weeeewwweee!!! ahahahaha!!! like i said.. luv is blind and this time its Angmoh u noe??? how cum??? khahahahaah! wat the hell!!! he also ask me 2 times "u werking tomorow??"y??? wanna cum donw?? and i said theres no one on saturday! not bz at all!!!well... i'll c him on monday!!! yuuhhuu....
and yeah.. im werking to
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|6:19 PM

Wednesday, January 18, 2006
Hey!! im using the outside computer at Causeway point ryte now.my Computer got problem now hahahaha!! wat the F**K! Shit! i hate it man! wat i need is just to Get a new computer maybe! my cpu yang rosak so i cant do anithing lor...ask ina but ina dad say maybe kena virus lar tuh!! wahduih!!!again???? but that computer is Damn OLD actually! i wish i cudget this computwer that i used at the Cyber cafe or wat the shop Name is "ZAP IT"!!aku pun tak tau mcm ner boleh rosak tu cpu haha! maybe becos i sleep the whole day after get back from werk at 4+ on Monday and i dont realised that my CPU is TOO HOT and Spicy + Crispy that i shud change! the computer was ok but the Cpu was in dead big problem!hahahaha..well,hope i cud got the chance to bought a new one soon!there are lots of computer now mah!! and hopefully with the new one i cant do many things!!now..... thats my Big problem!!!!
ok..never mind bout that!lets talk bout werk...werk was very tiring this few days and im still not yet really happy werking in the environment full of people who are Lazy and wants to be fast always!!!!im yet still learning here... NO ONE IS PERFECT RYTE????so............. why shud i bother???? but it really concerns me.i hate people who luk down on people and only thing they are the best,the fastest and the perfect no. 1 !! they are just wasting of time...!! managers???? so what if u are Called "MANAGERS" or "SUPERVISORS"??? do i really care??? i dont!!!! u people are mostly sucks but i noe not all...!! there are some out there who are very humble and very patients with their job...im waiting for like few more days counting down to changing or Reshufflemets of staff,sup and mgrs..hopefully,pray hard adek will be with me at the same outlet!i can werk very well with her and we do communicates!i luv u sis!!! hope i will still be at Change Alley!!! and i will admires "BERG(NICK)" always and Forever....heheeh!
ThaT GUY "L" didnt msg me for cuming two days! maybe becos of the miting that i dont agree.but if u are ok with me ands u are very patient person,i will mit u!up tohim.. i also not like him too desperate to mit. and wat i believe god will meet me the Special Sum1 sooner or later just that we dont noe wen it will happen!i'm sure u agreed with me rite???its all the matter of 'jodoh dan pertemuan di tangan allah!'... insyallah! what i pray is that i get sum1 who luvs me for who i am and luvs me becoz of me ...he must be sum1 who is understanding,joker and also can make me smile although i got many problems... the most important... he luvs me more than i luv him!! hahahahahaa.. and who can guide me tru my journey of life and path to the ryte one.. tru Allah way! im sure,if im patients.. i will met that sum1!
oklah.... guess, i had enuff infromations.. gona update soon! maybe tomorow or Friday wen im free.i wanna check my frenster for a while and after that get back home! wanna watch rock... its out!! yuhhuu.... God bless me... hope im gona be safe with him! take care people... have a great week...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|6:29 PM

Monday, January 16, 2006
laut seakan mengerti keinginan di hati...
ketenangan yang ku perlukan
membuatkan hatiku tenang dan bahagia...
Wen to CWP just now and i saw eric wen i get down from the Bus at Wdls interchange.he so Cute!!!and hes getting Smaller and more skinny! hish!!
"kau da insaf ker?jadi minah ferring plak?"hahaha,apelah eric nie? mcm2!!
well,i still remember how we all becum close dulu!i heard from mahmud he jual moto..sayangnyer!! tell u sumthing,i still remember how naughty my clasmates including me in class dulu..haha! never listen to cikgu but then.. at last we are all growing up to becum a better person..although kiter main2 dalam kelas...we still survive now..haha! alhamdulilah! hope all of us will succeed one day!
love can never be force and u noe how much i hurt b4 in luv.its a deep feeling,inside the heart that no one noes..i still havent find my true luv yet.. haha! allah is my true luv and family is forever!
penat ar..esok kene keje pagi but till 2! shit!!!! msg ina and mar didnt reply!!!oklah... i need to rest and sleep. werking hard for tomorow! remeber if u had any problems,u're not alone! okies??? take cr and happy cuming monday!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|3:00 PM

