but everythingmeans nothing.

Monday, October 31, 2005
Last sunday i went to LARKIN...today i went to plaza kotaraya.What else,find kuih lor...! hantu kuih seh!too many singaporean there!hish.... takpelah..sekali sekala per..untuk makan.tak rasa tahun nie orang datang umah aku plak!maybe sum only...since nenek is not here anymore.erm.. here there everywhere people bz with preparation for raya.Deepavali tis year falls on the 28 Ramadan..haiz..! Deeparaya!i still remember dulu wen i used to stay at Henderson..ade wel,wel! bestnyer...everi yea without fail u noe...mum,angah and along will be at the hall outside watching!hahaha.......gerek....i missed my old flat !too bad...
lots and lot of people in this world...dunno where this people cum from! hahaa... lawa pulak baju raya tahun nie!ala-ala..kelantan one!
if can go there..i buy there!murah seh...and yeah.. tomorow,i guess im back for puasa! yesh.....
reach home at 4.30pm just now And wen on wAtching "Four brothers" and "Green street hooligans"! i luv both stories..not bad... fighting here there!yuuhhuu....... oklah.... im werking tomorow... wanna continue watching Tv.c u tomorow and im gonna update more since..im gona be free.... stomach full after eating Pizza hut just now haha!got to go...cheers! ~happy bdae leenah!~
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:36 PM

Sunday, October 30, 2005
Tis year hari raya is nothing to me...its different from the years before.My grandma had passed away and now,either both side mother or dad i have no grandma n grand dad..people were bz making biscuits,cakes and baking here and there...my fren like irena and mar also bz making kuih raya..Further more..there no more GREEN PACKETS for me this year as im 21 already.maybe i still get from dad ar...hehehee! im getting older and it time for me to give young people now.kire sedekah lah...tapi,macam banyak duit gitu aku..haha.
sekadar yang termampu ajelah nampaknyer...kepdada anak2 kaklong ke.
Time really flies fast and its gona be november soon!duh...Damn fast!
im quite free today when i read sum of my frens blog.one of them i Bz with spring cleaning and helping mum to bake kuih!heehehe.. mintak sikit boleh tak ?? whereas the other biasalah dgn baju raya... kasut..buat cake..siapkan baju,langsir,kemas itu ini..hahaha! umtime i think that,y must u all do this wen Hari raya comes??? wherea we cn do it on normal month...everidae routine or maybe..every 6 mth routine like painting the house,making cakes instead of buying outside..then change curtains,sew baju kurung..hahaha... but i noe wen it cumes to hari raya it is like a must for a family to do it coz it the best day and the day we celebrate our Aidilfitri in Syawal..we are the winners....yeah!the feeling is so different from other days.
Let c....ur mum must be cooking Rendang,kuah lodeh, ayam kari,ayam masak merah,sambal goreng,ketupat,lontong,serondeng... wow.... menyelerakan kan??? its best to eat in the morning of Syawal.
Seronok kan?whereas normal day we can cook it and eat but the feeling is different lar.. u noe what i mean? hahahaha
Raya dulu2 best...skrg??? lame ar....boring! yang penting for me..my puasa is gud and if i can fast for a month..im happy for my own! at kampung u can eat lemang! kan best kalo dpt balik Kampung raya tahun nie! haiz..... ayah??? takkan nak punye!ade kampung pun tak gune!
oh yeah...u noe sumthing?few day back i watch tis VCD- Mengembara KE ALAM BARZAKH..its totally merepek!how u can noe whats gona happen inside ur grave wen u died???what the....@@@%%%$$$.....??? aiyoh..
its totally NUTS and full of shit...i tot its a scary one but then..its nothing and only half and hour show..its takes like 15 minutes of the show for NASYID!what kind of story huh??im expecting more from the cd but then??? kehidupan di dalam kubur??? tak siapa tahu kecuali tuhan....arrrrgghhh.............wwhatevalah!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|8:33 AM

i get off on this days...
Sat 29-10
Sun 30-10
Tues- 1-11 (Deepavali..)
ThuRs- 3-11 (Hari raya..)
Sun-6-11(4th Hari raya)
Well...
on monday.. my shift is 6-4
Wed-6-12
Friday is 6-4
Sat 7-3 At hereen
yesh!!!
im So happy!!
get more time to relax at home...
Lucky i get Change alley outlet!
if not....
ahahahahahaha............
pheeewww........Boring!!!
Hey!
Danish and fariszuan just came and Drop by here just now
to sent kueh Tart to me and mum..yuuhhoo...!
My only cousin in Singapore Siti rahayu.. or we called her Kaklong!
family and Close people or fren called her Comel! Shes my mum side..
i love her Anak..Very cute and Sweet... Farhan(11),Fariszuan(10)
Danish(5) and Aiman(3)! weehhee!!! Very stubborn and naughty but i like them!
in malaysia..i have a lotz of Cousins..30??i guess so! too many siah!
i cant recall..and im not close to them.. but they are my father side.
Yesterday,my kak nany just give birth!on the 27 ar..few days back..
Congrats sis!its a boy! if im not wrong,my fren aisha from TCC also getting birth soon! hermm...........
all the best to u all.... skrg org sibuk buat kuih eh..?
da 21 kali raya aku solo...hehehe!
takpelah! ape nk buat....
suatu hari jodoh aku tuh tetap ade hanya allah aje yang tahu...
tuhan pennetu segalanya.... and today is...25th ramadan! 4 days more to raya! hmmm.... as usual!im a tv watcher! hahaha.... kt Kl mesti kecoh dgn orang pulang beraya eh???haiz!bestnyerrr kat puduraya....
to me...every raya is the same...jut that..it gud to have and celebrate raya coz itu hari kemenangan,kite berpuasa sebulan,menahan lapar dan dahaga! hmmm............
forget to tell that...
Kadek mum just passed away!
My mgr khairul told me that!
a minute of silence...
oklah! i got to go...
have a gud gud weekends!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:28 AM

