thesinger
thelyrics
thechords
themelody
foryou
you're
my song.
it's been so long.
i never had a chance to play this for you.
cos everytime the music starts,
i always cannot go with the tune.
and then you went away,
now the lyrics seem to stray.
so how can i not love you?
when i live just for you.
you took away the heart in me,
that once beat in harmony.
now, i am torn apart,
feeling unemotional somehow.
sometimes, i can't help but cry.
i miss the way we used to be.
and the sad part,
the song i made,
is just a music that will fade.
and the reasonis you.
NoRhayati Bte SaLLeH
22Nd years old
boRn on 25Th juLy 1984
Leo Gal...
North Side of Singapore
Full time Career In SpineLLi
Loves the Nature,Arts,Coffee,Adventures,Excitement..
She's Simple And independent..
Well behaved and Friendly..
Reading,outing and Stubborn...
Shes now living life to the Fullest!!
but everythingmeans nothing.
Sunday, July 31, 2005
im Back on Thursday nite!Too tired to Type! hahaha...well,its fun going there.Crazy Sale man.i like it.So cheap..When to KLCC,mid valley megamall which is 3 times bigger then Causeway point i guess so.The hotel i stay in is at Hotel seasons view..near Bukit bintang plaza,Lot 10 and Sungei wang plaza.Drop at Bukit bintang Monorail station.hmm......... me and mum were so tired when back home.My shoulder was so pain!ahakz.... hehe,lucky im safe to be back to My homeland,singapore! i bought a lot of things there too.THe sale really makes me Crazy! hahaha.... too many arabs were there for holiday.All black from head to toe,errr... mesti panas kan?? their husband were all normal.Wearing the normal Shirt.Only the ladies..Cover all the way.Hmm...me wearing that??No way! hahahaha!
i change 100 and i can buy so many thing.The things are so cheap after the discount.if malayia have mega sale again,must go! i need to wash up... tag later..
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|3:20 AM
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
im flying off To KUALA LUMPUR... Will be back either Tomorow or Thursday! btw,Between me And him...have been settle..just that he dont know bout rashid and Nisa yet.Maybe one day,he will noe.All the Best to u. i've learn that,Love cannot be Force...and as far as i noe,i got nothing against him and no grudges against him too.Kite umat islam..tak baik bermusuh dan berdendam.Let him be and i believe, both of us are at fault.God will make it fair for both of us that is Between him and me... Sekarang,kau bahagia..bersama pilihanmu,aku??? aku hidup bahagia dengan keadaan sekelilingku sekarang ini.I'm Matured enuff to noe all this! Let god decide the action he gona take between us!Like what i said..GOD is always Fair!
OKlah... i got to go and enjoy my Weeks head.Pray that i will be save and back to Sg soon! assalammualaikum!
Azlee And Hambali 21st Birthday!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:00 AM
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Ketika cinta itu datang..
ia amat suci sekali..
ia lahir dari lubuk hati yang ikhlas
ia indah,tenang,penuh kepercayaan,
kebahagian,kegirangan dan kegembiraan..
Aku tertawa,tersenyum keriangan!
Dia amat teristimewa di kala itu..
Tak ada apapun yang serupa dengan
keagungan Cintaku padanya.
Kini,Cinta ku bukan untuknya..
aku bukan untuknya
Dan dia bukan untukku..
yang benar,Cinta itu bukan milikku!
Telah kumaafkan mu,kerna bagiku
ini semua tiada ertinya..
aku rela dengan segala yang terjadi..
Biarlah aku hidup dengan caraku..
Dengan kebahagian yang akan aku ciptakan sendiri...
Yang aku pasti...
Cinta itu bukan milik kita berdua...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:36 PM
Starting from today....7.45pm.. the time i was born 21 years ago,i will Forgive and forget "him".i wont contact him and i wont message him again.I have to do it.i have to be fair with myself.Hes not for me..and im not for him.Be sure that my LOVE is never mend for him at all.Aku meminta pada Allah tuhanku yang aku perlu lupakan dia dalam ingatan aku.Aku tak mahu lagi memikirkan tentang dia lagi dalam hidup.Yang lepas biarlah ia lepas..Dia tak mungkin akan kembali pada aku.Perjalanan Hidupku mesti Diteruskan walaupun tanpa Dia.Aku yakin,suatu hari nanti,Tuhan akan temukan aku Dengan seorang yang layak untuk menjadi teman hidupku.Dan...Biarlah masa yang menentukn...Aku tak perlu mencari..kerana ia tak penting buat aku..