hey!im BORED..got nuting to do today..it Sunday and its the most boring day..haha! saw erna online and she told me bout yesterday..she saw the rest yesterday and they went out together.. well,we are not like last time wen we used to be together in ite First year...now we go on our seperates ways and we all are divided into grups..haha!me alone still and i guess its better that way. aku bukannyer campur orang sangat..makin campur makin teruk nanti..nak2 mulut perempuan kan??? bnyk cerita dan gosip terhangat!haha... ape bleh buat..hehe! but then,i wish all my frens a happy life and take care always yeah?me??? im always bz with family and werk... thats all im gud at now..haha! ade kawan pon.. takde yang boleh membantu waktu kite susah nanti..i've been in that situation b4.
oh yeah..today is 15th of January.Cepat seh..mak oi! half of the month gone..2 weeks more get pay!hehehe... best2! yesterdy i saw mr Peterson..my Science techer in Queensway SEc like 6 yrs ago...wow!! it been a long time man! and yet.. we still remember each other.. oh yar, he sent regards to all my Qss frens.. he was now teaching at Bishan park Sec..hmm! and he living at toa pyoh..near his house! gud 4 him!
werking with hadi,diana,nurul,sim wei yesterday was great and fun..they are cooperative too..hehe!fun werking with them..well,all the best to u all and hope to c u all soon! and siu ling.....the one who train me came down and do QAP.ask me to do Small mocha..of coz my mocha nice..haha! SOP...weeehhheee! heard theres a barista competition soon coming up..haha! she ak me to join..no way man.. no way..haha! dont make change alley paiseh and me myself malu!although its an experience..but then,, 4 get it..maybe next2 year i can join..haha!well... my aim is to be a supervisor for the company by tis year! hope i can get my next level...
hopefully! god bless me.. hope i get it soon...bubbyyee!!! Assalammualaikum!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|6:17 AM

Sunday, January 15, 2006
hey .. im still confused and shocked by wat happen yesterday. i juz cant believe it he sent me that flower..but y??it shocked of my life and yet i never received any of this gift b4 from a Guy fren.what shud i do now? i still cant figure out y he really wants to noe me thou.and me???? like perempuan taakde hati dan perasaan sekarang buat taktau aje dengan pelawan dier keluar..hahaaha! like i said... im still not interested in this!!! for a gal,maybe it a common thing to get flower from sum1..but for me??? its like a joke!never people do this to me...malunye! and the act of telling my mum i bought the flower for her was a Great answer. plz "L",money,things and presents are never important to me...i dont need those things in life. i dont need kekayaan...i dont need money in frenship or love.a matter of concern,care and remember me is juz what i need in u.in any people i called fren or maybe a lover one day who's gona be my future husband.money cant buy love...and money cant buy me...
oh yeah...i dont deserve those flowers from u BRO..im NO special women 2 u... im juzz a normal lady out there who leads a simple2 life... even with org miskin sekalipon,i appreciate them much! i never luk down on people...i judge myself b4 i judge them...well,this is me...no one cud understand me unless me myself...haiz!!! only god noes me well....
mum was happy to get that flower,im happy fo her too... dier yang lebih layak menerima bunga itu berbanding dengan aku anaknya.... it is 8 rose flower with 8 ferrero Rocher chocolates stick to it.haiz.................
cant imagine still.....watever.. i just dun wanna argue... what i noe, i never need things and money coz it will never determined our frenship.
im confused..haiz!!!
wen i think of my past experience with Sharul... i realy regret wht hd happen but then...i noe its my fault too...i cant regret coz theres noting i can do to change the past...hehehe.......... well, thsi i life.. my pathways of life... i juz can Pray to get a better fen, better guy who can lead me in life...hope that sum1 luv me more than i luv u...
yuuhhuu......!! im tired after werking at gwc.. got to go,buubbyye!
gd luck people... bye!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|4:48 PM

Saturday, January 14, 2006
hmm,now then i have time to Scribble sumthing here.well,juz a bit will do,bout my Kampong trip and how i enjoy my raya there.Wen to Kl and uncle busu took us..his house was at Klang Selangor.the accidentally part is,his Jeep rosak and we have to tompang his jiran Van.Kesian busu..
we reach his house around 1am like that.. hmmpphh...then my mum,dad and brother was so terpegun with his house.but his house is too dalam and dekat dgn hutan.Surrounded by Trees and its Pokok kelapa(coconut). best!!!! best giler... his house kat luar da macam taman bunga seh... ade ikan,ader air, phuh!!!!lawa.....if i were to have tht kind of house,habislah!!!im gon pretty much happy! well donno leh.. hope to have tht kind of house of my own land...that house was RM100K+..hehe!
then.. the next day we went to My aunties house at Negeri sembilan,gemas...Gemenceh,tampin watever that place called..hahaha. then b4 that we went to My arwah atuk and nenek Graveyard..my nenek passed away 1 march 1971(friday)...and atuk was on 9 May 2001.hmmm... nenek wAs 35 yrs ago...such a long time and her Kubur was deep inside the Hutan.. hish! hutan? and theres a few grave there but i guess no one take a look at them..next to the kubur is pokok2 getah.siang hari ramai yang menoreh disaner.hmmm... sempat aku amek gambar pokok getah.. hehe! atuk is atas bukit gitu tapi bukan bukit ar.i dont know what and it is so near Mak ngah house.we rushed to the 2 kubur coz theres no time left for us coz its nearly 7 pm.all becos tis unexpected things happen so it delay.alhamdulilah..we manage to go....
Then we proceed to Mak cu house,kembar busu tau!! hehehe.. best! kaampong biase lah..lalat sane sini,nyamuk sane sini..but im ok with it...then to Mak long house,terus ke rumah Mak ngah.. every place got food and we have to eat..hahahaa! umah mak teh jer kite tk pegi.. ntahlah... sumthing wrong with all this people..adik beradik but gaduh!!!
mk ngah house penuh dgn ayam kampong! sedap ayam kampong nie..hehehe. teperanjat aku dgn makcik dan pakcik aku yang ade harta sendiri.well, hope after will have one soon...eh.. aku penat ar... sambung besok kay?
and one more thing...................
i get shocked of my life wen i get a bouquet of FLOWERS from "L".. haha.
Seram siak aku tgk dier... ish... dlm hidup 21 thun.. nie first ti,m dpt bunga,, but then. i gave to mum and told her i bought for her.. well,nie bohong sunat per..aku tak heran semua benda2 nie.. heheh.takpelah.. hope our frenship will last kay Bro???watever.... his ok lah but not more than that in between us...his fireman and i noe he have everything now...but i dont! apepon... i live it to god to judge him..
i pity the jemaah at mekkah...mina yng mati sewaktu melontar batu jamrah..apepon.. islam tak ajar kita untuk berebut2.. sabar itu nikmat sebenar yang dikuniakan tuhan Allah! well... i hope one dy i get to go there.... insyallah! ,,,,,,,and job was fine... jus tat managers will be change soon...hmmm.. lets c then..bubbyyee!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|3:43 AM

