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Wednesday, August 31, 2005

hey nur!! wake up and be more confident kay? my fren ay.. i have to learn to stop Whining."dont say u dont have confident coz you may become what u say,if you say it many times and eventually you become what you think u are" hehehhee..okies!!!Gud job yati!! be brave!

Just now,i saw Vivian(Senior manager),sama jenis dengan siuling lor..wakaka! but shes quite a nice person and very happy go lucky.
can c that... and im sure she's from Change Alley before..in Spnelli,i can c theres so many managers in training.hmmm..... well, all the best to them...hope they dont be like those people who can only be called a managers but dont know how to manage! betul tak??? hehehehee.... hope i can start from below and yeah im gona look for a part time job soon...in order to get extra income. hope i can help my parents and myself...in the near future..hehe!i saw Jovi also, Spinelli's Operation manager...he's also quite friendly guy... hmm! wah..so young becum operation manager...spinelli got many young people huh??? well, i guess, im permanent at Change alley!NVm... i can make it want.. i noe i can..just be myself kay!
tomorow my pay day..yeah!!! hehehe..gud luck yati! insyallah! and tomorow.... werking time is.... 6-12.30!! wakakaka! Cheers!

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|9:14 AM

Tuesday, August 30, 2005

Hearing im going change alley and gonna be the permanent staff there is a bit sad.haiz!! u noe why??? beco..i can c the plce i a bit boring and not like JIBP.. hmm..the staff all keep quiet and like stres.huh??? well... like i said... im there to werk and to earn money for my own... not becos of others. hahahahahaha........

well....maybe tis week will be a tiring week... then im werking all morning.ok lah..but.................!!!!!
Tis saturday! im gona werk at......... HeereeN!!! i dont like!!! argghh.....now i noe the reason y i go Change alley! well,i hope its not my permanent outlet...lets c... arrggghh! tomorow 8-3... haiz..tired2! wish me gud luck kay???Gud bye!!!

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:08 PM

Monday, August 29, 2005

Nabil(mentor Nora) get 2nd place with $10000 and a scooter,while Pija(mentor Zainal abidin) get 1st place get Proton car and $20000 and also a trip to LA!u noe Mawi(AF3)winner get more than them... phuuyyoo! well,it just Pertandingan.Not more then that..haiz!!!

U noe sumthing???My fren i did told u b4 whoe in luv with an indian man??She's my close fren too in ITE..she still contact that man.Still in luv with that man...argghh...sis!!!! plz try to Forget him sis...i noe u can,but her case nie to complicated already.Berat ar...at least mine there's a solutiuon.depend on me to 4get and i did! well,i hope u forget him....Nisa having dinner with Her Bf at harbourfront cable car.wah!!! celebrating birthday! well,all the best to u people! yeterday nite,"he" msg me...just a simple msg.. "Gd nite.." hahaha! look..... he still remember me heh?? tats gud.. but i dont reply. im not stupid kay?im not stupid....life goes on..im happy with my life and ur happy with urs... just hope one day we met again in heaven! hehehehe...ape saje aku nie!

dahlah.... i wanna slip...do u tink hafiz is gud guy?? well,can we trust a fren???all i can say...i dont trust gUYs like b4.. once is enuff! i need to slip...Change alley..here i cum! gd nite!

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:28 PM

Sunday, August 28, 2005

helo!When to wdls checkpoint and sheng siong just now in the afternoon.Bought some food and some Can drink for my family and myself.Also go download some song from mp3 and games that RURU (the lady i bought 3230 from)wanted to do for me.Nx week most probably tuesday or Wednesday im gona get my pay! woohoo....i guess..just around $500 or $600 only coz they do cut $100 for my uniforms and im under probation still.Well,all the best to u yati kay??im developing confidence on myself rite now!i really need to have confidence in myself! im targetting at least or minimum 6 mths for me to go up ahead to a higher level as a supervisor at Spinelli.do u tink i can make it??? well,tis all depends...ll depend on my heart work.Tis is my interest so y not TRY!!!!! mAximum to be supervisor is 1yr+..IF STILL NO, i mybe continue as full time and then.. im going to study and achieve my dreams and goals for a coz in Hotel Management that i always wanted to be in.I really want to werk in the hotel line in front office maybe or restaurants.i hope so i can.. erm... well,i will try my very best as possible.the Roasting plant class had been postpone coz the people are bz...

Now,my mind i thinking of CHANGE ALLEY...erm,how huh?? confirm bz ryte??but yati...i tot u love Espresso machine so much??? yeah.. i do but then,i need to buck up!Change alley customers must be very fussy and action.hahahha.... after 2 weeks,again im gona wait for my permanent outlet,hope it gona be at the office area outlets.. but not like orchard(heereen or Forum,Peninsula,Great world city,Sph..this kind of places!!!i dont wish to go...hahahaha! all the best yati!!! gud luck...

Quote of the day...
"NuR is the light of my Life"....
Nur is Cahaya..a light!

now,i gues,im gona mix more people and gona be more friendly with people all around me...be more open minded too.i wanted to mit up my guy frens like Hafiz(polis Ns),Yuz(CCK) and Faizal(guards).. heezz..
they are my frens... so y not mit them fren too...dont have to wory yati...be urself! u are who u are... Cheerrss...........!!!

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|12:22 PM

You Have Incredible Powers
That Can Change Your Life!

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The only reason why you're not getting the most out of life is because you don't know how to master your subconscious mind.
"Give a man a fish and you can feed him for a day. TEACH him to fish and you feed him for life!"
When you have success you have passion - when these two elements are in place you'll continue to fuel your success and eliminate obstacles.

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|11:16 AM

Saturday, August 27, 2005

hye hey hye!!!It was my last day at IBP(international Business park).
Then im gona go C.A(change alley).maybe for 2 weeks...erm! i'll be very the buzy and stress! oh yar..monday werking 12-8.30.aduh!!! closing lor!i nd adil wait for hafiz to finish werk till 8 just now..then we go chill at Jurong entertainment centre..the boring place!we go kfc and we talk2 about werk and life...fun ar,but there's no wan and Feilian my other two colleagues.tu yang tak gerek sangat.although i noe them less then 3 weeks..im close to them...C how spinelli make us close in just 3 weeks... Alhamdulilah... but they r just normal frens..mixing with other give u more experience and more better.Hafiz kenal Sharul lagik...same skul at hong kah sec.
never mind...adil and hafiz pun suruh aku lupekan dier..wehehhe! tanks people..im ok now...next week..i guess we miting up gin for chill,talk bout werk but depend on schedule too.miz u all frens!

i will mis...Gusseppi!!!! hehehhee..... tall hansem guy from italy!
people... life is short,fill it up with the best out of ur life... k??? i got to go sleep... bubyyeee!!!