Saturday, October 29, 2005
Luka Lama - Cokelat
kurintangkan hati
kubalut luka lama saat kau pergi
kutegarkan diri
walau bayangmu hadir di setiap mimpi
* oh haruskah
kubenamkan diri meratapi
tenggelam sesali yang terjadi
tersiksa bersama hampa asa
reff: kini kuhanya ingin lupakan semua
mengenangmu menyesakkan jiwa
kan kuhapus air mata
hingga kudapat sembuhkan luka
kucoba hadapi
walau pahit terasa tak terobati
harus kulewati
seakan semua tiada pernah terjadi
repeat *
repeat reff
semoga kelak lupakan semua
mengenangmu menyesakkan jiwa
kan kuhapus air mata
hingga kudapat sembuhkan luka
-------------------------------
Saat Jarak Memisahkan - Cokelat
malam yang kau menggelapiku
bukan dingin yg kan membekukanku
tapi dirimu di sana selalu saja berdusta
saat jarak memisahkan kita
haruskah sesali janji yg dulu
saat ku terpikat indah hadirmu
kini semua kau ingkari
hatiku kau lukai
tak percaya mudah saja kau lupakan kita
reff: dan kini kau temukan dia di sana
yg sanggup memberikan semua yg ku tak punya
semoga kau bahagia di dalam peluknya
semua pun tlah sirna, tlah sirna
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|11:32 AM

Tak Bisakah - Peter Pan (OST Alexandria)
hatiku bimbang namun tetap pikirkanmu
selalu selalu dalam hatiku
ku melangkah sejauh apapun itu
selalu engkau di dalam hatiku
ku berjalan berjalan memutar waktu
berharap temukan sisa hatimu
mengertilah ku ingin engkau begitu
mengerti kau di dalam hatiku
reff: tak bisakah kau menungguku
hingga nanti tetap menunggu
tak bisakah kau menuntunku
menemani jalan hidupku
ku berjalan berjalan memutar waktu
berharap temukan sisa hatimu
mengertilah ku ingin engkau begitu
mengerti kau di dalam hatiku
dara kau menjadi hidupku
kemana kau tahu isi hatiku
tunggu sejenak aku di situ
jalanku jalan menemukanmu
-----------------------------------------
Cinta - Melly Goeslaw feat. Krisdayanti
menapak jalan yg menjauh
tentukan arah yg ku mau
tempatkan aku pada satu peristiwa
yg membuat hati lara
di dekat engkau aku tenang
sendu matamu penuh tanya
misteri hidup akankah menghilang
dan bahagia di akhir cerita
reff: cinta, tegarkan hatiku
tak mau sesuatu merenggut engkau
naluriku berkata, tak ingin terulang lagi
kehilangan cinta, hati bagai raga tak bernyawa
aku junjung petuahmu
cintai dia yg mencintaiku
hatinya dulu berlayar, kini telah menepi
bukankah hidup kita akhirnya harus bahagia
di dekat engkau aku tenang
sendu matamu penuh tanya
misteri hidup akankah menghilang
dan bahagia di akhir cerita
repeat reff
cinta biar saja ada
yg terjadi biar saja terjadi
bagaimana pun hidup hanya cerita
cerita tentang yg meninggalkan
dan yg ditinggalkan
cinta
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|11:21 AM

aduh....im off..
next week i get my PH!
yeeehhhaaa...........
Hari raya on its way!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|10:31 AM

Takkan Melupakanmu - Radja
oh terindah, lagu yg terindah
sengaja aku cipta untukmu yg terindah
semoga dapat meluluhkan segala keraguan
semoga menghancurkan kerasnya batu prasangka
reff: aku takkan melupakanmu
takkan meninggalkanmu
takkan menduakan cintamu, ku bersumpah
aku tak ingin mengingkar janji
tak ingin menjadi duri
tak ingin menjadi api cinta yg membara
rebahlah kau di pelukku
lepaskan resahmu
bebaskan jiwamu
dari prasangka-prasangka burukmu
dari kerasnya batu curiga
repeat reff
senyuman melati
sambutlah mentari
raihlah cintamu
hari ini
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|9:09 AM

Friday, October 28, 2005
Wahai Kau Cinta - Radja
sebelum kau benar-benar pergi
ucapkan satu kata yg tulus
* bahwa kau mencintai
diriku sepenuh hatimu
dan aku merasakan
kau selalu di sini
reff: wahai kau cinta
sungguh tak ada yg bisa
mampu berpaling darimu
bila terlanjur sayang
wahai kau cinta
yg luluhkan hati ini
membuat segalanya indah
semua karena cinta
sebelum engkau pergi
ucapkan yg terindah
dari lubuk hatimu
repeat *
repeat reff [2x]
wahai kau cinta
membuat segalanya indah
semua karena cinta
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:04 PM

Thursday, October 27, 2005
"kalau kita selalu melihat keindahan alam,jiwa kita akan tenang.Bunyi ombak yang memukul pantai akan mendamaikan hati yang resah".Allah jadikan dunia bukan sebagai tempat pembalasan(pahala atau seksa),tetapi Allah menjadikan dunia sebagai tempat untuk membersihkan diri,tempat ujian dan cobaan.Peralihan dari satu waktu ke waktu adalah merupakan rangkaian cubaan hidup yang smbung menyambung.Lepas satu cubaan,datang lain cubaan.
Apa yang menimpa diri sesorang bukanlah terjadi secara kebetulan. Semua yang Sudah ditentukan takdirnya tidak mungkin salah atau meleset.Takdir allah Merupakan suatu ketentuan samda mnusia itu rela menerimanya dengan redha dan sabar ataupun dengan resah gelisah.
Orang yang berakal harus sabar dan rela agar tidak kehilangan pahala.
This werds i get from Novel..."cintamu di hati.."
dah pun seminggu nenek pergi meninggalkan kami sekeluarga.. hmm...
semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat! amin!!! Happy birthday irena.... All the best and god bless u!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:53 AM