Demi allah,Aku redha atas segalanya...Amin!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|10:45 AM
Today its MY 21ST BIRTHDAY.. Oh no!! Cant believe i've turn 21 now!!!
very old already siah!!haiz...... old enuff to think and i noe that when we turn 21 our age will go very fast...next year??22,23,24,25?? oooh ohh!!hahahha...at tis age,my mum's Married! and me??no im not gona married at tis young age! Well,i hope one day..i will!
oh yar...just now at nite,i received sum messages...people greeting me happy birthday! then,actully i cant denied that im waiting for that "person" to Sms me and wish me Happy bithday! n yeh..around 12.52,i received an Sms from him! "hi yati,happy birthday to u!! may all ur wishes come tru..God bless u." thanks 4 remembering my Bdae! i tot u dont.hmmm.... its ok lah! what past is pasts..u'e not mine and cinta itu bukan milikku.i Appreciate it still.i did reply and said thank you,after that i did ask him,is he werking?? not yet,still finding one and he mati2 nak tau aku keje mane next month! aku ckp tak important for him to noe.takpelah! nak tau pun buat ape,nanti tak jadi lagik kt keje tuh! im just curious about him!.....then sum other people do sms me too.. thank 2 all! hmmm.... today not sure of going anywhere! maybe go out with my mum... BIRTHDAY!BIRTHDAY! BIRTHDAY! NO difference actually..but im sure time will flies very fast.. Semoga Allah memberkati segala apa yang aku lakukan...amin!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:21 AM
Monday, July 25, 2005
Hello,Assalammualaikum..!! IM Fine today nite. Having a great day with frens,weehheee!! I really enjoy my nyte with my ex-ite Friends.After a long time i never met them,today,we met again.. Feeling like going back to normal school days in ITE BALESTIER.. When i received message from Firah saying shes not cuming along becos of urgent thing,Feel quite sad too...Coz,if she mit us up,she can mit her long lost fren,ERIC..and then s u noe,i mis her too... and the 4 of us never meet for a long time.Tak sangka IRena pun pegi!!! Diam-diam jumpe jugak kita yer..Then,Mar she Drive...ouh! So nice of her..she fetch me from Admiralty..then we go to newton circus together.but then..Dier salah jalan terus pegi Jurong sey! terus kene ke Tuas!Mmpoz...giler siak tu mar...She' not familiar yet with the road.hahha! we took almost 1 and the half hour to reach Newton Circus siah..Then irena and mahmud already reach there.haiz..Janji kul 5 tapi sampai kul 6.30! after eating at Newton we Went to Esplanade and chill around..b4 that mamhud and eric buy Wine at Giant marina square.Kecoh ar dektu...tak abes2 with perangai lama! minum jer... rosak!! then,we went back ,we 4 gals and nadira(anak saudara mar) took the car while the two guys Ride their own bike..on the way home semua slack!heheh! kecoh seh..but then,we having fun today nyte! lagi-lagi dapat jumpe kawan2 lama aku. Especially mahmud yang dah dekat 2 tahun tak mit! dier tetap samer.. moto dah tukar wave..cutekan!! haiz...if i cud turn the school days back again..i will... thanks my frens.. i luv u all!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:49 PM
Hmm...Eric kol me!!! Then,he said he's going! yaahoo... Tk sangka. i really hope he,ibrahim and mahmud wud turn up...Long time never meet them siah! haiz... Well,Sham cant make it.Sulastri cant Make it.but tell me at the last minute..then irena??aku tak tau..lucky ade mar.. tak kisahlah...Just tell u more later..!! pray me for gud health and day!Assalammulaikum..
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|6:18 AM
Sunday, July 24, 2005
2 more days to my Birthday,but i didnt feel anything.It is so boring either.haiz....Tomorow i will be meeting my friends.Wanna meet then go eat together.Dunno whose not going.Sum didnt reply,apelah nasib aku nie.Ada kawan pun takde gunenyer.tak macam dulu..I've lost my frens...well,this is life.people u need will never be with u always.
Harap mahmud ikut esok.Dah lama tak jumpe dier.MiSS him so much...
Abby pun tk reply message ku sekrg nie..Bz dengan kejelah tu.That Sumone?? my ite fren,where is she?? bz with school test and exams im sure.Who am i to stop them..if i talk much,people will say i never understand their situations.but then....i just want some or a little bit of spaces spent for me.aku takmau ikutkan perasaan aku macam dulu lagi.Apa gunanya??Nanti,aku yang dipersalahkan juga.Haiz...