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:19 PM

Friday, August 26, 2005

yesterday was my unlucky day...i finish werk at 8pm.my day was ok, orites!but then....at the nyte...around 8.39...everything spoilt! its a bad nite..i took the bus 99 and then the bus driver caught me using the CHILD farecard.its Danish one..kaklong son punye.she bought for me so i can save the trip to werk and go anywhere with half price.haiz!! too bad..its not my day.he confiscated it.. hell man! ask my werk partner whether he got extra money,no he didnt! wait at his bus stop also nobody home,so he dont have money too.he went home and he can only give me 30cents! how to go back with $2.30?? haiyoo! argghh.... admiralty?need extra money too.That bus 99 driver really bad! never mind..its ok...

today as usual werk but today is morning shift...my 2nd last day at IBP(international Business park)-THE STRATEGY.well..im gona missed Gusseppi,the italian guy! the hansem italian man at STrATEGY..weehhee!then u noe....im gona missed the Japan Guy too... haiz! tomorow if i saw them..if not then..its ok.. next time im gona go there for attachment maybe.talk to Suiling bout werk!!! and i get.........

u noe where???
u noe?????????????
hhahhahaha...........
here.........
CHaNGE ALLEY...
i Shout again.........
CHaNGE ALLEY...
wakakakka

it near CALTEX HOUsE there... haiyoo!
Yati....
u can improve when u go there........
Be more organise! Initiative....,Werk Double hard...
Remember the drink and be more alert....
many more things to said
but then..... only u urself can show and improve..
no one else... and always be prepared..dont be kanchong!
ok yati???
be confidence....
be observance....
Espresso..need skill to do it! u have the skill to do it!
i noe u can! Trust me.... dont panic and be more relex...
im sure y they put me at Change alley.. theres always a reason!
theres room for improvement kay??? keep it up.....
thanks my trainer....
i'll learn from u to be like wt u said...
there alway sumbody out there...who will notice my hard werk...
be strong,positive and cool.....
Dont wory too much..work double hard and show her the result...
i will........
i took ur advice...

but then....... my fren get Peninsula.. hmm....
its not a permanent outlet u c....
sure got change one...
nevermind...i got to go...
ESpRESSo machine and drinks...
im always here ready to prepaare..im a barista! Sure...
bubbyyee...!!!

P/s: Along and kak imah came..then,im 21 yrs old 1 mth..haha! OLD!

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:56 PM

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

haiz... waiting for Friday now!!3 more dayz..then im save.. from training!yeah!!save,save,save! arrgghh... bosan ar! bosan... i hate trainings!!! need to follow all the things,need to learn theory! merepek ar....monday will be the last day of training! roasting plant coffee is the last lesson.argghh..boring.Feilian not werking with me..boring ar.kalau dier ader...boleh borak2,joke2 and we can talk in malay about werk.haizz... alahai!!!

now,im bz with werk..its a great pleasure for me..asik memikir yang bukan2 jer..now is time to concentrate on my own career.jangan endahkan orang,tkde gunanyer...must live life to the fullest and thank god! k ar..im gona watch tv.. take cr dude!

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:36 PM

Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Ella
Sepi Sekuntum Mawar Merah

Berulang kali kumencuba
Memujuk hati
Lupakan semua
Kenangan...

Namun mimpi bertemu lagi
Di saat engkau
Tiada di sisi...

Ku berpegang pada janji
Tercipta ... antara kita dulu
Hilangmu tiada berganti
Biarlah ... begini

Ku belayar di lautan
Tidak bertepian
Sesekali disedarkan
Ombak yang mendatang
Aku seperti hilang
Punca arah dan ... tujuan

Aku puisikan namamu
Bersama rindu
Di dalam sendu ...

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:47 PM

Monday, August 22, 2005

early in the morning,my dad called to pick him up at doctor Yims clinic.he's leg is in pain,since yesterday he woke up from sleep but then,its getting worse just now morning around 5am.Doctors jean says mAYBE HE HAVE GOUT.and he have to take a test like mum took.checking on his high blood,cholestrol and bla bla...hopefully his ok.tat time mums one is ok just that her cholestrol is a bit high.Semoga allah selamatkan kamu berdua.i luv u both!!!

Mum tak pergi belajar pon nari..yelah,dia dah dengar ayah sakit kaki.. she's very worried u noe?alah....isteri mane yg tak sayangkan suaminyer..heheh! then,lepas aku dn ayah balik,kasi ayah makan obat then me n mum pegi checkpoint...buy things,beli makanan,then we eat at the kedai there.mum bought for me HANDPHONE 3230..hehhee! dpt 510 then plus the handphone memory card and lcd cover too...gst semua $600! i noe its wate but then,its a gift from her.and i dun want to change anymore...mum kalau beli mesti tahan lama! hehhe...thank u mak!!! birthday gift!!! semalam pun ayah tak keje...kaki da sakit takkan nak keje kan???dengan payung tuh...hish!!!

Hafiz kol me tadi..tok to him for a while!eh..oklah.... im gona write again tomorow..bubyyee!!

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:09 PM

Sunday, August 21, 2005

haizz...Boring!!! This is my life..bored and no one to go out with. Dulu,i have sum people to go out with but now,no one.My mum??? forever with her kemas rumah!!!padahal rumah aku nak cakap..dah wangi,takde habuk..bersih sekali!!! argghh...boSAN AR!!!! Hidup aku kosong sekosong-kosongnyer!!! boring!!!! Besok aku nak kuar!keluar mehirup udara segar dan mencari ketenangan sekejap.besok pagi aku pegi.Well,kite nanti pun kat akhirat seorgang diri.takde orang yang akan menemankan kita.Lebih baik aku hidup sorg...cari ketenangan dan hapi sendiri.now??? i feel like crying!i dunno y! but im crying now. nak pray skrg tak boleh...besok maybe dah boleh lah kan.. arrgghh...

hidup aku ini sepi sekali.can i go travel by my own??Far from Singapore??Can i??haiz...!!! damn it!!!now,matlamat aku cuma satu.. kerja dan carik duit kemudian simpan untuk masa depan dan pergi mencari ilmu dalam bidang yang aku betul minati.i feel like my off days is like wasting of time.baik keje ade duit jugak dari tk keje. i just have to be by myself..tomorow,aku nak bawak diri.people on sat and sunday go out to have fun with family and frens...but me??? no!!! ntahlh..aku malaz nk cakap ar... bye!