Tuesday, October 25, 2005
hey! dah lama tak Story here.. been bz with werk and been bz this few days after the kenduri..ekekeke! then yesterday i went to JB,go larkin for a while then pi makan kat Kedai biasa yang kat lorong tuh..dengan mum,maksu and Angah..bought some magazines and kuih muih..mcm bisa..kuih tart,makmur and sum kerepek....aku kene tahan kt checkpoint jap..haha! pasal beg bunyi..then tat cisco ckp..5 cd jek leh bawak!tak penah seh aku kene..hehehe! watever ar....
yang penting aku selamat! and i bought CD RADJA!!!! Zulhuzaimy nak kawin???hiz..melepas aku..kakakaka!
erm... haiz... bosan ar! got to werk later! haiz...penat! besok ade kenduri lagik..hehe! okies ar..adios..
aslammualaikum!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:10 AM

Friday, October 21, 2005
pasal benda kecik....
pun nak gaduh...
Sehingga... airmata ku berguguran ke bumi..
kerana sedikit perkara saje..
boleh jadi begini..
tambahan...
dier abang darah daging aku....
haiz........
entah lah....
bukakanlah hatinyer ke arah kebaikan...
tuhanku.......
amin!
its the 2nd day....she gone..
hope u rest in peace...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|8:14 AM

Thursday, October 20, 2005
i didnt tell u..
i got a new experience..
i help...
to mandikan mayat nenek...
amin...
i learn from it...
the feeling of insaf is in my heart wen
i help to bath her..
sooner or later on...
my turn...
orang mandikan...
hish..........
bertemu tuhan....
its my first experience...
with kaklong...
duh...........
wangi sekali..
masa untuk bertemu allah..
ya allah.....
cucurilah rahmat nya...
semoga dosanya terampun..
Now.....
i hope to c my family reunited again...
hope we all will be together as happy family...
i caught tis wen jenazah nenek disembahyangkan...
1st-Sedekah..
2nd-ilmu
3rd-doa-doa org sekelilingnya...
ini adelah bekalan yang dapat membantu kite di akhirat atau setelah kite mati...
amin!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|4:15 AM

Rushing to hospital at night...
the clock shows...12 midnight..
and...kaklong reach and fetch us around 12.20am..
b4 that..auntie busu called 2 times
telling us that grandma is getting worse..
Breathless....
Later on....
wen inside the Lift..
again auntie busu called said...
"adik..kat mana?Nenek da takde nie adik...da nak takde..cepatlah.."
MUM,kaklong,angah and me getting anxious,
we cant say a word...
the lift open and we quickly run to look for auntie busu and Grandma..Busu Crying..
"mak dah takde ngah"...and... they cried....
and me??
im speechless.....
can say anything...
What cums out from my mouth...
Tuhan lebih menyayangi nenekku..
innalilahiwainnalillahirajiun...Amin....
I then...
CRIED....
i cant help it...
the Tears Suddenly drop from my eye just like that..
no reactions...
everyone silent...
only the Sound of people Crying...
.................And
MY GRaNDMa PaSSED AWaY ...
What?????
Grandma passed away....
NENEk Meninggal dunia....
Nenek PERGI meninggalkan kita semua...
oh god.....
how cud i face this reality???
living without grandma around me..
I LUV u GRANDMA...
Shes the only nenek left...
21 year old i met her....
during that particular time...
i saw her...
took care of her...
ever bath her...
washed all her dirt...
give her food..
feed her...
Disturb her...
fight with her...
learn from her...
help her in difficulties...
Arrrgghh..................
a lots...
nenek.................
wake up!!!!
we need u....
but then................
no matter how hard we
dont want her to go....
she will still go...
Nyawa terpisah dari badan...
MalaiKaT IZRAIL datang melakukan tugasnyer...
perintah ALLAH...
kepadanya...
Yang pasti....
Tuhan lebih menyayangi nenek...
Telah lama dier tersiksa...
Biarlah dier pergi.....
Pergi dari alam dunia
dan berhijrah ke alam Kubur..
Hanya aku mampu berdoa agar...
Roh nenek dicucuri rahmat...
ditempatkan dengan orang-orang yang beriman...
kita yang hidup harus meneruskan kehidupan ...
bersabar sajalah...
berdoa...
mungkin esok lusa....
hari kita....
kita pula akan pergi...
meninggalkan dunia yang penuh dengan mimpi...
cobaan..dugaan....segalanyer...
nenek....
u will always be in my heart....
forever...
12.58..she passed away....
she left us.....
leaving her 3 daughters...
4 Cucu...
4 cicit...
1 menantu...
dier da selamat dikebumikan....
yeah....
hahahhahaha........
ape aku merepek nie.....
ya allah...
amin!!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:44 AM

Wednesday, October 19, 2005
Read diyanah's Blog and try this from a website....
Norhayati
Idealistic, sensitive and emotional you appreciate beauty and need to have a harmonious environment. You are a dependable and conscientious worker and attract material rewards without too much effort. However your altruistic nature is one of giving and service to others with a desire to make the world a better place and you work towards this end. Your affectionate, sincere and understanding manner means that you are much loved.
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:50 PM