Friday, January 13, 2006
More than 200 Muslim pilgrims were trampled to death and hundreds more injured as they tripped over luggage in a scramble to hurl pebbles at symbols of Satan during the annual pilgrimage.
It was the latest in a succession of stampede tragedies to hit the hajj pilgrimage despite efforts of the Saudi authorities to avoid a repeat of disasters like the one that killed 1,426 people in 1990.
"The number of killed is at least 200," a medical source at Mina General Hospital told AFP. "The figure is due to rise because most of the victims are in critical condition," he said Thursday.
"We cannot give an exact figure because we received some 600 casualties, many of whom were transfered to other hospitals," he added. Many of the bodies brought to hospital were from South East Asian countries, sources said.
The Saudi-owned Al-Arabiya news channel showed footage of the bodies of dozens of pilgrims laying on the ground, covered with white shrouds. It was the last day of the pilgrimage.
Interior ministry spokesman Mansur Al-Turki confirmed to AFP that "there is a large number of deaths ... but we cannot give (exact) numbers now because rescue teams are still evacuating the area."
He said the accident occurred "because of the luggage that fell and led to a rush at the eastern entrance of the Jamarat bridge," where the pilgrims stone three pillars symbolizing the devil in the valley of Mina, east of the holy city of Mecca.
One Egyptian pilgrim on the scene told AFP: "Just when we went to throw the stones, I saw a huge rush and pilgrims falling under the feet of thousands of other pilgrims."
The stoning of Satan is the riskiest episode of the hajj as the pilgrims jostle to make sure their pebbles touch the pillar while the weaker ones risk being trampled on by the masses.
A total of 251 Muslim pilgrims were trampled to death in the 2004 hajj as people panicked during the ritual stoning.
The stoning ritual, which is spread out over three days, marks the final part of the hajj pilgrimage for the more than two million Muslim pilgrims who have flocked to Mecca from around the world.
In 2003, 14 pilgrims, including six women, were killed in a stampede during the first day of the stoning ritual, and 35 died in 2001, while in 1998 the hajj saw 118 killed and more than 180 hurt at Mina.
The deadliest toll of the pilgrimage was in July 1990 when 1,426 pilgrims were trampled or asphyxiated to death in a stampede in a tunnel, also in Mina.
Following a journey made by Prophet Mohammed over 1,400 years ago, the pilgrims this year flocked to the plain of Arafat south of Mina on Monday to pray for mercy in the central rite of the hajj.
Before coming to Mina on Tuesday, many spent the night in the sacred site of Muzdalifah where they collected pebbles for the stoning ritual
The hajj is one of the five pillars of Islam and a once-in-a-life time duty for those able to complete it.
The latest tragedy comes days after 76 people were killed when a hostel in the heart of Mecca collapsed last week.
Almost 60,000 security, health, emergency and other personnel were involved in organising this year's hajj, trying to prevent the deadly incidents that have marred it in recent years from being repeated.
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|3:44 PM

Thursday, January 12, 2006
assalammuaalaikum!!
Im finally back FRom Kl and kampong!yuuhhoo.. hows Raya?? hey! i've a great time there..was such a best momnent wen i met most of my aunties and uncles From Negeri sembilan..hish! best2!i'll tell u more bout them soon..wt i noe,im back and i need to werrkkkkkk tomorow...ssigh!!! boringness! ahahahaha.........
and now.... im loke having a new idol.. MAWI?? amcm boleh dier nie?? hehehehe.... tapi dier ok lah... simple and Nice.. and u noe sumthing??? I MIZ MAalaySIa... so much! that MAlaysia is suitable for me becos i luv the surroundings...hutan belantara,tanam-tanaman...gunung...bukit..batu baaa..mcm 2 ar..hehehe! apepon,i'll tell u soon coz i need to sleep coz i jus came back like at 1-2 am... so long still... hehhee.,. okies.. take cr!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|7:17 PM