Bosan ar..Pintu hati untuk lelaki sudah tutup.Nak berkenalan dengan orang pun aku tak kuasa lagi.Nak ada kawan yang boleh teman aku pun takda lagi macam dulu.Aku cuma banyak buangkan masa aku di rumah,berseorangan dan duduk diam di rumah..Lebih afdal dan selamat.
Mungkin kehidupan begini lebih selamat.Haruskah kita mencari?? Mencari jodoh?? Perlukah???arrgghh.... biarlah masa yang tentukan.
Hanya tuhan yang tahu,Tahu segalanya.Aku tak mahu mencari,biar ia datang sendirinya.Hmm...Lebih baik kita diam dari berkata-kata. oklah...Hari nie Saturday,Boring day!! 2 more days to go... ERrr...ByE!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:26 AM
Saturday, July 23, 2005
haiz..i dream of him!dier nk pindah rumah and too bad,i guess im not gona kontek him animore..!merepek siak!! last week mimpi pasal dier nampak aku dengan mak aku kat kedai mama.Then dier takmu tegur aku pulak! malu...wat the??? hish..mimpi yang aneh dan mengarut sekali!
Pintu hati aku maseh tertutup.Biarlah sampai ini sajer...
hey,aku perasan nowadays eh,too many malays dah hidup dalam kehidupan yang terlalu moden.ish...aku pun jugak ler..cume,im not that modernise!Even malaysia,dah hilang adat kemelayuan!Lelaki tak lagi mengerjakan sembahyang jumaat!!! haiz!! sedih aku tengok.biarlah..yang penting,aku happy! tak kacau orang.itu hidup diorang,aku malaz nak amek tahu dah pun! hmmm.............
3 day to go...and im gona be..21! Peace!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|7:00 AM
Friday, July 22, 2005
I Get the cheque from coffee club...$125 only! then,Quality hotel sent me a letter,im Sorry that your application is unsuccesful.haiz....Never mind!! confirm that china woman dapat sey!mcm ne kita singaporean nak maju????forget it,i'll make sure i get the chance to werk in a hotel one day..insyallah!!DEe....jangan ingat banyak sangat!!
Manusia,
Berbagai-bagai ragam...
Setiap yang hidup punyai ragam tersendiri...
Bosan memikirkan ragam mereka...
antara berjuta yang aku temui..
tiada satu pun yang menyenangkan..
tapi dalam setiap yang kutemui..
ada keistimewaan sendiri..
yang pasti...
manusia diciptakan tuhan..
dengan hati yang berlainan..
untuk kita mengenali satu lain..
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:29 PM
10 Peringatan Bumi buat Manusia...
1-Wahai anak adam!berjalanlah diatas perutku,tetapi ingatlah!Engkau akan dimasukkan ke dalamnya kelak.
2-Engkau melakukan maksiat di atas belakangku tetapi ingatlah engkau akan diazab di dalam perutku.
3-Engkau ketawa di atas perutku,tetapi ingatlah engkau akan menangis di dalam peutku.
4-Engkau bergembira di atas belakangku,tetapi ingatlah engkau akan kecewa di dalam perutku.
5-Engkau mengumpul harta di belakangku,tetapi ingatlah engkau akan menyesal di dalam perutku.
6-Engkau makan benda yang haram dibelakangku,tetapi ingatlah engkau akan dimakan oleh ulat didalm perutku.
7-Engkau angkuh di atas belakangku,tetapi engkau akan dihina di dalam perutku.
8-Engkau berlari dengan riang di atas belakangku,tetapi ingatlah engkau akan jatuh dalam perutku dalam keadaan dukacita.
9-engkau hidup di dunia bersiramkan cahaya matahari,bulan dan bintang dibelakangku tetapi ingatlah engkau akan tinggal dalam kegelapan di dalam perutku.
10-Engkau hidup di atas belakangku beramai-ramai tetapi ingatlah engkau akan keseorangan di dalam perutku.
From majalah Dara.com bulan August...!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:21 PM
Tentang tudung...
Surah AN-NUR, "Katakan (wahai MUhammad) kepada orang-orang lelaki yang beriman supaya menyekat pandangan mereka(daripada memandang yang haram)dan memelihara kehormatan mereka,sesungguhnya Allah amat mendalam pengetahuannya tentang apa yang mereka kerjakan.."
Suruhan ini disusuli dengan ayat berikutnya.."(An-nur 31) yang bermaksud,"Dan katakanlah kepada perempuan-perempuan yng beriman, supaya menyekat pandangan mereka (daripada memandang yang haram),dan memelihara kehormatan mereka,dan janganlah mereka memperlihatkan perhiasan tubuh mereka kecuali yang zahir daripadanya,dan hendaklah mereka menutup belahan leher bajunya dengan tudung mereka dan janganlah mereka memperlihatkan perhiasan tubuh mereka..."