Tuesday, October 18, 2005
UTOPIa-Antara ada dan Tiada..
Setiap ku melihatmu
Ku terasa di hati
Kau punya segalanya
Yang aku impikan
Dan anganku tak henti
Bersajak tentang bayangmu
Walau kutahu
Kau tak pernah anggapku ada
Ku tak bisa menggapaimu
Takkan pernah bisa
Walau sudah letih
Aku tak mungkin lepas lagi
Kau hanya mimpi bagiku
Tak untuk jadi nyata
Dan sgala rasa buatmu
Harus padam dan berakhir
Kan selalu
Ku rasa hadirmu
Antara ada dan tiada
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:31 PM

yesterday,i suppose to met Firah,ina and mar...but then.we have to cancelled it coz ina and me cant make it.we have to postponed it lor..my grandma is sick..haiz...tapi sempat ajak mak kejap pegi geylang tgk ape jual..eerrrr.......boring seh! haiz...i dun like lar...baju pun errr... tk glamour pun..hehezzz.. too many kentalanz! and its raining the whole day yesterday!best!
ape tandenyer kalo kite mimpi kitenyer gigi patah?sumone in our family gonna passed away thats what i noe.
now... my dad is having fever and Running nose..dad seldom sick.. pity him,all becos he caught himself in the rain yesterday on his way back home from visiting grandma.hope u get well soon dad,better take off tomorow.haiz...
lagi-lagi pasal angah?same,no changes in him..what shud i do? berbuih mulut crite pasal angah nie..kesian mak dan ayah.along? s usual,sumone who never care for us...wheres the touch of being a brother for me and angah..we dont get ur luv at all.i wish one day i cud help to get my family reunited again i want all of us to be together...help each other,care for each other and luv each other more then everything.no hard feelings... along angah and me...kite 3 beradik walau ape pun terjadi,kite tetap bersatu dan kite bertiga dari darah daging yang sama.okies????? god plz help us......
Ya tuhan,ampunkanlah dosanya.jauhilah segala keperitan dalam hidupnyer,jangan lah kau siksa dier lagi ya allah..kau maha berkuasa...ambillah nyawanya sekiranya kau sayangi dier,jgn kau bebankan dirinya dgn seksaan yang makin menebal...only u can help...
insyallah...amin!
how is he now yeah?hope his fine with his new world..i noe hes not for me...hes luv is not for me and hes heart is never mend to be mine..i forgive u long time ago..semoga cinta yang pernah aku tanamkan dihati aku ini bersemadi dan terus dijadikan kenangan dalam kehidupanku ini... be good, hope u will be a better person..
i dream of Nazri,mahmud and my frens from ite..mahmud i with me all the way...i missed him. in that dream,nazri eyes hurt..i called people to came down and wait for nazri..our clasmates..hmm...
one of them is mahmud..and shud i tell u,mahmud is my first crush in ite..hahahaha..then goes to the others lor...like automotive guys..amin,bla bla bla...but then,mahmud,u are sum1 special in heart..hahaha.what im talking about???any fren who read this,just ignore it,coz,it happen in the year 2002..wen i first saw mamhud in class...hes nice guy,joker and well..hes a gud fren! but.......... nobody can challenge the luv i give towards that Teban guy.. hes too special that time for me..but then,hes in the past...i've let him go willingly and im happy now.hope u still remember me yar boy?
y im bringing up the past?haha...coz the past have too many memories to be kept..too many sweet moments,and too many things to learn... missed my school times,but now??im werking and its different from school...but werk is better coz,we get money..hahaha! aku nie,duit jer..oklh,i wanna watch cinta madinah...while listening to jujur from radja!blog later..
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:13 PM

Monday, October 17, 2005
Grandma is Sick..Weak..totally weak and no hope...
In life,we must accept fate..get ready and be mentally prepared for all thing that could happen suddenly.Be strong,Remember that,everything happen for a reasons..haiz...
i said this coz theres people who cant accept it.Ketentuan Allah..
Semua manusia akan mati..Nabi pun mati..tiada apa yang akan kekal di dunia ini melainkan Allah....kerana allah melihat,mendengar,penentu, dan dialah segalanyer...kita harus redha dan serahkan pada tuhan semuanya.
Ya allah,Jika kau mau ambil nyawanya ambillah...aku tak mampu melihatnya tersiksa lagi menanggung kesakitan.perit rasanya menaggung derita itu.haiz..tahlah...sudah bertahun lamanya dia menderita...
yesterday whole day wen to hospital with mum,kaklong,maklong and makbusu with their kids...nenek is getting worse..no more things can cure...although u put her at ICU,nothings gona help.. shes too old...
her heart is very weak and she dont know anything.its so serious already...her body is full of water..hanya tuhan yang maha mengetahui nya...
even.......
after this thing happen..
people... still dont Think..
still wanna fight within each other...
haiz....
takde kata sepakat...
takde persetujuan...
ape nie????
da tentu dia sudah tiada harapan...
bawa pulang ajer lah....
tapi dier taknak...
mati-mati nak baikkan kat hospital...
padahal kat hospital...
sudah tiada obat..
wallahualam...
haiz....
ntah.....
i dont want becos of this....
everyone fights....
bulan ramadan nie...
haiyoo..............
biarlah dier pergi dengan aman...
kesian aku tengok dier...
yang ku nie...sampai
mimpi gigi aku patah...
hish.....
ya allah...
amin!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:33 AM

Saturday, October 15, 2005
At last people..
finally...the weekend im waiting is here...
and.............
its FRIDaY!!!!
yaaabeedaaabbeedddoooo............
gona enjoy my Off days fully!
with fun,full of enjoyment!
hahahahah...........
great....
im gona blog later again!
happy weekend....
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|9:14 AM