Monday, January 09, 2006

mawi... juara AF3 
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:40 PM

btw..forget to tell u all.. i werk Spinelli 5 mths already! CEpat kan??? hmm...so fast! haiz! and i gues tis month,will be lots of changes..i really hope it wont affect me..and hopefully,im still surviving..well,tis is life,we have to move on and be patient so as Being extra careful and extra hardworking.well,juz be patients.. wat comes around goes around...
Sumtimes i juz tink tat,how long i will be like tis?? i wannaa grow to be sum1 with better GRades,better person..im sick of tis life sumtimes with the same position im holding.i heard Rohaila is already Starbucks Manager and had a wave,,Siti tking Tp tis month..all tis Moto lisence...i still remember how eager and serius i am taking the Moto license dulu in ite..but too bad,,i dont make it and i give up on halfway!Semangat 5 minit jer..hish!! but one tink is... im not Yati dulu... yang selalu mengharap pada yang tak sudi and becum worse! now im better than dulu.. im more matured and learning things fast..insyallah!
im listening to Pahit akan manis akhirnya song from Ukays..
"Wanita manakah Sanggup berkongsikan kasih???
Walau madu bagiku,tapi hempedu bagimu,
pun kadang harus terima suratan darinya
tidak salah kalau kasih dibahagi seadilnya..."
Wat u gals think??i dont really agree with it but then.all depends on the situation..sum can accept sum dont..which lady wannaa share luv?? haiz!! entahlah...tiada siapa yang layak menilai kecuali tuhan.. ku nie mcm pasrah jer..hahaha!if i can change the past.. i never want my life to be like last time..hmm..!but life still goes on and wats past is past...i will still remember XXX,forever and never will forget wt xxx did to me b4.wat to do...takdir tuhan...tak siapa yang tahu kecuali dier.
one more thing,i never one sum1 who is Rich..it doesnt make me happy at all.wat i need is luv,protection from sum1 who can take gud care of me and family..if u have money,car and wat so ever if ur not happy 4 wat??
biar miskin harta tapi kaya budi bahasa...entahlah...i never hope for sum1 wsho is gud and rich.. i prefer sum1 who can accept me and luv me and my family..cinta kasih sayang perlukan pengorbanan... well, theres more to say.. just say it next time kay??for now,wish me luck in tis 2006 ..
how cum i put up mawi photo and even change the song to mawi song???hhahaa..for fun,wat to do... its juz musim.mawi world??? hahaha..i like fazley..hes Clever and talented..inspiration... hmmph! i jus have to said that lor.. nothing to do now... im going to go tomorow.. and be back on Wed nite...its been a long time never go kampong..haha! take cre people.. SElamat MEnyambut,HaRi Raya Haji and salam IdulAdha(bulan Zulhijjah)... pray hard the people At makkah will be Safe.. i hope i wud go there tis year..soon tis year! insyallah...jika tuhan makabulkan..aku pergi... bye!
Assalammualaikum!!!
*aku merindui tuhan dn menyayanginyer samer seperti menyayangi diriku sendiri...mungkin lebih dari itu,aku perlukan tuhan disisi untuk terus hidup dalam dunia yang penuh dengan dugaan,pancaroba dan kealpaan manusia! aku rindu akan tuhan Allah,semoga niatku ke Tanah suci mekah dapat aku laksana kan suatu ketika nanti..amin!*
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:39 PM

hie! off day today and its been raining the whole day..since yesterday nite.hmmph! sejukkk....ehehe! sleep late yesterday while talking to 'L'.
got many stories to talk about to.oklah he,at least not bored.hes just a fren to me.everyone is my fren..uwweeekkk....
been bored today but later going out to send dad's pants to Tailor.at woodlands checkpoint.as usual mum sibuk dgn kemas rumah jer...forever.!!!
i wanted to watch castello and even the 9 naga movie from indon..
my hero acts on tat movie..Fauzi baadila! great ryte?? i luv it man!
hahaha.... i got nothing to say ar...just feeling cold now and im tired still.tomorow nite im gona be at Kl waiting for busu.celebrating raya at Negeri sembilan..oklah... c u soon.update later kay and i've change my song again to Mawi song.. listen it up kay? bubbyyeee! P/sz-hapi 25th bdae FAdz..
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|6:53 AM

Aduh Saliha-MAWI (lagu-M nasir,/lirik LoloQ)
Mana rayuanku
Hendak aku sampaikan
Rindu berahiku
Pada kasih yang jauh.......
Jauh bukan jarak dan tempat
Jauh nama dan pangkat
Mana penggantimu
Hendak aku dakapkan
Dendam asmaraku
Pada cinta yang luruh
Luruh bukan daun dan hujan
Luruh jiwa dan badan
Bertahun ku sandarkan percaya
Tak mungkin terpadam cahaya
Cintamu... bagai rembulan
Hilang di pandangan
Kala langit di lindung awan.....
Aduh
Mahkota terhempas
Barulah ku sedar
Yang ku sangkakan intan
Oh........hanyalah kaca
Sesudah berdarah
Barulah ku sedar
Jiwaku tercalar
Sakitnya bukan kepalang
Kau biarkan aku sendiri menderita seksa
Racun hidupku Saliha
Kau biarkan aku sendiri melewati sepi
Dalam hidupku Saliha
Kau biarkan aku sendiri meratapi nasib....
Dalam gelita Saliha
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|6:47 AM