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|11:00 AM

Saturday, August 20, 2005

hey!! my hand kene hot water...first time in life,tis happen.. this incident is very unforgetable.Espresso machine!!! haIz...sad2.. lucky i apply the medicine and colgate,if not??? rasa tangan nie macam nak tercabut,panas!!!panas!!! arrgghh.... lucky i still can type.Siu ling oh siuling,u're so particular!!!damn it!! nevermind..shes testing my patient,my speed too..i hope i dun get that outlet!THE STRATEGY!!!wats my strategy?? heheh... but then,i wont get to c that handsome tall italian man! hes like a model u noe...??? he got nice eyes,bulu mata yang lentik,muka yang bersih,hidung yang mancung,badan yang tegap,phuuhhhyyoo....i will miss u babe!hehehe..well,nasib sentiasa menyebelahi aku!! hes my like..idol man!

i wanna ask u a thing???am i moody person??? like to blame on others??? do i??? wt i noe,im not!!!watever lar...its up to u people to said about me.im just a plain gerl with nothing accept a sincere heart..who cares???? u dun have to bother me kay???i will be by myself..yesterday,today,now,tomorow and forever...hahahah! thank god,im safe..only my hand and fingers were red..i still ok.. its not my fault you noe???the steam bar ar!haiz.... well.its ok! syukur alhamdulilah...aku selamat!cabaran nie..pengalaman!! best2..

i got one secret to tell u!!!!!!!!!im Getting OFF for 2 DAYS!!! yeehhhaa....wakakakkaa....wat??? 2 DAYS OFF!! hehheehe.....tapi?? duk rumah jer...kesian eh aku?takde fren..tkde org nak ajak kuar..semua hal masing2..poor yati! pity u!k ar...i wanna watch vcd that i bought yesterday from JB..bye! a'kum!!

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:47 PM

Thursday, August 18, 2005

weehhee! today werk as usual..its my turn tomorow doing the espresso drinks.that italiano came again!haha..dahlah aku jatuh kat keje tadi..weehhee.dlm store..partner aku nampak siak..ketawakan aku...kuang ajak!aku nyer kaki plak tak rasa..semut2 lah...tu yg tk sadar tibe2 jatuh.hahahha...yati2!!

hmm....tomorow thursday!!! yahhoo....im werking morn!but...i need to later studies and read tru my drinks concotions.hmm... too bad!!! so far werk is ok..hope get the gud outlet.oh yar,just now morn,mar jak aku pi kl dgn family matair dier..i cant. werk mah,mcm aku boleh pegik gitu..hehe! next time kay mar??? haiz... life..... waiting for the day tomorow... hehe..! nytes!
hapi bdae fariszuan!

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:01 PM

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

a'kum!! Daily life a usual wake up at 5.30am and then siap2 gi keje.. whui... so far oklah! today do espresso drinks.hmm,not bad. the concotion is quite easy to remember too.anyway,Espresso station is always my favourite.hahaha!!! weehhhee..

BARISTA IS SOMEONE WHO MAKES A COFFEE DRINKS AS A PROFESSION.
THE ART OF ESPRESSO... WOW! TATS GREAT..

tat man came again..today order cappuccino..wwehhee! aku nie giler ar..alah,admiring people tak salah bukannyer aku nak pon.Betol tak???
later 11-8..waiting for weekends off! yahhoo...left 8 days to finishing of training! k,bubyyee!

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:00 PM

SAAT HILANG CINTAMU

Sarah
Album: Mimpi Pun Sama
Ciptaan: Ajai/Musrad

Mulanya sukar untuk kutempuh
Tapi terpaksa kubuat sejak kau tiada
Sendirian ku tahankan dukaku
Kepayahan memadam rindu

Selama ini aku meyakini
Kau bahagia dengan insan yang kau sanjungi
Namun ternyata salah dugaanku
Dengar khabarmu yang pilu

KORUS
Kini engkau menyesali
Dan ubati lukamu sendiri
Pengorbanan mu jadi debu
Dipersenda kasihmu

Pasti kau sudah rasai
Keperihan hati yang kutanggungi
Walau tidak pernah aku meminta
Kau dibalas begitu

Semua ini telah kuharungi
Kepahitan rasa bukan untuk selamanya
Kesabaran menguatkan jiwaku
Demi menyambung hidup...ke akhir waktu

KORUS
Kini engkau menyesali
Dan ubati lukamu sendiri
Pengorbanan mu jadi debu
Dipersenda kasihmu

Pasti kau sudah rasai
Keperihan hati yang kutanggungi
Walau tidak pernah aku meminta
Kau dibalas begitu

Semua ini telah kuharungi
Kepahitan rasa bukan untuk selamanya
Kesabaran menguatkan jiwaku
Untuk menempuh hidup...ke akhir waktu

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|11:01 AM

Tuesday, August 16, 2005

cintailah sesorg itu atas dasar siapa dia skrg,dan bukan siapa dia sebelumnya.Kisah silam tidak perlu diungkit lagi kiranya kamu benar menyintainya setulus hati.

Cinta dan kasih sayang adalah jawapan yang dapat menyembuhkan segala penyakit.dan jalan yang menuju kepada rasa cinta dan kaSih sayang hanyalah melalui kemaafan.

Bukan laut namanya jika airnya tidak berombak.bukan cinta namanya jika perasaan tidak pernah terluka.Bukan kekasih namanya jika hatinya tidak pernah merindu dan cemburu.

kejarlah cita-cita sebelum cinta,apabila tercapainya cita-cita maka dengan sendirinya cinta itu akan hadir.

kecewa cinta bukan bermakna dunia telah berakhir.masa depan yang cerah berdasarkan pada masa lalu yang telah dilupakan.kamu tidak dapat melangkah dengan baik dalam kehidupan kamu sampai kamu melupakan kegagalan kamu dan rasa kekecewaan itu.

usah diratapi perpisahan dan kegagalan bercinta,kerana hakikatnya jodoh itu bukan di tangan manusia.atas kasih sayang tuhan kau dan dia ditemukan,dan atas limpahan kasihnya jua kau dan dia dipisahkan bersama hikmah yang tersembunyi.Pernahkah kau terfikir kebesarannya itu??