Thursday, October 13, 2005
i was supposed to tag this last week...
but then,as usual no time mah...
dee tag me so i have to do..
at least for a while..
~(7 things that will scare me)~
1-God(ALLAH)
2-Losing sum1 I love
3-Alone in the dark at night but in the Forest
4-Kiamat... hahaa... it already happen in other countries.
kiamat kecil people say... im not prepared for kiamat coz i
have a lot of sins...hahaha!
5-Facing difficulties..
6-Orang jahat..Perogol,pembunuh,perompak...
7-Sins.. Dosa aku dlm dunia yang tak terbayar..
~(7 things that i like the most)~
1-Myself
2-Nature like mountains,forests,hills,air terjun,snow,moon,sun,
stars,beaches...
3-Shopping,Travel,relek2..
4-Music...
5-my job
6-Fashion,accesories,makeups,makeovers...(im eager bout those,
but im not dressing up so nicely like what i like most!)
7-Coffee(addicted..,coffee drinker) and yeah,can i add nbr 8??
hha..anyhow only u nur!what huh??? babies...i luv!
~(7 most important things in my room)~
1-Computer(first thing to on when i reach home)
2-Radio(Music pleassee....)
3-My bed,bantal,blankets...
4-mirror...
5-Television
6-Fan (its hot)
7-my things...eg,books,magazines,accesories,perfume,shirts,T-shirts
~(7 random facts about me!)~
1-people say i look like 17 but then..im 21..
2-baby powder is must,after bath and when going out..!
3-like to think badly,no enuff confidence on myself..
4-i used to take things to hard,keep it in my heart,ay it out
with full of anger with sum1 close to me,.. think and think
and think,talk alone then angry trus i keep quiet and then i will
say,its ok,never mind!Not my day...hahaha
5-Werk hard at werk,at home Lazy,.hahaha,actully,im too tired!
6-i can mix with any kind of person doesnt matter! and i hve
no grudges againt people.
7-i will cry easily when i see sumthing around or even when
watching movie,tvs,pity one and im very concern bout Those
orang yang dalam kesusahan,kesakitan yang kematian dalam
bencana alam....i feel like helping them and donate what i have so
that they wont suffer..
~(7 things i planned to do b4 i die!)~
1-Go mekkah for umrah or haji..(the peaceful place of all)
2-Get married and have kids..hahaha! to??? dunnoo........
3-to know bout My religion well and epecially Khatam al-Quran ...
4-to open up my own shop..sell what??Kopi can? hehee(business)
5-Travel the whole world with my luv ones...
6-Be a succesful career woman..achieve my goals
and get a diploma in The course i like,hotel? and werk
at hotel maybe,be a manager??get license car and bike,make my own
novels how i wish...hope it cums true!
7-i always wanted to have a happy family since im young..
i want to make sure i Did have a very happy family one day.
~(7 things i can do!)~
1-Can draw and designs,write poems,novels...im into Seni!
2-ACTING......
3-Make gud coffee..
4-achieve what i want....
5-advice people with my own words..haha!
6-during my trip to perak 2003...i learn that everione can
climb high up, do sporty things,walk without a light in the forest
at night.be more confidence,fat or thin doesnt matter....
7-.......................Buat bodoh...haha
~(7 things i can't do!)~
1-Duduk diam...sure must do sumthing.
2-shout loud2...my natural one,cant shout like those Cheerleaders.
3-keep quiet...
4-i cant swim..cant ride bicyle...but a bit ar...
5-sing..
6-reach the sky above....
7-entah eh?? i tink all can do with confidence and mau berani
jer..hahaha!
~(7 words i say most!)~
1-ya Allah
2-Jangan merepek ar..
3-gila eh??
4-what siah??(ape Sey?)
5-ah ah lah...
6-ok
7-whatever....
~(7 celebrity crush)~
1-aduh...Fauzi baadila...(indon actor in Tentang dia and Mengejar
matahari...)
2-Fedi nuril (indon actor in mengejar matahari,inikah rasanya
cinta,janji joni.
3-zulhilmy marzuki (atas nama cinta actor)
4-i like the actor Nasir bilal khan...like real siah he act!
5-rosyam nor??
6-taufik batisah dgn syed azmir eh??
7-mat saleh actor ar tak tau nama dorg ape seh..too many!but Soccer player mcm Maldini,Inzaghi,singer Greenday...weeehhheeee..tk tercatit..
~(7 peeps i love to see them doing this!)~
1-Irena..
2-Zafirah..
3-abby
4-7 siape2 boleh??????
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:28 PM

Tuesday, October 11, 2005
im tired...too tired! my leg was in pain..duh! too long standing maybe..haiz... tis is life! tis week everyday 6am.im waiting for weekend..i get off on both saturday and sunday.Sunday going to mit mar,ina and firah for buka.hmmm....... penatnye!!! and tomorow,im suppose to be at high road with las,zahid,ana...the ask me out 4 buka.but then..im too tired..if i can make it,i will go..if not too bad,im sorry geng.hmmm....... i wanna sleep for a while,relex myself.. got to go...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|8:17 AM

Monday, October 10, 2005
Jangan membeda-bedakan pekerjaan mana yang baik dan mana yang buruk. Masalah muncul jika kita membeda-bedakan dan memihak sesuatu.
Orang yang tidak bisa memaafkan orang lain sama saja dengan orang yang memutuskan jembatan yang harus dilaluinya, karena semua orang perlu di maafkan.
Anda cuma bisa hidup sekali saja didunia ini, tetapi jika anda hidup dengan benar, sekali saja sudah cukup.
Kehormatan manusia adalah pengetahuannya. Orang-orang bijak adalah suluh yang menerangi jalan setapak kebenaran. Di dalam pengetahuan terletak kesempatan manusia untuk keabadian. Sementara manusia bisa mati,kebijakan hidup abadi.
Kedamaian tak terdapat di dunia luar, melainkan terdapat dalam jiwa manusia itu sendiri.
Hati anda belum hidup kalau belum pernah mengalami rasa sakit. Rasa sakit karena cinta akan membuka hati, bahkan bila hati itu sekeras batu.
Pahlawan bukanlah orang yang berani menetakkan pedangnya ke pundak lawan, tetapi pahlawan sebenarnya ialah orang yang sanggup menguasai dirinya dikala ia marah-nabi muhammad..
Kebanyakan dari kita tidak mensyukuri apa yang sudah kita miliki, tetapi kita selalu menyesali apa yang belum kita capai.
Kebanggaan kita yang terbesar adalah bukan tidak pernah gagal, tetapi bangkit kembali setiap kali kita jatuh.
Jadilah kamu manusia yang pada kelahiranmu semua orang tertawa bahagia, tetapi hanya kamu sendiri yang menangis; dan pada kematianmu semua orang menangis sedih, tetapi hanya kamu sendiri yang tersenyum. - Mahatma Gandhi
Hiduplah seperti pohon kayu yang lebat buahnya; hidup di tepi jalan dan dilempari orang dengan batu, tetapi dibalas dengan buah.
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:51 AM