Sunday, January 08, 2006
Haji Menuju Allah
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Membawa hati dan diri yang hina
Memberi hadiah kepada Allah
Berhati-hatilah menghadapNya
Setiap hamba
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Hati yang baik akhlak yang baik
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Agar syarat dan rukun tepat sempurna
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Agar amalan hajinya tidak sia-sia
Tata tertib dan akhlak kenalah jaga
Buatlah dengan tenang serta tawadu'
Sabar dan tolak ansur mestilah ada
Jangan berkasar merempuh manusia
Tanah haram jagalah pantang larangnya
Pergi haji bukannya masa untuk membeli belah
Beringatlah betulkanlah niat kita
Moga-moga haji kita diterima
Jagalah pantang larangNya
Yang boleh rusakkan hati
Jauhkan maksiat dan yang sia-sia
Takutkan Allah yang esa
Ingat selalu padaNya
Agar kita senantiasa memiliki jiwa hamba
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:00 PM

Saturday, January 07, 2006
Alhamdulillah II
Munsyid : Too Phat feat. Dian Satrowardoyo, Yassin, Ahli Fiq
http://liriknasyid.com
Dian Sastro:
disaat waktu berhenti...kosong
dimensi membutakan mata,memekakkan telinga
lalu diri menjadi hampa
saat paradigma dunia tak lagi digunakan untuk menerka*
sadarku akan hadirmu,mematahkan sendi2 yang biasanya tegak berdiri
Yassin:
ult li albi bissaraha (I'm opening up my heart with honesty)
hayya nab'idil karaha (Let's avoid the hated and hatred)
syakkireena a' kulli ni'ma (Let's remain thankful with what we have)
ba' ideena anil fattana (Let's avoid all lies and sins)
Malique:
merenungi luar jendela,mengagumi kebesaran yang Maha Esa
ku menilai kehidupan dari sudut berbeza
tak memadai hanya kecapi rasa selesa
maukan harta yang mampu beli 1 semesta
berpesta ke pagi botol bergelimpangan
kekasih muda bukan takat berpegang tangan
harta dan jamuan nafsu tidak berkekalan
bila menjelang tua bukan itu jadi bekalan
dan jangan puisi ini disalah tafsir pula
bukan berkhutbah cuma betuli diri jua
ingin hidup sempurna aset nilai berjuta,
saling tukar wanita,senyum dan mati tua
bakat dikurnia jangan disalah guna
jangan kufur nikmat yang diberi percuma
guna kelebihan untuk hikmah bersama
jagalah nama hidup penuh pementasan dan drama
ada berisi ada yang kurus,ada melencong ada yang lurus bukan semuanya tulus
ada sempuna ada kurang upaya ada yang jadi buta hanya bila sudah kaya
sebesar rumah bermula dengan sekecil bata,boleh hilang dalam sekelip mata
ucaplah alhamdulillah bukannya sukar, kerna semua nak kaya atau besar
tetap Allahuakbar!!!
Joe Flizzow:
jadikanlah ku tentera Fisabilillah yang tertera di kalimah harap memanduilah
entah apabila persimpangan tiba,hidup penuh rintangan harus kuhadapinya
harapku tidak terlupa diri bila gembira,dan cuma mula mencari kau disaat hiba
ku cuma manusia penuh dengan kesilapan tapi bisa membezakan cahaya dan kegelapan
tabah bila dihalangan duri onak dan cobaan
teguh bila dicobakan keruh kuasa dan perempuan
sentiasa legar diminda,dikejar dan dipinta dari zaman bermula hingga ke akhirnya
ku mengerti siapa ku tanpamu disisi dan apa guna posesi juga posisi
sementara ini cuma hanya puisi,nukilan tulisan dan bisikan isi hati
mencari keterangan,menjiwai peranan menepati pesanan janji juga saranan
alhamdulillah atas kurniaan rezeki,moga tidak terleka dalam perjalanan ini
Ahli Fiqir:
aku yang memandang di dalam lubuk hati,mencari-cari zat rahsia yang katanya tersembunyi
aku yang melihat alam meliputi wujud menyertai lalu ku pindahkan alam ke dalam mata hati
aku hakiki,aku mengerti segala yang terjadi di langit dan di bumi
gunanya tiada fantasi, pelik dan benar,qada' dan qadar kau berilah ku kekuatan
agar dapat ku hindarkan segala kesesatan
usah kau biar nafsuku terliur dari pandangan majazi ini,
aku yang hodoh lagi hina amat benar merindui
moga cahaya lailatul tak membutakan mataku,semoga segala puji tak ku meninggi diri
moga segala janji dapat juga ku penuhi,moga dapatku hadapi tikaman dari belakang
lidah setajam pisau, ku tidak akan risau dengan dugaan, cabaran sepanjang perjalanan
ku pasrah ku akur 7,8,6 Alhamdulillah Syukur...
Dian Sastro:
sujudku pun takkan memuaskan inginku
'tuk hanturkan* sembah sedalam kalbu
adapun kusembahkan syukur padamu ya Allah
untuk nama,harta dan keluarga yang mencinta
dan perjalanan yang sejauh ini tertempa
alhamdulillah pilihan dan kesempatan
yang membuat hamba mengerti lebih baik makna diri
semua lebih berarti akan mudah dihayati
Alhamdulillah,Alhamdulillah,Alhamdulillah....
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|3:36 PM