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|12:18 PM

helo!aloha...im fine..happy and wise..wakakaka! its already one week!!!oh yar..tis man at my training place at werk is hansem and smart.Must be sum sort of italians! haha,not bad..weehheee.. tall,with goatie and like the italian that used to be my favourites.waduh!! i like to c his face.. yati oh yati..!! plz... dun judge a person by his outer only kay? eh but,i just admire his face mah coz i like italians u c!hahaha!funny me!those 'angmoh' were here to werk...wow! im quite surprise. ar...singapore..business only! they make money from other country juz to get more products and be more action.watevalah...

heermmm...one more thing,my partner at werk i told u yesterday?? he is a bit of bad mood today.hahah! dunno leh... i hope dunt get same outlet coz i cant werk with him i guess.no communications... lack of it and he is like doing only his werk and not like a teamwork.haiz...
then..sumtimes sampai aku pun kene tolak siak!! juz becos he want to do his job..but hes kind of 'KANCHONG' people.wakakaka...
aku pun kanchong ar tapi relek...jangan terburu2 ler.. slowly.. aku relek one corner jer..up to him to do it.let him be.. i dun wanna disturb anymore.hehehe! angin siak... 25 years old pon angin!hish!! susah punya orang!
"hapiness is in the inside..,mentallity is the most important.." alalallala.... can say im ok and im doing good...not rushing too..better makes mistake now then later..ahahahaha...ape aku bebel siak dari tadik? abang italy???abang italy??? mane kau?? wahahaha!

biar orang pandang rendah pada aku..yang penting aku hapi dan aku tak kacau hidup orang.biarlah aku menjadi seorg yang penyabar kerana penyabar itu sentiasa dicintai allah! jangan suke mengata orang,lihat diri sendiri tu dulu...jangan lihat paras rupa dari luar,di dalam hati lebih mulia dari yang diluar...yang penting ikhlas.. konferm berjaya!oraite nur??? kip it up..gud luck... bubyyee!!!!

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|11:09 AM

Monday, August 15, 2005

Jika kita kehilangan cinta, maka pasti ada alasan di baliknya. Alasan yang kadang sulit untuk dimengerti, namun kita tetap harus percaya bahwa ketika Ia mengambil sesuatu, Ia telah siap memberi yang lebih baik.lebih baik menunggu orang yang tepat, Karena hidup ini terlampau singkat untuk dilewatkan bersama pilihan yang salah, karena menunggu mempunyai tujuan yang mulia dan misterius.Memang susah melepaskan seseorang yang benar benar kita cintai, but at the end we only can wish a happiness in his life.

In every change that you experience in life,
there will be times when you'll wonder if you can endure.
But you'll learn that facing each difficulty one by one isn't so hard.It's when you don't deal with a situation that if sometimes comes back to confront you again.

Changes are sometimes very painful,
but they teach us that we can endure
and that we can become stronger.

Everything that comes into your life has a purpose,
but the outcome is in your hands by the action you take.Be wise with your life,be willing to endure,and always be willing to face life's challenges.There are always two choices, two paths to take. One is easy. And your only reward is that it's easy. You cannot do wrong without suffering wrong. Work joyfully and peacefully, knowing that right thoughts and right efforts will inevitably bring about right results.

Karena cinta aku belajar..
Ketika aku mencintai seseorang
Aku kan belajar tuk melepaskannya..
Mendoakan kebahagiaan untuknya
Merelakannya..
Biarlah dia bahagia.. Meski tidak denganku
Biarlah tertawa.. Meski tidak untukku
Asal dia tidak menangis.. karenaku
Semua harapan dan impian telah kita lupakan..
Setiap pelukan dan genggaman tangan telah kita
lepaskan
Biarlah ini berlalu..
Agar tak lagi lukai hati kita
Biarlah yang pernah kita lalui..
Menjadi kenangan indah.. & tetap indah
Akan tiba saatnya untuk kita..
Bisa berdiri berhadapan dan tersenyum..
Tanpa ada kesedihan..
Tanpa ada airmata..
Karena ku yakin
Akan tetap ada kasih diantara kita..
Bukan lagi cinta yang berperan dan membutakan..
Karena ku tahu ini yang terbaik untuk kita..

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:01 PM

Syukur Alhamdulilah...keje hari ini selamat.Im happy!!Happy with my life now.im living in tis world with hope to becum better in the yet future to come.My partner at werk said.."malu sebab aku keje kat sini nampak diorang,takmu ar tengok,malu siak...dorg dulu keje Citibank" haiz.... hey!!!!!! any job we do dengan niat yang baik dan ikhlas,insyallah akan direstui allah.Apa yang nk dimalukan..kite kerja cari rezeki yang halal.bukannya kita merompak,jual arak, jual badan??? betul tak??? aku bersyukur,aku keje dengan hati yang ikhlas. im starting again my career in tis Fnb line in Spinelli as a stepping stone.tak perlu gaji beribu..yang penting kite rajin dan mampu tunjukkan yang terbaik dalam kerja ini.MALU EH??? THEN....GAJI KECIK PUN NAK MALU KER??? KALAU GAJI BESAR MCM 1500 KE,2000 KE.. KITE TAK PANDAI DAN TAK TAHU SIMPAN DUIT APE KITE DAPAT??? KITE JUGAK RUGI.TAK KE MALU NAMANYER TUH???HAIZ.... SEKRG NIE KEJE SUSAH BEB,APE ADE REZEKI YANG DATANG TERIMA JER.INSYALLAH...NIAT KITE TU BAIK KITE AKAN MAJU KEHADAPAN...GOT IT??? BUT U C....guys at the age of 25 keje spinelli as full time???mcm ne nak bagi makan anak org nanti??hahaha...as part time oklah...tapi,haiz,da tau malu keje gaji 1k+ maseh nk keje spinelli???? haiyoooyoo... wake up guys!!! kite yang perempuan nie lagik malu tengok kaum adam mcm kau!tapi pada aku.. mAne2 pon boleh asalkan hati kite bersih...aMIN!!jangan endahkan apa orang nak kata pada kita.kite buat keje kita,orang nak kutuk ke,nak maki ke kutuk itu dorg punye suke.wokay!!!

Jangan terlalu memandang hina pada kerja yang gajinya sikit..haiz!!
oh yer...pada sesiapa yang memandang hina pada kerja FNB nie,sendiri mau ingatlah.kita takde,korg kebuluran....wakakakkaaa! btol???kite manusia...semua sama...cume perangai aje yang berbeza.macam-macam karenah ader..aku skrg da 21...aku bukan lagik budak kecik yang mcm kat luar yang tak tahu berfikir.hidup mesti happy!!!jgn terburu2 memcari cinta jugak... buat mase nie...guys??? no..im not gona find any.let god decide on my life partner..jumpe mesti jumpe jugak... one fine day i will met that person.tomorow,next day,next week,next month,next year,3-4 yrs time??? there is sumone out there kay???i believe in god..i believe in myself...for now... no guys in my heart.if it cums i cant reject,but i noe it cum naturally...without u noeing! for now... i wanna built my carreer.keje and keje and keje..wateva u wanna say people.. FNB and hotel line is my interest...i'll give my best for my own gud,not for others! gud luck Nur..Norhayati!!