Cokelat-Karma
Sekian lama kita bersama
Ternyata kau juga sama... saja...
Kau kita kupercaya semua
S'gala tipu daya oh... percuma...
Kau buat sempurna... awalnya
Berakhir bencana...
S'lamat tinggal sayang
Bila umurku panjang kelak ku kan datang tuk buktikan
Satu balas kan kau jelang
Jangan menangis sayang
Kuingin kau rasakan pahitnya terbuang sia... sia
Memang kau pantas dapatkan
Akhirnya... usai sudah semua
Ku dapat tertawa ba...ha...gi...a...
S'lalu tampak indah... awalnya
Berakhir bencana...
Kau buat sempurna... awalnya
Berakhir bencana...
S'lamat tinggal sayang
Bila umurku panjang kelak ku kan datang tuk buktikan
Satu balas kan kau jelang
Jangan menangis sayang
Kuingin kau rasakan pahitnya terbuang sia... sia
Memang kau pantas dapatkan
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:37 AM

Hey!im off today..get 1 day off only.its been a tiring week too.been standing and standing,waking up early and now,im in pain..aduh! got no time to find 2nd job too.Raya is coming and i will be bz with werk too...ermm...how eh? Adek ask me to take unpaid leave becos its raya mah..of coz i want to take.but dunno yet which day lor.unpaid leave means no pay for that day.!it oklor..better...lets plan later.then,yesterday pun genap 2 bulan aku keje spinelli!alhamdulilah...cume,gabriel nie eh..name je store in charge a lot never do..then khai?forever with the gerls...haiz!both of them slack..manager post sumore!watevalah.....
yesterday night chat with mardiana..she also very bz now with werk.policewoman! i hate police but shes my fren,i wont hate her for that..my gud news...my brother man is back 2 days ago..alhamdulilah!
nothing happens too him! all the idiots got no prove he steals! serve u right! brother..plz take care yeah?i guess,i have save u! ermm..... i noe u didnt do it.if they get the prove,he will be there for 7 years in jail with 24 canes! oh no,this i not done by him! my dier dituduh! kesian angah ku....my brother omar?never visit us yet...its the 5th ramadan and he????? weelll....its ok! setakat visit ayah kat hospital buat apekan? uurgghhhh.........
u noe ismail din,the anak mami movie star as the father always.. he died at Mekah wen doing terawih and tasbih..out of a sudden..he died... ouh! so sad...but then,the way he died is so damn gud. i mean,seldom people died like him and i guess,hati dier suci bersih murni sekali.dier dikebumikan di sane juga.semoga tuhan mencucuri rahmatnya...amin! ajal,maut,jodoh pertemuan di tangan tuhan...
so today?what im gona do???im gona blog,and then....go settle my memory card..ahaha! btw that day im not meeting my JIBP fren coz they cancel it and wan jatuh sakit pulak!si aidil kene reservist..time bulan puase eh??hahaha... tkpelah...nanti tis week or next week still ader time jumpe. oh yeah,luper pulak...tis cuming tuesday maybe meeting my ite frens and on the 16 meeting mar,ina and firah..hopefully the day will cum..haha.ape je aku merepek nie...oklah..wanna blog kejap,siap2,
watch tv then go out and settle my things! calo....bubbyee! selamat berpuasa!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:02 AM

Sunday, October 09, 2005
Radja-JUJUR
Duhai kekasih pujaan hatiku
Apakah kau memberiku satu arti
Sedikit rasa yang bisa kumengerti
Bukan sumpah atau janji
Buktikanlah bila ada cinta
Setulus hatimu bisa menerima
Sebatas kejujuran yang kau miliki
Bukan sekedar bersama
Jujurlah padaku bila kau tak lagi cinta
Tinggalkan aku
Bila tak mungkin bersama
Jauhi diriku lupakanlah aku
O... Ho... O... Ho...
Jujurlah padaku bila kau tak lagi cinta
Tinggalkan aku
Bila tak mungkin bersama
Jauhi diriku lupakanlah aku
Selamanya
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:33 PM

Padi-menanti sebuah jawapan...*ungu violet*
Aku tak bisa luluhkan hatimu
Dan aku tak bisa menyentuh cintamu
seiring jejak kakiku bergetar
Aku tak terpagut oleh cintamu
Menelusup hariku dengan harapan
Namun kau masih terdiam membisu
Sepenuhnya aku ingin memelukmu
Mendekap penuh harapan tuk mencintaimu
Setulusnya aku akan terus menunggu
Menanti sebuah jawaban tuk memilikimu
Betapa pilunya rindu menusuk jiwaku
Semoga kau tau isi hatiku
Dan seiring waktu yg terus berputar
Aku masih terhanyut dalam mimpiku
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|8:39 AM

Saturday, October 08, 2005
Tentang dia-melly
Sehitam langit diangkasa
Yang mendung memurungkan bumi
Takutku ke masa yang lalu
Menorehkan luka dalam hati
Kekasih yakini cintaku
Disinilah cintaku berlabuh
Perjalanan mencari jawaban
Berakhir karam dihatimu
Cerita cinta anak remaja
Menggauli kidung kasih
Punahkah takut dihati
Terkutuklah bila kita berpisah
Slamanya harus bersama
Buktikan kita bahagia
Tentang dia tak perlu kau risau
Lagu cinta hanya untuk kita
Dan kini tidur ku tersenyu
Oh gadis aku cinta padanya
Tentang dia jangan pernah terlupa
Biar menjadi cerita
Di balik cerita kita
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|10:45 AM