Mengerjakan haji merupakan salah satu daripada Rukun Islam. Mengerjakan haji wajib dilakukan oleh orang Islam dan tidak wajib bagi orang kafir.
(ولله على الناس حج البيت من استطاع إليه سبيلا ومن كفر فإن الله غني عن العالمين)
Artinya: "Mengerjakan haji adalah kewajiban manusia terhadap Allah, yaitu (bagi) orang yang sanggup melakukan perjalanan ke Baitullah. Barangsiapa mengingkari (kewajiban haji), maka sesungguhnya Allah Maha Kaya (tidak memerlukan sesuatu) dari semesta alam."The Hajj or Haj (Arabic: حَجّ Ḥaǧǧ) is the Pilgrimage to Mecca (or, "Makkah") and is the fifth of the "Five Pillars of Islam" in Sunni Islam and one of the ten Branches of Religion in Shi'a Islam. Every able-bodied Muslim who can afford to do so is obliged to make the pilgrimage to Mecca at least once in their lifetime.
The government of Saudi Arabia issues special visas to foreigners for the purpose of the pilgrimage, which takes place during the Islamic month of Dhu al-Hijjah. Entrance to the city itself is forbidden to non-Muslims, and the entire city is considered a holy site to Islam.
Many people go to Mecca in groups with their friends or family, or friends from the local mosque, in order to save money. Some airlines have special package holidays for Muslims going to Mecca. A woman is encourged to go to Mecca in the company of a male relative (father, husband, or brother), but the Saudi government permits an unaccompanied woman to go provided that she travels in a group with other women and has written permission to do so from a male relative.
While in Mecca for the Hajj, male pilgrims are required to dress only in an ihram, a garment consisting of two sheets of white unhemmed cloth, the top draped over the torso and the bottom secured by a belt; plus a pair of sandals. The ihram is intended to show the equality of all pilgrims in the eyes of Allah, as there is no difference between a prince and a pauper when everyone is dressed equally. The ihram also symbolizes purity and absolution of sins. Many female pilgrims traditionally wear a simple white or black dress with a headcovering.
While the pilgrim is wearing the ihram, he may not shave, cut his nails, or wear jewelery. An invocation known as the talbiyah should be chanted as the pilgrim is donning the garment.
Umrah
Upon arrival in Mecca, the pilgrim ('Hajji') performs a series of ritual acts symbolic of the lives of Abraham (Ibrahim) and Hagar (Hajarah), and of solidarity with Muslims worldwide. These acts of faith are:
Perform a tawaf, which consists of circling the Kaaba four times at a hurried pace, followed by three times, more closely, at a leisurely pace, in a counter-clockwise direction.
Rapidly walk seven times back and forth between the hills of Safa and Marwah. This is a re-enactment of Hagar's frantic search for water, before the Zamzam Well was revealed to her by Allah.
These rituals complete the umrah, sometimes called the "lesser hajj". Although not a part of the ritual, most pilgrims drink water from the Well of Zamzam when the umrah is completed. Also, men and women trim off approximately one inch of hair.
At this point, the pilgrim can change from the ihram to regular clothes, that is known as Mut'ah of Hajj.
Completing the Hajj
After spending a night or more in Medina (Although this is not part of the Hajj ritual), the Hajj continues. The pilgrim dons the ihram once again and performs the final three acts of faith. This is known as the Al Hajjul Akbar, or "greater hajj." The duties of the greater hajj are:
Journey to the hill of Arafat and spend an afternoon there. The journey usually takes three to five days for the full round trip. At the plain of Arafat, the pilgrim stays from afternoon until sundown. No specific rituals or prayers are required during the stay at Arafat, though many pilgrims spend the time praying, talking to Allah, and thinking about the course of their lives.
Upon returning from Arafat, pilgrims travel to the city of Mina just outside of Mecca, and participate in the stoning of the devil. This requires collecting a number of pebbles from the ground on the plain of Muzdalifah (various Hajj accounts list the number of pebbles as between 49 and 70), and throwing the pebbles at the three pillars at Mina, which represent the devil. All three pillars represent the devil: the first and largest is where he tempted Abraham against sacrificing Ishmael, the second is where he tempted Abraham's wife Hagar to induce her to stop him, and the third is where he tempted Ishmael to avoid being sacrificed. He was rebuked each time, and the throwing of the stones symbolizes those rebukes.
Perform a second tawaf around the Kaaba. This completes the requirements of the Hajj.
After stoning the devil, many male pilgrims will then shave their head; women may cut off a lock of their hair. This is a symbol of rebirth, signifying that their sins have been cleansed by completion of the Hajj.
The "lesser hajj" can be performed at any time of the year, but the "greater hajj" must take place during the month of Dhu al-Hijjah and is one of the five pillars of Sunni Islam. Most pilgrims will perform the "greater hajj" because of the difficulty and expense of traveling to the city of Mecca. For many pilgrims (especially ones who had difficulty travelling due to health or finances), the journey to Mecca is a once in a lifetime event.
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:55 PM