Wanita adalah yang teristimewa dalam ugama islam..terletak diatas dn tempat yang tinggi dalam islam.Bukanlah untuk digunakan untuk berseronok."yang kita harapkan jika hari ini wanita itu tidak bertudung,dia akan mula bertudung kemudian berubah ke arah yang lebih baik.Ini dijelaskan hadis bahawa orang yang baik adalah orang yang selalu berubah ke arah kebaikan,memanfaatkan dirinya dan orang lain dalam pelbagai bentuk."
Bertudung biarlah ikhlas,sampai seru nanti pAkailah..insyallah,jika kita ikhlas dalam hati kita akan kekal memakainya kerana ajaran dan tuntutan allah.Setiap manusia akan terbuka hatinya untuk melakukan sesuatu yang baik suatu hari nanti...jangan ikut "trend"..ikut hati...insyallah,Allah akan terima segalanya... Minat aku untuk memakai dan mengenakan tudung insyallah akan terlaksana jua nanti..hmmm! Ada yng betudung tapi hati tidak ikhlas,buat maksiat,dengki,setakat hiasan saje atau suka-suka..,tapi aku mau megenakan tudung kerana aku patuh pada tuntutan Allah. Insyallah,masanya akan tiba jika tuhan tunjukkan aku jalan yang benar.Yang pasti,aku hanya mampu berdoa,mengubah sikap yang tak baik dalam hati dan mengikis segala perbuatan jahat dalam diri aku ini. yang berlalu biar berlalu,mulakan hidup baru.. amin.... NUR!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|10:25 AM
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NuR Cahaya Hatiku|7:23 AM
Thursday, July 21, 2005
Hari ini,kenyang sekali..Ape tidak,kenyang makan pizza hut ler..hehe!
tadi in the afternun when to CWP to buy,since i get the coupon.. buy 1 get 1 free...then,maybe rezeki aku terus aku tak payah bayar Chicken and garlic bread.weehhhee!! the Cashier makes mistake i guess.never mind....my lucky day.. then,wen to peninsula plaza to sign the appointment letter that starts on the 8th of August,just one day before Singapore NATiONaL DAY!! hehee..... Well,i dont noe how! i just want to start a new life!!!i follow what god show and lead me to... i cant imagine..theres a lot of people in tis world..
in singapore only,wow!! everywhere people werking,looking for job! office hours jobs,shopping centres,food courts,kopi house,fst food restaurants,factories...wow! huge!! but then.... i still dont know where the people cum from! hehehehe...in Singapore,u have to work nd work if not,u cant survive.2 weeks staying at home,i got so many things to do! and the time really flies very fast.i have 2 weeks+ more to relax.b4 i start sumthing new....haiz!! poor me! i wanna enjoy my life to the fullest!relax at home and help mum. ok ar,i wanna watch tv now... c yar!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|12:00 PM
Tak semua yang kita inginkan akan kita dapat.Entah kenapa,aku tiba-tiba terfikir macam nie.Adakalanya yang buruk dan kita tak suka itulah sebenarnya yng terbaik buat kita tanpa kita sendiri tahu.
manakala yang baik buat kita akan mendtangkan masalah dan beban pada kita suatu hari nanti.Hidup penuh dengan cabaran.Aku akur,setiap kehidupan i ini ada makna tersendiri/tersembunyi.Hanya tuhan yang tahu kemana arah yang akan kita tujui setiap saat dan waktu dalam hidup ini.
Dulu aku pernah katakan yang aku sering-sering mengalami situasi dimana aku harus memilih dua perkara dalam satu masa.Ya....aku sering mengalami kejadian ini dalam hidup ku.i hate choices!!! it makes me diffifult to choose..argghhhh!! inilah kehidupan aku...hehe!
anyway,thank god 4 all the things u made 4 me..i really look forward 4 it.I really hope that i cud help my mum and dad.theres too many goal in life...i need to start from below again.i dont wanna be like last time.2 weeks is so fast 4 me.its damn fast....but i dont think i had enuff rest in this two weeks time.hmm...