Friday, October 07, 2005
I still rememeber... this phrase..
"nampaknya,mak dan ayah menanggung biawak hidup lah.Man tak kerja."
well,u called him that,he is still ur brother.We 3 have the same blood.bare that,whatever happens,we still need each other.pity my mum!and dad..but then,dad dont bother us since young.haiz haaiz...but i noe,he luv us!
Angah,whatever happen to you,i will always be there.im always here to accept u for who u are,u are my brother..i luv u!!!That police,if i got the lisence to kill,i killed u first! so rude!!!! watever!u wont leave in peace u noe!Attitude policeman!
i havent got the time to do it yetlah Gerl..dee!!!later or tomorow maybe!i'll do it! okies... today i got back at 12 and it was such tiring day for me!Furthermore,morning is so tired! 3 person till 10.30 werking only.Lucky vivian my senior manager came down to help out.duuuhh.....the best part..12 i got back..she ask me too...hehehe!
Then stay home,doing nothing!penat jugak...and time flies so fast juz like that.haizz...Boring eh??? 2nd ramadan over and going to the 3rd one...insyallah! maybe meeting the JIBP staff tomorow.not sure yet..hopefully we met...hehe,i miz them sey! ape nk buat skrg eh?? tengok tv ar kay??TV.... waiting for the terawih live at mekah on tv1..wehehhe! i like!
ngantukner....
aduh.....penat giler nie....
penat.....
puasa lagik...
cobaan...
dugaan...
oklah....
Waiting for Tomorow,its Friday!!!
yeah....
hear what i said?
its Finally Friday!!!!!
my favourite day of the week!
Sunday off...
yahhooo...........
i got to go..bubyye! assalammualaikum!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:18 PM

Thursday, October 06, 2005
Thanks dee for tagging my blog and ask me to do that ..! wait i do..hehehe.... i've not been reading ur blog for so long time.even..my other frens too..no time siah!i never even update my blog everyday.haha!i got many stories but then..sumtimes too tired to type and i juz let it over juz like that. well....1st ramadan is over,yeah! 29 more days to go i guess.. Bazar sane sini,Geylang maseh ader,kate last year akhir,tapi tahun nie ade lagik??? what the........... ~ Phew... ~
Tomorow werk morning!yeah...suppose to get back at 12pm but becos KaDEK mum sick at bali and becos of the Bali bom insiden,there is still no flight to Sg or bali i guess...hmm! well,kadek,get back here to singpore soon,im supposed to get off next week for 2 Days!!!!
and becoz Spinelli got not enuff staff,i have to help u all out.mane adil!!!! pegik ar cari Staff tol tak???haiz!!! Tadi Feilian Kol me from IBP(strategy).Dier kol nak ajak kuar this Friday! she said the rest is turning up too.yeah,bestnyer..im looking forward for this gathering! heezzz.......
reading Dee Blog.. i came across this,Celebrity?
hmmm........ my favourite Celebrity is....
Fauzi baadilah From indonesia,he acts in Mengejar matahari Movie.
hes so Macho!hansem..kacak sekacak kacaknyer....waduh!waduh! abang fauzi ku!Kamu ganteng banget.... Next,Fedi nuril...tall hansem cute man...asyik sekali kamu! aduh....boleh pacaran pak? waKkakaka,and next is....hmm... Malaysia guy,Zulhilmi marzuki! ish,u very gentle...seing his face makes me Tenang sajer... wah..... i like u man! next...not sure...too many guys ar!hahah...
Weiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i want to tell the world Sumthing! Police especially! if u wanna caught sumone,,plz Show who the person is! and PROVE!!! i Need prove! Fuck u all are.... i hate u those people who suspects and Caught people without any PROVE...plz bare that in ur mind! it makes me hate police more....i really hate u police.... arggghhh.............
Brother.... watever it is,i will still be by ur side!
Allah is always here 4 u! tegakkan kebenaran...
hanya allah yang ,melindungi kita dari segala syaitan dan iblis dan manusia yang durjana! Allah,selamatkanlah abangku! kau saja yang maha mengetahui segalanyer...jika benar dier tak salah..kau lepaskanlah dier ya tuhan!amin!!!!! dan kemudian.... kau lindungilah dier,agar dier kembali ke pangkal jalan! first ramadan is the day,hope god help him and my parents!plz....................
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:00 AM

Wednesday, October 05, 2005
Its RAMADAN!! YEAH!!insyallah..aku sedang menjalani ibadat puasa... im so happy when ramadan comes...the month where we can seek forgiveness...unlimited...heheh! its never ending...just that tis month i better than the other 11 month! malam Lailatul Qadar is the day we waiting 4..dosa 1000 tahun/bulan terampun jika kita beribadat.
i bought scarf just now...at the aRCaDE.Nice.. hehe!Brown.white and black..mcm tudung wardina yang biasa tuh! hmm.... cheap2! keje oklh..cume kene banyak bersabar dan releks... jangan terlalu ambil hati..selagi boleh tahan,tahan aje! ermm.... im watching SCTV now,ade crite pagi2,best! oklah.. puasa sudah start...semoga puasaku diberkati tuhan!amin!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|8:43 PM