Sebuah Pengakuan
Album :
Munsyid : Marshanda
http://liriknasyid.com
Hoo. Tuhan, aku bukanlah ahli syurga
Juga tak mampu menahan siksa neraka
Kabulkan tobat ampuni dosa - dosaku
Hanyalah engkau pengampunan dosa hamba-Mu
Dosa - dosaku tak terhitung bagai debu
Ya.. Illahi, terimalah amal tobatku
Sisa umurku berkurang setiap hari
Dosa - dosaku makin bertambah Ya.. Illahi
Hamba yang berdosa datang bersimpuh menyembah-Mu
Mengaku menyeru memohon ampunan-Mu
Mengaku menyeru memohon ampunan-Mu
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:28 PM

im werking later..soon at 2.30 to 8.30!
btw.. latest news,yesterday.. many jemaah meninggal dunia di makkah.
23 people terkorban ..the hotel roboh.
puluhan lain cedera..hotel yang terletak berdekatan masjidil haram Runtuh tengah hari semalam.,,haiZ!!!sad..sad...
apepon..aku doakan merekaa semua para jemaah sihat hendaknyer!
amin! insyaallah!mari kite sedekahkan mereka Al-fatihah...amin!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:02 AM

Thursday, January 05, 2006
hie..HIS BACK!! NICK..!! yeh he went to LOnDon for his Christmas..
hehehe... he from LONDON??? jauhnyer!!!! well berg.. u'll always be my inspiration and semangat pergi kerja! yahoo...haha! Denise is back to.. He's my frnce customer who always buy Cocoa twist!hehe... bsides them..got mny other more who already came back to werk.. A new year.. a new life.. new start..hehe! but me.. my first day of werk was a Slack.. haiyo!!thanks 2 all my regular Customers 4 giving me the inspirations to cum to werk.hahah! if not becos of u all..i wont cum back to WErk..c that BOTAK face..damn boring!!! irritating face..
oh yeah ina,Dont mke that Sentence to serius..Mar is always making joke.u noe she??? im used to it..dont u noe her???jangan mcm tuh kay? wats else i can do bsides laughing...Mala ur fren ws laughing and i was juz smiling kay???she herself say she "have to tahan u" okay babe?? hhaaiz...i noe ur moody.. but plz..dont get that too serius aite fren?
well,i hope u noe how to diffrent shape between the gud or bad things happen around u..be gud LADY.. not GERL.. we are still frens kay? we all still luv u..and we noe u better then they noe u.dont say that!
He wants me to mit him,but me as usual taknak..i juz dont know y im still Thinking bout the past..i juz dont bother to noe anyone around me..especially guy i mean.hati nie mcm ntahlah..dunno! well,i juz hope there sum1 who will came drop by knocking my heart and open it up..haha!
sedikit intro bout him..hes a Fireman,living at cck and he oklah... but i still dont know.. he says tat hes sincere in noeing me. but me?????? did i?nother one is adam...he nsmen..21 yrs old.. he pon msg me too... but me??? i juz got noting much to elaborate and talk to them... haiz!!! lets c wats happening next kay??i juz pry hrd god will mmet me sum1 who is sincere,jujur and sum1 who can accept me for who i am,accept my family,my life and luvs me more than i luv him.chheeehhh.....heheeheh!
well,mybe tis year is the year i met that person??lagi cepat lagik bagus.. so i can settle down fassts...hhaha!takyah nak pikiak lagik!
hahahaha..2006 a year im gonna grow older..im gona be 22!!! shit! old siah! eeerrrrkkkk............22?????? mak dikau..... tua tua tua!!!!
hehehehe..wateverlah kay? hope tis year will be a better future and remember yati..EAT less!hahahha..! oh yr.. i forgot to include an dditional of my resolution... i need a license,car license!hehehee,okies??? bubyyee... A'kum!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|12:34 PM

Wednesday, January 04, 2006
feeling lazy early in the morning wen i still have my stomach cramp...then Uncle wee also didnt kol me up.kol but late!!! hahaha... usual lah he.. alasan...and i reach werk late nearly almost 7am! hahah! tiring man.. tiring! oh yeah.. tomorow?? im werking with Gabriel again in the morning..shit! jus now with khai...later with gabriel..Chia hui also werk morning!haiz...i want to find a reason for me to not cum tomorow to werk and im feeling giddy and no mood. my stomach is in pain too...haiz!! fuck..
Chat at Anak melayu..with tis few guys..haha! one of them is fireman.. tats wat i always wanted..fadz and khai pon dah lama hilang..hehe! nanti tup2 da kawin eh?hahaha.. i miz them soo much! takpela.. hey people.. i juz got no mood now...i tell u bout them tomorow..and... i got no mood fo the time being!!! anyone can cheer me up??? no mood to werk no mood to do anything! bye!!!!!!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|3:05 PM