u noe sumthing???now,i realise,there is no need of looking for love...its not important at all.i must learn how to love myself first before i love sumone.Nisa wants me to get to know his friend,sum1 wants to talk to me..another one asking out for a date...but me??? haiz,better not.Maybe,my heart is close 4 guys now!!! When the right time came,then it will open.i just dont want the past things happen again in my life.I've wasted my time on him.i wish him all the best.im really wasting time.So now,i'll forget all those things,family is more important and i need to help my poor dad.Now i realise how much he sacrifice 4 me and our family.Although he doesnt show his love care and concern towards me but,he still the best father.i wander if i get sumone who really can support me and my child next time.i want the 5 of us to be back together like a happy family,and im the one who have to change and solve the whole things.i need to wash up and go buy some food,c u yar! 5 days to go!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:19 AM
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
I've been enjoying my day watching tv after get back from JB! When to buy thing at JB,as usual i bought magazins,vcds and food.. erm! raining today!there's still no response from the job i applied last week. thursday...haiz!!! Ssob..sob! im just sad... so,tomorrow i have to find another new job since they didnt called me. hmm...Its gona be two weeks after i dont work.After 3 and half years i,ve been working all day..Since january 2002 while waiting for my results.Then,nisa also i dont know whether she did sent the REsume or not..haiz!! i cant wait for her... i have to do sumthing for the job want.I'll try tomorow..need to start a new life next monday! Im still upset y my fren from ite didnt even msg me.. wow! she really "busy" lady huh??? its so great!! haiz....let her be... people change,we cant do anything then.I need to continue reading my novel... C ya!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:41 PM
Monday, July 18, 2005
u will sumhow notice my blog i full of the meaning of luv. im jut curious,wants to noe more bout luv..i even find poems,and website from nets bout "love"! Sikit masa lalu,aku mencintai sesorang.Tulus dari hati ku ini,ikhlas.Tak pernah memaksa,ia datang dengan sekelip mata,di hati yang bersih suci ini.
"Jika kita kehilangan cinta, maka pasti ada alasan di sebaliknya. Alasan yang kadang sulit untuk dimengerti, namun kita tetap harus percaya bahawa ketika Ia mengambil sesuatu, Ia telah siap memberi yang lebih baik."
hmmm....kenapa kita mesti menangis kerana cinta??Pelikkan?? hmm...Cinta hadir dari dalam hati, cinta bukan untuk dipermainkan.
jika ia dipermainkan,i akan punah dan pedih tak terkata.When i read those comments on "CINTA",almost everyone says,"Cinta itu INDaH"!!sum says,"Cinta tanpa pengertian satu sama lain bagai mengundang perang dalam damai.."and........ mostly says,"luvs is a gift from god,a feeling that no one can actually explain.." yang aku tahu...Cinta itu Anugerah tuhan,and i believe everyone will met their love sumhow,sumday.
"Cinta tumbuh dari mata turun kehati, lalu mengalir keseluh tubuh dan pada akhirnya menjadi bagian dari hidup."
no word can describe love....
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:51 PM
WORDS TO LIVE BY...
Anger is a condition in which the tongue works faster than the mind.
You can't change the past, but you can ruin the present by worrying over the future.
Love ......and you shall be loved.
God always gives His best to those who leave the choice with Him.
All people smile in the same language.
A hug is a great gift..one size fits all. It can be given for any occasion and it's easy to exchange.
Everyone needs to be loved...especially when they do not deserve it.
The real measure of a man's wealth is what he has invested in eternity.
Laughter is God's sunshine.
Everything has beauty but not everyone sees it.
It's important for parents to live the same things they teach.
Thank God for what you have, TRUST GOD for what you need.
If you fill your heart with regrets of yesterday and the worries of tomorrow, you have no today to be thankful for.
Happy memories never wear out....relive them as often as you want.
Home is the place where we grumble the most, but are often treated the best.
Man looks at outward appearance but the Lord looks within.
The choice you make today will usually affect tomorrow.
Take time to laugh for it is the music of the soul.
If anyone speaks badly of you, live so none will believe it.
Patience is the ability to idle your motor when you feel like stripping your gears.
Love is strengthened by working through conflicts together.
The best thing parents can do for their children is to love each other.
Harsh words break no bones, but they do break hearts.
To get out of a difficulty, one usually must go through it.
We take for granted the things that we should be giving thanks for.
Love is the only thing that can be divided without being diminished.
Happiness is enhanced by others but does not depend upon others.
You are richer today if you have laughed, given or forgiven.
For every minute you are angry with someone, you lose 60 seconds of happiness that you can never get back.
Do what you can, for who you can, with what you have, and where you are.
The best gifts to give:
To your friend - loyalty;
To your enemy - forgiveness;
To your boss - service;
To a child - a good example;
To your parents - gratitude and devotion;
To your mate - love and faithfulness;
To all men and women - charity;
To your God - your life.