Tuesday, October 04, 2005
i think.its time for me to change to be a better lady.Im gona be a better muslimah in this life of mine.No matter what people say... im still with my decision.Only god noes it.i pray to god to get the light of my life.and i noe..theres always a room for improvement!its time 4 me to change...i have to.... lets make it at 1st ramadan... this year! im 21... weehhheee
Aku puasa bayar hari ini dan esok.insyaallah..aku akan terus puasa. well,i really luv the cuming of the Ramadan! where i can seek forgiveness from god..i hope so... god plz forgive me.i want to be always be with u by my side.hmmm..................
im werking 3 days afternun and 3 day morn!... watson?im gon try thi cuming thursday.oklor.... i wanna watch tv... gila gila pengantin popular... just bought from Wdls! and yeah...me and high heals from indonesia movie i learn new thing...we dun have to be pretty and change for sum1 in order to catch that person heart...we are who we are now...people shud have luv and want us for who we are... they accept us for who we are too..well, i hope i will get that kind of person... hehe! gud luck nur... i luv myself..more then everything!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:08 PM

ikut Naluri hati...
Sedikit masa dahulu.... aku pernah menyerahkan cinta sejati pada insan yang kusayangi ikhlas dari hati yang suci murni tanpa pernah jemu.Kuserahkan cinta,ku serahkan hati,kuserahkan segalanya padanya!
Namun,aku tak pernah kecewa dalam perjalanan hidup mengenal erti cintaku padamu.perasaan itu datang dari naluri dalam hati....
namun,sayang sekali,perasaanku ini tidak diketahuimu.. Kutanamkan namamu dihatiku hingga ke saat ini..kini,setelah segalanya kuserahkan,aku hanya seperti bunga yang layu di taman.Tiada yang ingin pandang,tiada yang ingin bau,tiada yang ingin pegang malah tiada yang ingin mendekati..aku hanya bertepuk sebelah tangan... menunggu si kumbang datang bertandang.namun,kumbang itu telah pergi hinggap di bunga yang mekar jauh di taman ku ini.Kumbang itu bahagia disamping bunga yang mekar lalu hinggap terus dihati kumbang itu.
Aku yang kelayuan ini,tak pernah dihinggapi lagi... dia pergi jauh,jauh dari hidupku ini.aku hanya menanti saat2 aku mati...
oh kumbang....aku ingin kau tahu..betapa pedihnya rasa hati ku ini...
Pedih sekali dan tak akan bisa dihinggapi kumbang yang lain walau betapa lekatnya kumbang itu di bunga yang layu ini.Memang benar orang kata,cinta itu perlukan pengorbann...aku telah banyak berkorban demi cinta ku pada si dia.hingga kini..kumbang itu hidup bahagia tanpa mengingati aku dalam hidupnya sedikit masa lalu.
Aku ikut naluri hati ini...perasaan dan hati tak boleh dipermainkan...aku ingin kau tahu kumbang....Cinta pertama aku adalah kamu! kerana telah kuserahkan jiwa ragaku padamu...aku kini tahu...kumbang itu hanya mempergunakan aku buat kepentingan hawa nafsunya sendiri untuk hidup.Aku telah berkorban... meninggalkan kumbang di taman dgn bunga yang lebih layak bertahta di hatinya.
Aku telah pergi jauh.... aku tahu.cinta tak perlu dipaksa.. tapi ingatlah wahai kumbang,bunga yang kau hinggapi sekrg ini akan layu juga sepertiku suatu masa nanti... kini aku telah ditanam dgn baja-baja yang subur....dihidupkan semula hatiku ini menjadi mekar kembali ditaman... selamat tinggal sayang!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:00 PM

Monday, October 03, 2005
continue my updates of yesterday........
I bought a Blazer or wat i called Jacket From ZARA Great world yesterday..And the place i mean the Werkplace,Spinelli is clean and tidy siah! wow! gud,great! i like! hahah...just some iritating kids round that i cant stand the noise...u noe,i dont like kid who r between 2-8..haha! irritating! oh yeah.... irena kol me and we went to Town for a walk and then we Go eat at burger king Far east.Sumthing caught our eye,tis guy,not bd looking mcm orng iran was alone...outside BK smoking area,mybe waiting for sumone or...dunno lah..few minutes after that...tis FAT ldy..fatter then me of coz, wearing mini pink skirt with A tube..duh!!!!!im wandering how she get to buy the strapless bra man! haha... this gerl must be his GF! oh no!! wat else,if he touch the gerl Ass... body...wahhhhaaha.... well, dunno what attract him yeah... Maybe this is what people use to say.. luv is blind...haha! is it blind?maybe ar.,. i also not sure...where got time for luv now...u c!
im off and yeah..... finally! then,early morning went to fetch mum at redhill take baju raya yang she tempah.then..went back home teru relek kejap...bckan buku cerita HaRGA diRI sampai abes trus pegi library at SUN PLAZA,pinjam sum book...after that,go home and went yishun pulak...with mum! erk.... i go so many place today.. and its tiring man! dmn it..i got to werk tomorow..and yeah.. i dun go to Pizza hut..wakakka! yati oh yati....pe nak jadi... haiz... Boring ar life..keje keje keje! oklah... aku nk tgk tv..bubyyee!!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:50 PM

Sunday, October 02, 2005
Hey! its OCTOBER NOW!!!!wow...so fast ryte? 3 mth left and thats it..final of 2005..haha! i've not been updating my blog regularly coz im so bz with werk and im too tired to update.And now it 2.45am and im still yet awake.I sleep earlier mah.I werk at great world city today and it quite fun there.the place i clean and tidy...The manager and supervisors also ok lah...Get to know another manager Diana.Shes a mix of indian muslim and chinese!wow! that great... jodoh manusia nie mcm2 eh?mcm aku? jodoh dgn saper? ...........
Oh yeah..yesterday,while doing barista,Erna came to visit me for just a while.She so SEXY.Wering sleeveless....then,Macam minah! she werking at HsBC now a customer service representatives.how she manage the job..i dont know ar..wondering how she got it.
Then...lunch time,tis minah tudung came and buy drink..yang but ku terperanjat,i was so shocked wen she SMOKE.She went to smokin area and she smoke with her tudung on her..Duh! i dont know what to say already now....im just Shocked..erk........what happen to this world???Tis is what i know...too much trouble in this world... no one can handle unless god...
One question...later?shud i go or not to werk at Pizza???im tired...but money??? erk... i need money for raya. hmm.......c how lah kay? only god knoe what happen later on...help me god... i need u... i want to sleep back..happy birthday Hafiz,dewi...u're 23! bye!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:52 PM