Tuesday, January 03, 2006
can u imagine..budak 3+ tahun sekolah?? hhaha...merepeks kan? masyaallah...my cousins anak gona skul tomorow..her 4th son..she can lah..got money everything can.hiz..but to me.. he's too small siah! habeslah...err. bukan anak aku per..btol tak?let her be...
people people... dont u think we living in this world for just a while?? only sementara??dont u all think of that?wake up...kite hidup sekali di dunia.. memang tapi hidup di dunia hanya pinjaman dan sekejap saje. dunia lah tempat kite mengejar membina kehidupan di akhirat kelak! manusia di dunia berebut2 mengejar DUIT..kite harus rebut peluang mengejar kehidupan di akhirat di dalam Syurga..semoga Allah menempat kan ku dan keluargaku ke dalam SYURGa kelak..erm!!! aku tetap bersyukur kerana tuhan telah membuka hatiku ke jalan takwa yang benar..menuju ke sisi Allah! aku sayang Allah..Teramat sayangkan nya.bilakah dpt aku menuju ke Rumah Allah di ka'abah?Mekah?madinah?.....i wish i cud go there...SOoN.. aku tetap bersyukur tuhan menjauhkn aku dari insan yang telah membawaku ke neraka.aku takut!!! tapi alhamdulilah..dier telah tiada dalam hidupku...but... if takdir tuhan menemukanku dengannya..aku terima...haiz!!!! god... safe me From Siksaan kubur..
i have to get back to werk tomorow!!! haiz!! bosannyer... semoga tuhn sentis melindungi aku dari Kesalahan..sigh..werk??? boring!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okays people... peace...
***"Bila kamu semua berbuat baik,maka bererti kamulah berbuat kebaikan untuk dirimu sendiri,dan bila kamu berbuat buruk maka keburukan itu bererti untuk dirimu sendiri"( al-Isra':7)
"tidak seorangpun yang dapat mengetahui apa yang akan diusahankannya esok" (luqman:34)
Asslammualaaikum!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:08 PM

Shit i cum "that" today..after 2 weeks late..haha! and now,my stomach is in great pain..adoi!!Adoi... wen jb yesterday and get the tickets to KL on the 9th of January at 7pm.Transnasional bus..its 24 bucks per ticket. My mum,dad angah and me going..only Along dont!!! he........ forever with his wife and new house at JB.never wants to visit mum and dad.. hate his behaviour.too bd..he is still my blood brother..luv still luv but hate still hate.hhaahaha..watever! surprisingly tak jammed pulak smlm..bestnyer!!! went at 6+ reach home at 10.30..bought my usual staff like magazines,new novel "adam dan hawa" and CDs..here there got MaWI fACES..POsters of him..he is a millionaire man at the age of 24...all the best to u MaWI..jGN lupe Diri sudah kay??
Today is Public Holiday..bestkan kalau selalu tak keje mcm nie..hehehehe. happy seh!End of month dpt gaji..yuuhhooo....tis month confirm dpt cepat sikit coz end of mth is Chinese New Year..best!
cuti cuti cuti and then starting february kene keje mcm biaser dah....haiz....tis new yera.. im gona be myself as usual and juz do my werk..Dont wanna BE a lazy lady.and also be cool.... stay sweet always as ever..hahaha!will make sure my life is better , job and family is my first Priority now.. hey,i update later.. wanna cook chicken and vege...then i wanna watch tv.hehe! catch u later..later.. bye!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|4:26 AM

Monday, January 02, 2006
Wanna Wish u All...
A HAPPY NEW YEaR 2006...
HOPE it will be a better year For u And Semoga
Dirahmati Tuhan amin!!
Yesterday i went out with my ite fren MaR and IRENA...
ina bought sum of her fren like sue,mala,Nadia,Aza and duno the other one who ar..hmm... all younger than me siah.. i feel like a lost person there...lucky got mar.ina pon there but she is with her frens ryte? she have to layan both parties..the girl are 1986-88 ages grup of gerl and me??? im 1984.. 21 years old...but they luk like they are 21 and im 17 or 18..haha! funny hor..??? ina luks like shes the sister of the gerls.. big sister..hehehe! can c sum changes in ina...gud! i mean,the keinginan untuk menghiaskan diri... hehehe! btol tak?? she always Sweet... a lady to be..not forgetting mar also..since she join police...she lose sum weight shes more of a lady luk..not mcm dulu,asik pakai seluar,t shirt tuh her...at least skrg shes a lady...haha! im happy for them but how bout firah??Shes sum1 who is the "TAK KUAsa TYPE"..hehe..but shes always better in her ladies wear..all the best to them this new year and they all luk gud..pretty ladies!!! luv u 3..
like me??? haha still the same..dgn rambut mcm orang giler...cermin mata yang mcm NERD..aiyoh!!! tak kuasa terus nie..haiz... yati2.. well, im still the me just hope to be a better person and more careful.. hasrat untuk pakai tudung is there..still hanging there and i will make it stand still... pe saje yati nie!
erm... i enjoy my day yesterday with them and hope to mit them again soon...its never enuff to mit them..i hope one day we cud go 4 a holiday together..insyallah!! i made my pastport photo alredy i mean change nd now.. im luking better than the old photo..u people customs will have no more reminding me bout tis kay???hahahaa wt i said siah??broken english...
oklah.. i want to siap2 go JB..buy ticket for next week raya... gudbye!
HAPPY NEW YEaR aGaIN..peace!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|8:15 AM

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NuR Cahaya Hatiku|8:00 AM