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|12:27 PM

Sunday, August 14, 2005

Today was my off day! erk...tomorow the day im waiting to werk at hereen(hmv)! arrgghh... i dun like it! ish...how ar??? i dislike it man.Too much of town makes me sick and bored!i really cant stay there.haiz.... hope i dun get that place as my outlet!!! it will be a damn boring outlet i guess! where my sat and sun burned just like that!God... plz put me at CBD area... hahah!

juz got back from yishun buy food from Northpoint.Buy Chicken chop,not bad ar but im totally full! heehe..Yesterday bought the chicken rice from werk canteen was quite nice..not bad.. its just $2.30.Cheap cheap... weehheeeee....saw Tis Ibrahim my ite fren!so hansem now..hehehe.

Sat was boring...Friday was ok... tomorow??? it gona be my "lost" day..hahaha.sure kanchong one...but im still "cool"... cool as ice. hahaha...maklong cuming soon,now i after isyak alredy...not maghrib! haiz..janji melayu.. tarak guna punye orang! eh,oklah,i want to read my novel... i'll blog again sum other time..bubyyee!

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|11:38 AM

Friday, August 12, 2005

job was fine...more to practical today.i juz woke up after sleeping fom 7.30 just now.haha! damn it.. still not enuff sleep im sure.My legs a bit pain.2+ mths more going to be fasting month.have to werk first and save money for Hari Raya.Then can go jalan2...haha,u tink i go jalan?nope..unless with sum frens.haizz... no more packets for me..malay people,when u gets older u wont be getting any angpau!hehe..me?? 21 already lor..old already..but i noe sum will give coz i luk like im 17!wakakakkaaa,seow!!!i dont celebrate hari raya also..as long as i finish up my fasting month...im happy!

well,i hope i cud stay sumtime in this job.. finish up my 3 weeks of training first.Then get my outlet and then,werk for 3 mths probation..then can take AL!Terus,aku tengok lah,ade minat blaja..blaja.Ade keje yg lagik baik...apply.weehheee... 2006 then!!! so damn fast....insyallah!

People always never think...they tot they are always ryte.Wats past is past...tink of the future to cum.I told a fren of mine,"be happy and thankful to god for once u were love by sum1..u got bf.he sacrifice for u,do anything for u.its u who build up the relationhip and hopefully it last for a lifetime.think before making any decisions"..but then she still want to win.Ego..tats people.. forever!up to u then,im giving u advice only,whether to take it or not.well,let her be.. Sayang punye pasal..hahaha! macam kenal je tuh werd..k ah,im werking 11-8 tomorow..doing closing.bubbyyeee!!

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:58 PM

Thursday, August 11, 2005

HAI HAI...can i express and share u on sumthing?? erm... y people when they dont have anione then they find us?y huh??? lets put this situation..u have a girlfriend,and ME used to be your fren before and then u find me when u break up with her.Something like that...then,when u were her BF,u forget me as your friend here...y must this happen? haiz........i hate this!!! frens never leave u!! this is not called friend.argghhh..... wateva ar kay... siapa makan cili dia yang terasa pedasnya...jangan jadi mcm jantan tuh sudah...hahaha! Sayang punye pasal terpaksa sabar!!Cheh....then aku sabar dengan perangai kau 4 tahun lebih kau tak penah kire pe?? kau BUTA!!! ikutkan saje kate2 perempuan tuh..jangan sampai kau jadi pak sanggup sudah and kau jadi bodoh kerana dier!!WAKE UP MAN!WAKE UP.. YES!!! U...U OF COZ U!!Who else if not U man!! hahhaha...IDIOTS!!!
Tuhan akan membalas apa yang harus dibalas...LET'S C.... Im SORRY GOD...i just feel like espressing it! im ok..im fine... i forget him..but not to wat he done to me so easily... im still a LADY!!! V LADY!!! im very very very very Sure....i am!! i noe i will slowly forget...only u can help me god..u!!!

job is fine...still learning,catching up slowly..now i still under theory.I HATE THEORY... REALLY HATE AND GIVE UP!!! wkakaka,have to memorize tis and that!so troblesome! its totally SUCKS.......!!!
i hope i get the office hour outlets kay? bubbyyeee...

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|7:52 AM

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

I WANT TO WISH SINGAPORE...
HAPPY 40TH BIRTHDAY..
ALL THE BEST AND KEEP UP
THE GOOD WORK...

...I OFF...
-PEACE-

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|4:28 AM

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

yuuuhhhoooohhhuuuuuuu!!! wei... assalammualaikum..! yum yum! jut finish eat pizza.Makan besar nari hehehee.oh yeh... Went to jurong buy CD! popsong shop at jurong! wah...murah jugak cd.aku beli lah dalam 3-4 cd gitu..keje ok..best! not bad ar... i and one of tis guy,budak baru.Sui ling is the trainer..bought CD rossa,Senario,Avril and tusuk jelangkong vcd from indon! hmmm... i wanted to buy ahli fiqir tak jdi..next time.The lady sold the cd is Eileen..she's so frenly man!! she said im frenly lady..waaahaahha. Went to popular bookshop to buy those Self improvement books too.btw.... u noe sumthing?? i get the avril lavigne Cd for just 9.90! wakakaka! cheap siah... haiz... im so thankful to god... 4 cd for just 50bucks! original cds... hehee! oklah.. i wanna watch tv... Untung nasib ,malam hantu datang mari rumah!choy ar.... hhaha! bubbyyeee!

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:11 PM

Monday, August 08, 2005

ELLA-KESAL

Berulang kali ku cuba mengerti
Namun kau tak pernah untuk menyedari
Walaupun akhirnya semua kan berlalu
Hadapi kenyataan
Biarpun penuh berduri
Harusku hadapi

Tuk sejenak diri lupakan problema
Agar lepas dari segala prasangka
Aku cuba berlari
Ikuti langkahku
Menyongsong matahari
Biarlah kan ku tempuh
Jalan hidup sendiri

Tanpa engkau lagi ingin kubuktikan semua
Bahwa diri ini bukanlah sekadar
Boneka yang dapat kau jadikan mainan

Resahku kerna dia
Kesalku kerna dia
Harapan hidup berdua
Ternyata sia-sia

Resahku kerna dia
Kesalku kerna dia
Lebih baik putus saja
Daripada tersiksa
Hidupku jadinya
O...O...O...