May God Bless You And Keep You Safe
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:15 PM
i've learned-that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved. The rest is up to them.
I've learned- that no matter how much I care, some people just don't care back.
I've learned- that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it.
I've learned- that it's not what you have in your life but who you have in your life that counts.
I've learned- that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you'd better know something.
I've learned- that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do.
I've learned- that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.
I've learned- that it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.
I've learned- that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them.
I've learned- that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.
I've learned- that either you control your attitude or it controls you.
I've learned- that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.
I've learned- that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.
I've learned- that money is a lousy way of keeping score.
I've learned- that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.
I've learned- that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up.
I've learned- that sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.
I've learned- that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.
I've learned- that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.
I've learned- that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.
I've learned- that you should never tell a child their dreams are unlikely or outlandish. Few things are more humiliating, and what a tragedy it would be if they believed it.
I've learned- that your family won't always be there for you. It may seem funny, but people you aren't related to can take care of you and love you and teach you to trust people again. Families aren't biological.
I've learned- that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.
I've learned- that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you are to learn to forgive yourself.
I've learned- that no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesn't stop for your grief.
I've learned- that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.
I've learned- that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.
I've learned- that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.
I've learned- that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.
I've learned- that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.
I've learned- that no matter how you try to protect your children, they will eventually get hurt and you will hurt in the process.
I've learned- that your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.
I've learned- that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help.
I've learned- that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.
I've learned- that the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon.
I've learned- that it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe .
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:01 PM
I know,i did so many wrong things in life.Somtimes,i find myself silly!but then...that is me and i have to accept it.I never had the best time with my life.Most of the time im by myself.No one were there for me.No one can make me happy.I can say i got almost more than thousand of friends in this wide world but yet,no one i can trust,no one can make me happy,enjoy and no one i can talk to.nothing in my life is Exciting!I never get the attention i always want.The luv that i need.The family that i can be proud of,the Friends that i can count on,the Teachers that i can learnt from,the managers that i can consider as my idol..NO!!! theres no one i can reach! No luv from a man...even my dad.Coz,he's totally busy with work to support me and my family.My two brothers???hahaha,No use man!
a man who luvs me?? none..theres no guy who can be there for me when im in need .. I only had mum! but sumtimes,mum also angry with me.. im very stubborn person! well,i dont even care... one day mybe theres sumone who can be the one i really need aand the one who really need me in his life.i Belief,god had arranged my life like this and i belief he will reward me someone special in my life.
just be patient and go on with life as per normal.. God is always by my side.Peace!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:11 AM
Sunday, July 17, 2005
Words To Live By
Anger is a condition in which the tongue works faster than the mind.
You can't change the past, but you can ruin the present by worrying over the future.
Love ......and you shall be loved.
God always gives His best to those who leave the choice with Him.
All people smile in the same language.
A hug is a great gift..one size fits all. It can be given for any occasion and it's easy to exchange.
Everyone needs to be loved...especially when they do not deserve it.
The real measure of a man's wealth is what he has invested in eternity.
Laughter is God's sunshine.
Everything has beauty but not everyone sees it.
It's important for parents to live the same things they teach.
Thank God for what you have, TRUST GOD for what you need.
If you fill your heart with regrets of yesterday and the worries of tomorrow, you have no today to be thankful for.
Happy memories never wear out....relive them as often as you want.
Home is the place where we grumble the most, but are often treated the best.
Man looks at outward appearance but the Lord looks within.
The choice you make today will usually affect tomorrow.
Take time to laugh for it is the music of the soul.
If anyone speaks badly of you, live so none will believe it.
Patience is the ability to idle your motor when you feel like stripping your gears.
Love is strengthened by working through conflicts together.
The best thing parents can do for their children is to love each other.
Harsh words break no bones, but they do break hearts.
To get out of a difficulty, one usually must go through it.
We take for granted the things that we should be giving thanks for.
Love is the only thing that can be divided without being diminished.
Happiness is enhanced by others but does not depend upon others.
You are richer today if you have laughed, given or forgiven.
For every minute you are angry with someone, you lose 60 seconds of happiness that you can never get back.
Do what you can, for who you can, with what you have, and where you are.
The best gifts to give: To your friend - loyalty;
To your enemy - forgiveness;
To your boss - service;
To a child - a good example;
To your parents - gratitude and devotion;
To your mate - love and faithfulness;
To all men and women - charity;
To your God - your life.
May God Bless You And Keep You Safe
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|10:12 PM
Anger is a condition in which the tongue works faster than the mind.
You can't change the past, but you can ruin the present by worrying over the future.
Love ......and you shall be loved.