Ella-Sepi Sekuntum Mawar Merah

Berulang kali ku mencuba
Memujuk hati
Lupakan semua
Kenangan...

Namun mimpi bertemu lagi
Di saat engkau
Tiada di sisi...

Ku berpegang pada janji
Tercipta ... antara kita dulu
Hilangmu tiada berganti
Biarlah ... begini

Ku belayar di lautan
Tidak bertepian
Sesekali disedarkan
Ombak yang mendatang
Aku seperti hilang
Punca arah dan ... tujuan

Aku puisikan namamu
Bersama rindu
Di dalam sendu ...

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|3:48 PM

Assalammualaikum...

"Subahanallah,walhamdulilah walaillaha illaallah allahhu akbar.."
tis is part of zikir..then tis malay Drama did tis drama very well done..Cinta seorang penggali kubur!i like those drama on tv3 from malaysia.While Atas nama cinta is on TV1.all tis dramas are great...
if im given the chance i would like to be an actres..becos i noe i can act! i can CRY,laugh,joke and expre the feeling and emotions well.i knew i could do it...Dream on yati! hahahahhaa........

Tomorrow will be my first day At werk..Too bad,tues PH i get off.. weehhee! hmmm,dunno leh.. how huh?i feel like not werking siah.it been a month i've been staying home and i feel so letagic,lazy,tired and arrgghh.....dunno wat else!hahhaa..but becos of the money to help my family and myself.. i have to!WAKE UP YATI!!!!! it gona be monday...monday blues!i tink so... coz i seldom get monday blue... coz monday i the beginning of the day and week..always! but then... FRIDAY is always the best!i hope the job will be better and more fun and peaceful then b4...haiz..!!! start at 10 and finish at 3...

im changing for the better... god will help people who help themself.
"no matter how powerful and real ur feeling maybe for sum1,if that person cannot fully and honestly return them and therefore actively love u back,these feeling means nothing..." im very sure of tis coz i've expereince it b4.. i gtg!!!

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:55 PM

Rindu Bayangan

Berputar-putar kurenung gambar wajahmu
Kisah yang lalu tak akan berulang lagi
Lupakan saja cerita lama
Usah dirayu pada yang tak sudi

Janganlah dinanti pada yang telah pergi
Hanya luka lama kan berdarah kembali
Kini kecewa tidak terkata
Mengapakah itu disebut lagi
Apalah yang hendak dikata
Sudah suratan takdir menentukan
Inilah ragam manusia
Manis di bibir pandai bermain lidah

Berputar-putar membelitkan kata-kata
Hanya linangan airmata kan menitis
Pada bayangan di angin lalu
Membisikkan kata rindu bayangan

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:34 PM

Sunday, August 07, 2005

Elegi Sepi-Azharina

Saat mentari beradu
Rembulan pun bertamu
Hatiku menjadi sayu

Dalam kesamaran waktu
Mengapakah rinduku
Masih ada dalam kalbu

Sedangkan cinta itu
Sudah berlalu
Mungkinkah rasa bersalah

Masih menghimpit jiwa
Kerana terlalu tega
Membuatmu terluka

Dikau yang begitu setia
Tabah hadapi segala

Namun ku menjadi alpa
Kesal akhirnya

Aku pinta kepadamu
Maafkanlah
kesilapanku
Aku tahu kau dan aku
Tidak mungkin akan menyatu

Apa yang tertinggal kini
Kesedaran di hati
Yang kan tetap
bersemadi
Menjadi elegi sepi

Oh biarlah doa tulusku
Mengiringi jalanmu
Kan menebus khilafku
Terhadapmu

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:21 PM

Friday, August 05, 2005

Memang aku tidak ingin mengenangnya.Menjadi miliknya apa lagi setelah seluruh bahagiaku dimusnahkan diceroboh dengn cara yang paling kejam.Kini masih adakah yang dinamakan cinta?Masih adakah yang dinamakan sayang?selain benci dan dendam.selain sakit hati dan amarah yang tidak akan kunjung padam.Apa lagi yang tinggal?
Kalau ada rindu yang datang sekalipun,pastiku campak jauh2 atau kubenam kedasar lautan yang paling dalam.Usah kau pura-pura tidak mengerti mengapa aku jadi begini.Usah kau palitkan lagi diriku dengan sisa-sia kasihmu...kerana mata hatiku telah buta dengan cinta.
telah tuli dengan bisikan-bisikan asmara.Namun,hari ini mengapa tiba-tiba hatiku berlainan rasa?Benih kebencian yng kutanamkan rupa-rupny berbungakan cinta.Dan menyanyangimu aku kian dihambat malu dan keliru...

Petikan novel : Bisikan kasih!

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:20 AM

Thursday, August 04, 2005

Yahoo!!at last tis two couple is back together after a big quarrel.
haiz,ape nak jadi.Sedih sey aku.sampai nak break semua.aDUH!!HEART PAIN LEH...i noe how they feel although im not in their situation.i noe although i myself not ok and dont have enuff experience i did hope they will be happy together and finaly,i help solve their problem out.im so happy for them!!u wanna try me out??hehehehe...eksyen pulak yati eh!Sendiri punye crite tak abes,crite pasal orang..eh!!! but my problem da ok pe...cume it need times to heal..yeah i need time! and sure time will tell what will happen next to us!i live it all to god.im nobody!im just a normal person who hope for a better future.weehhheeee....now im happy with my life.too many novels and too many advice from people makes me like tis! but niSa and rashid.. i would like to tell u both..i dont hope for anything from u all.u both did owe me sumthing but then..its not important to me.aku tak pernah mengharapkan ape2 dari korg,yg penting korang happy and still fren with me..tats important to me i want u both to be together.heheee....insyallah!

Well.......... tuhan maha adil...im trying to help a fren. im not hoping for anything!all the best aite! u noe one of tis fren of mine..she is wandering!thinking and thinking of sumthing that supposed not to happen.tis guy left her for another gerl and she got cheated by him,sedih aku tgk keadaan dier.but now,she's ok lor... happy with life and she's more matured enuff to think of the future.
i wish her gud luck....like i said,"hidup nie sudah tertulis,kita hanya mengikut rentaknya..kalau ade jodoh adelah! hidup mesti berani terima kenyataan..jangan terlalu ambil hati dengan sesuatu kerana kite belum tahu ape akibatnyer.Jadikan semua ini suatu pengajaran dalam kehidupan.makin banyak kite tempuhi makin byk kite kenal dan faham apa maksud dan erti hidup!!"...

wah..Yati Yati!u must be crazy!hehehe,sumtimes aku terfikir.
Siapalah yang akan menjadi teman hidup aku nanti.Boleh ke dier jaga aku eh?hish!! boleh ke?? aku nie degil tapi sabar orgnyer..haha! cepat sensitif jugak...tapi,tah eh,maybe becos i dont get attention from people who i luv like my dad and brothers.i juz hope for the better.ish!!! inilah hidup..hari2 aku belajar mcm2.hidup2!
haaiizz..... mane nak cari orang yang beriman? hmm.... boleh bimbing aku kan?hermmm.......... tah eh! if let ay that person berubah ke jalan allah.insyllah aku akan terima jika betullah jodoh aku dengan dier.but it looks like that person dont luk like hes changing! waduh!! hahaha...jgn mengharap pada yang tk sudi!Cinta itu bukan untukmu, yati!ok?

tadi aku borong baju dekat yishun.Aduh yati! mcm2 buang duit jer.eh! tu baju untuk keperluan jugak.kate nak tukar imej.betul tak?
hahhh.....oklah! aku nak mamam,everything ok! c u! a'kum!

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:30 PM

kenapa manusia tak pernah faham perasaan seseorang tuh eh? haiz... kalaulah dier dapat mendalami pernah manusia itu,alangkah baiknyer. konfem bahagia.hidup hidup...!cerita "atas nama cinta" lakonan zul dan nisda..amat baik.aku suke dua pasangan ini berlakon dalam drama.
sikap kedua2nyer yang berbual lemah lembut phui...best!!dorg pun selamat kawin dah.sayangnyer... kawan baik mereka mati di kuil.Semua kean cintanya pada kencana dewi.marvin pula sanggup lakukan apa saje demi cintanya pada sagun!Aduh...siapalah yang sanggup mati kerana aku? hehhe.Cinta,cinta,cinta...apa itu cinta??? entahlah...aku tak kenal lagik! kalau sayang ia aku kenal..teramat kenal.tis sunday will be the last episode.

oh yer...monday im werking at 10.Tuesday dpt off lagik coz of PH! bagusnyer...heheh! mula2 jer...nanti dah takde off lagik.weehhee!
haiz....hidup nie mcm2 ar eh.Nari nak kuar ar..jalan2..pegi orchard jap.tgk lah mcm ner.

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:45 AM

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

HAPPY 57TH BIRTHDAY MUM!!! I LUV U ALWAYS!!UR LUV AND CARE I WILL NEVER FORGET.HOW AND WHATEVA U THOUGHT ME WILL ALWAYS BE KEPT IN MY MIND.I PROMISE!SEMOGA PANJANG UMUR YAR.HEHEHEH.............

JUST Came back from bishan actually with mum who celebate her birthday today.Birthday we get free ice cream mah from Swensens.The firehouse happy birthday.then eat fish and chips,calamari rings and the cookies and cream ivce cream..uh uh!!!im FULL!! aku blanjakan mak aku..that time my birthday dier blaja tapi kat CWP.hehe!tis time round aku nak try bishan punye swensen.hmmmm... swensens i always my all time favouite but...ice cream favourite.yummy yummy yum!!

i just dont know what happened to me tis few days.im just..argghhh, dunNo!!!maybe im crazy..but my mind is like Tinking and tinking and tinking of......????well........... i really donno y.Let god help me to not think of it especially the past.haiz....y must u be in my mind wen i 4get u oreadi?? hehezzz! siape eh??? ramai tau yang aku tak lupekan...penipu semuanyer! jantan..memang lah jantan! i wanna ead my NILaI CINTAMU NOVEL...tag later!

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|10:22 AM

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

I felt like telling him... "Please leave me ALONE!!!"Also thought of saying,Please Forget me and get away from me will u??Arrrggghhhhhh..
What u need From me huh??what else u want after i forgive u?? Tak cukup ke?? jangan jadi syaitan bertopengkan manusia!! Jangan kau ingat dengan pujuk rayu kau aku akan kembali menagih kasih dan sayang pada kau.Tak mungkin aku akan berpaling pada kAu.setapak aku melangkah ke hadapan sudah cukup membuktikan aku telah melepaskan kau pergi.ADuuhh!! perit sungguh deritaku ini...y?? Dont u c that u are happy now with ur life?and i am happy with my life too... Forget me will u? Contact me when u get married.thats what im waiting 4.. jangan kau paksa aku..jangan kau ingat kata2 lembut kau boleh buat aku kemaruk dengan cinta kau! ya allah.... sekiranya dier adelah jodohku,kau tunjukkan lah dier jalan yang benar.sekiranya tiada apa hubungan antara kita kau berilah aku semngat untuk melupakan sayangku padanya.Ya allah....Hanya kau yang maha berkuasa!

I get my polar pay today.I met auntie betty too.buy sumthing for her.i pity her and she said Cynthia change a lot.well,people.. u get higher post,u tend to becum more action and Ego.Pleaselah... tis is just a gift from god.Not to be brought along wen u died.iA PINJAMAN!
it wont last long.He msg me at 3.10...and again at 4.10PM. i really dont noe what he want from me..i didnt reply coz its better that way.haiz.................. i just hope,god change him for the better..insyallah!

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|12:30 PM

Monday, August 01, 2005

Suddenly,i got so many things to say!now is August 1st!Tomorow is my beloved mum birthday.hehehe...shud get polar puff pay today kan?? nanti aku kol auntie betty.oh yar,i just read my fren blog,thanks 4 the birthday wish again yar gerl!i missed u..hehe.She did story bout he life in ite and guess wat,she said her "Fren" fall for sumone who already had a wife.Dun denied it kay??i noe about it.I noe she wont have time reading my blog but,i would like to advice her,PLZ FORGET HIM!!! No matter wat,how deep ur luv i for him,u must try to let go. be happy with what u have.Thers always a reason y u met sum1 in ur life.God is always fair to u.U never get now,u get later.Thing about later and tomorow that will cum..past i past,u cant turn back and change it.Now that u are in school,study hard kay babe?im always there if u need my help.learn to be happy!i noe u will suceed one day.LOve cant bring u to anywhere...Dun be like my past,beco i luv him..i give eveything and i even forget all the thing i supposed to remember.hes never worth my luv at all and im not supposed to luv him in the past.wahahaa......... well my dear Fren!! forget him slowly.the best thing is,dont contact him anymore..change nbrs if u dare,hahaha! and................. Learn how to luv urself first and more.if u met sumone,let him luv u more then u luv him...heheheh! i learn tis from sum1,dunno from where.hehehhe!! at last I WOKE UP!! Tis is for her....Irena!