God always gives His best to those who leave the choice with Him.
All people smile in the same language.
A hug is a great gift..one size fits all. It can be given for any occasion and it's easy to exchange.
Everyone needs to be loved...especially when they do not deserve it.
The real measure of a man's wealth is what he has invested in eternity.
Laughter is God's sunshine.
Everything has beauty but not everyone sees it.
It's important for parents to live the same things they teach.
Thank God for what you have, TRUST GOD for what you need.
If you fill your heart with regrets of yesterday and the worries of tomorrow, you have no today to be thankful for.
Happy memories never wear out....relive them as often as you want.
Home is the place where we grumble the most, but are often treated the best.
Man looks at outward appearance but the Lord looks within.
The choice you make today will usually affect tomorrow.
Take time to laugh for it is the music of the soul.
If anyone speaks badly of you, live so none will believe it.
Patience is the ability to idle your motor when you feel like stripping your gears.
Love is strengthened by working through conflicts together.
The best thing parents can do for their children is to love each other.
Harsh words break no bones, but they do break hearts.
To get out of a difficulty, one usually must go through it.
We take for granted the things that we should be giving thanks for.
Love is the only thing that can be divided without being diminished.
Happiness is enhanced by others but does not depend upon others.
You are richer today if you have laughed, given or forgiven.
For every minute you are angry with someone, you lose 60 seconds of happiness that you can never get back.
Do what you can, for who you can, with what you have, and where you are.
The best gifts to give: To your friend - loyalty;
To your enemy - forgiveness;
To your boss - service;
To a child - a good example;
To your parents - gratitude and devotion;
To your mate - love and faithfulness;
To all men and women - charity;
To your God - your life.
May God Bless You And Keep You Safe
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|10:10 PM
Love has multiple aspects.It manifests Itself as care, tenderness, devotion, self-sacrifice.Belief in one self...
Love never forces. Love is intelligent and brings only what you need.
The awakening of true love lies in finding peace within passion and passion within peace.To feel beauty is to know that truth. To know the truth is to be in love.Two souls pretend to be separate for the sheer joy of coming together in love.The highest expression of love is creativity.Love doesn't need reason. It speaks from the irrational wisdom of the heart.A heart that has learned to trust can be at rest in the world.
Love is attention without judgement. In its natural state, attention only appreciates.Love is the beginning of the journey, its end and the journey itself.Love is like water. If it doesn't flow, it stagnates.The mind judges what is good or bad. Love brings only good.
Well,to me....the heart cant lie how much u love and care 4 sumone!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|6:28 AM
Saturday, July 16, 2005
i get this article...from sumbody blog..hehehe
maybe u have read it in english words but this is malay words...
so lets c....
Bercinta memang mudah, untuk dicintai juga memang mudah. Tapi untuk dicintai oleh orang yang kita cintai itulah yang sukar diperoleh. Jika saja kehadiran cinta sekedar untuk mengecewakan, lebih baik cinta itu tak pernah hadir.
Cinta adalah keabadian... dan kenangan adalah hal terindah yang pernah dimiliki.Siapapun pandai menghayati cinta, tapi tak seorangpun pandai menilai cinta karena cinta bukanlah suatu objek yang bisa dilihat oleh kasat mata, sebaliknya cinta hanya dapat dirasakan melalui hati dan perasaan.
Cinta mampu melunakkan besi, menghancurkan batu, membangkitkan yang mati danmeniupkan kehidupan padanya serta membuat budak menjadi pemimpin. Inilah dahsyatnya cinta..
Cinta kepada harta artinya bakhil, cinta kepada perempuan artinya alam, cinta kepada diri artinya bijaksana, cinta kepada mati artinya hidup dan cinta kepada Tuhan artinya Takwa.
Jangan simpan kata-kata cinta pada orang yang tersayang sehingga dia meninggal dunia lantaran akhirnya kamu terpaksa catatkan kata-kata cinta itu pada pusaranya. Sebaliknya ucapkan kata-kata cinta yang tersimpan dibenakmu itu sekarang selagi ada hayatnya. Mungkin Tuhan menginginkan kita bertemu dan bercinta dengan orang yang salah sebelum bertemu dengan orang yang tepat, kita harus mengerti bagaimana berterima kasih atas kurniaan tersebut.
Friendship is Continuous
Saya belajar, bahwa saya tidak dapat memaksa orang lain mencintai saya.
Saya hanya dapat melakukan sesuatu untuk orang yang saya cintai..
Saya belajar, bahwa butuh waktu bertahun-tahun untuk membangun kepercayaan dan hanya beberapa detik saja untuk menghancurkannya....