Next for my Dear fren,Nisa!i pity the guy who luv u for 7 years,he waits for u..wat a waste!hahaha..huz huz...if i can mit u,i will tell u how i feel wen i lose sum1 i really luv.the feeling i too strong and to hard to go away.but then.....now,im ok and im happy with my life more then last time.Dont waste snd ruin ur life for just a gerl for 7 years huz!!u can get sum1 better than her by all means.im sure u will if u really try.God is always there for u Huz.
U're a man!be strong!Nisa???u shud tell him earlier and u shud not let him wait.Forget andi,be with rashid...but dun be too soft to rashid coz to me he is too ego and jealous!i hate this type of guy! money wise,he shud suppport u not u support him kay dear?hehehhe...
aku nie berfalsafah pulak! ish....but then rashid is gud guy..he luvs u!

Mar??she happy with her life.im happy for her too... nothing wrong with her.Khairul must be happy to get sum1 who is nice like mar.Firah....u must be strong kay?study smart aite sis.Although im not close to u,but we 4 are still Gud frens in ITE! u low profile person and very hardwerking lady..oh yar,lupe nak cakap,yesterday i saw elmi.hes in Cd now..still the same like last time.Ingat jugak kat aku yer..then,Eric dengan mahmud i ambulance attendant.Erna is finding new job now.saw her at msn few days back.. haiz...
i wish i cud turn over the past times...i miss u all.... and now, im still worried,Wheres my dad????aggghh.................... kol dad,plz kol us!im damn worried...Assalammualaikum!!

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|4:00 PM

hmm...ayah havent called home.Slalu he called 3 kali dah.nie dah dekat 12 malam tau!haiz...I hope turning 21 will give me a better future now and then.Looking forward for new job nx week.on the 8th and hope it will be a brighter world.now im thinking wether i shud go to overseas and Continue my studies.maybe i shud...wait till im ready then..belajar nie sampai bile2 pun boleh.

Nisa told me yesterday that she and rashid gona Engaged soon after raya.alhamdulilah...insyallah akan langsung juga.im really happy for them and im excited for nisa.hehehehe....She must be happy now.. i Hope Rashid will take gud care of u my dear fren..

im Still thinking..shud i start wearing it now or not the time yet??
yesh....not yet but soon.Wen god told me to do so.deep from my heart, ikhlas seikhlas-ikhlasnyer...insyallah.oh tuhan!!! hanya kau maha kuasa dan maha besar.kau yang tentukan segala perjalanan hidupku ini.Aku redha dan ingin terus belajar dari kesilapan ku yang lalu.haiz....aku ingin mencari seorang insan yaang menyayangi aku dari tulus hati yang ikhlas dan beragama.tak semestinya dier Alim asalkan pengetahuan agamanya baik dari aku yang dapat membimbing aku cukup memadai.pandai baca al-quran,rajin,setia dan bertanggungjawab.yang penting ikhlas menerimaku! biarlah dier menyayangi aku lebih dari aku sayangkan dier...insyallah!

1 week berlalu..its too fast man! the world is round,what comes around will goes around..Among thousands and millions of people i met everyday,dont know which one will be my life partner.Heee..... im lonely now,haha,listening to tis song lonely buat aku sedih plak! ish!!! btw...Pintu hatiku maseh tertutup dan terkunci rapat.Tiada siapa dapat membukanyer lagi buat masa ini kerana hati ini tidak menerima dan sentiasa kana menolak...masa belum sesuai untuk menerima cinta... aku maseh perawan,aku tahu aku belum pernah jatuh cinta!!!

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:58 PM

Kecewa..

Tips lebih semangat lepas kecewa..
*menganggap setiap hari adalah istimewa
*bersyukur dengan apa yang anda alami
*Perbaiki hubungan antara manusia
*Jadikan kehidupan lebih bermakna
*Hargai perkara yang lebih baik Dan mudah dalam hidup Daripada menyulitkan keadaan.
*Jangan biarkan perasaan menundukkan kamu.
*Hargai diri sendiri
*Penuhi keinginan dengan segera.

Penawar Ubati kecewa...

Belajar menerima kenyataan,jangan merasa tersisih bila kecewa.
fahami perasaan kamu dengan menghayati tekanan yang dihadapi,anggaplah ia suatu yang normal.

Fahami Punca masalah dan faham betul2 apa yang menyebabkan ia terjadi.

Belajar menyayangi diri sendiri.Jangan kelirukan diri kamu dengan menyayngi orang lain dari diri sendiri.

Jangan salahkan orang lain.Berfikiran terbuka Dan belajar dari kelemahan dan kesalahan.jangan menuding jari pada orang lain.

selalu berfikiran positif.Anggaplah yang berlaku sebagai pengajaran untuk kematangan diri.Kebanyakan mereka berjaya mengasah diri daripada kegagalan..

itu Coretan dari majalah Remaja...

Aku berjaya memaafkan kesalahannya,aku belajar dari kekecewaan. Dan kini aku lebih matang untuk menentukan hidup...Aku bangga menjadi seorang anak gadis yang kini berusia 21 tahun! Thanks to god!

Last day of the month!! August tomorow.... time really flies very fast!Syukurlah,Amin...

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|7:20 AM

Yg pergi biarkan pergi..kita yang hidup ini harus diteruskan... itulah ungkapan yang sering diterjemahkan kepada manusia yang kehilangan insan yang mereka sayang.
Cinta tak boleh dipaksa kerana ia hadir dengan sendirinya dalam hati tanpa kita mengetahuinya dan cinta itu akan pudar sendirinya tanpa kita memaksa diri melupakannya.Pengertian cinta terlalu susah ditafsirkan,tiada siapa yang dapat mentafsirkanya.Hanya yang melaluinya sahaja yang akan tahu apa erti yang cinta sebenar.Kita manusia hanya mampu merancang,hanya tuhan yang menentukan.

Aku yakin,aku tidak pernah merasakan cinta sebenar,tapi aku pernah merasai perasaan sayang kepada insan yang amat kusayangi hingga ku lebih menyayanginya lebih dari diri aku sendiri.Sehinggakan aku lalai dengaan kehidupanku.jika benar itu cinta,aku tidak akan bertepuk sebelah tangan.Nilai cinta terlalu berharga dan tak dapat dibayar dengan wang ringgit dan ape sekalipun.
Cinta itu sukar ditafsirkan melainkan aku suatu hari nanti akan benar merasakannya sendiri.akan kutunggu saat indah itu dimana hatiku akan dicuri oleh insan yang menyintaiku lebih dari segalanya.
i will wait for love!it will come Naturally by its own... no forcing,no stop at all.Cinta pada tuhan lebih hakiki..

NuR Cahaya Hatiku|7:00 AM

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