Saya belajar, bahwa sahabat terbaik bersama saya dapat melakukan banyak hal dan kami selalu memiliki waktu terbaik...
Saya belajar, bahwa orang yang saya kira adalah orang yang jahat, justru adalah orang yang membangkitkan semangat hidup saya kembali serta orang yang begitu perhatian pada saya...
Saya belajar, bahwa persahabatan sejati senantiasa bertumbuh walau dipisahkan oleh jarak yang jauh, Beberapa diantaranya melahirkan cinta sejati....
Saya belajar, bahwa jika seseorang tidak menunjukkan perhatian seperti yang saya inginkan, bukan berarti bahwa dia tidak mencintai saya....
Saya belajar, bahwa saya harus belajar mengampuni diri sendiri dan orang lain...kalau tidak mau dikuasai perasaan bersalah terus-menerus...
Saya belajar, bahwa lingkungan dapat mempengaruhi pribadi saya, tapi saya harus bertanggung jawab untuk apa yang saya telah lakukan..
Saya belajar bahwa dua manusia dapat melihat sebuah benda, tapi kadang dari sudut pandang yang berbeda...
Saya belajar, bahwa tidaklah penting apa yang saya miliki tapi yang penting adalah siapa saya ini sebenarnya...
Saya belajar, bahwa tidak ada yang instant atau serba cepat di dunia ini, semua butuh proses dan pertumbuhan, kecuali saya ingin sakit hati...
Saya belajar bahwa saya harus memilih apakah menguasai sikap dan emosi atau sikap dan emosi itu yang menguasi diri saya...
Saya belajar, bahwa saya punya hak untuk marah, tetapi itu bukan berarti saya harus benci dan berlaku bengis....
Saya belajar, bahwa kata-kata manis tanpa tindakan adalah saat perpisahan dengan orang yang saya cintai...
Saya belajar, bahwa orang-orang yang saya kasihi justru sering diambil segera dari kehidupan saya...
Saya belajar, bahwa saya harus belajar dari kesalahan yang pernah saya lakukan dan hidup untuk masa depan, bukan terus-menerus melihat ke masa lampau..
Saya belajar, bahwa cinta itu memberi dan mengerti tanpa harus diberi dan dimengerti..
Saya belajar, bahwa apa yang kita inginkan tidak selalu sesuai dengan apa yang kita butuhkan, dan kita harus berlapang dada menerimanya..
Saya belajar, bahwa dengan berterima kasih pada Tuhan, maka Ia akan memberi rahmat lebih banyak lagi..
Saya belajar, bahwa saya harus tidak boleh berhenti belajar...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|10:32 AM
Errmmm.....
i lost my money again!! how cum???
$50 bucks!!!
i was inside the bus while talking to my mum and auntie busu,
then,suddenly,after getting down the bus,we when to
POSB to deposit sum money...
i didnt realise that my book is not there!
oh gosh....!! where the HeLL is it??
y must it be me again??
oh shit... i think i left it inside the bus!!
Mystery...macam ToYOL gitu amek! hahahaha
im SAD n my heart i So Pain...
Stress aku memikirkannya....
aku dahlah takde duit!
takde keje sekarang....
ooooouuhh...y again??
erkkkk... nothing is impossible,
if GOD said,hilang,hilang aje...
no one can stops....
orang yang Dapat tu beruntunglah yer...
then..i think again.. is this a test for me??
yes!! it is... well,Lucky i didnt CRY tis time..
Ujian tuhan terhadap hambanya..iaitu "aku"
die mahu tengok aku nie sabar tak??
tkpelah....duit bukan boleh di bawa mati pun...
masuk KUBUR semua tinggal..
yang ada hanya IBADAT yang telah di kumpulkan...
semasa didunia...
weeeehhhhheeeeeee.......
Assalammualaikum...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|9:00 AM
Friday, July 15, 2005
KENAPA AKU DIUJI?
"Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan;
"Kami telah beriman," sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? Dan sesungguhnya kami telah menguji org2 yg sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui org2 yg benar dan sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui org2 yg dusta."
-Surah Al-Ankabut ayat 2-3
KENAPA AKU TAK DAPAT APA YG AKU IDAM-IDAMKAN?
"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui."
-Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216
KENAPA UJIAN SEBERAT INI?
"Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya."
-Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 286
RASA FRUST?
"Jgnlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan jgnlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah org2 yg paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu org2 yg beriman."
- Surah Al-Imran ayat 139
BAGAIMANA HARUS AKU MENGHADAPINYA?
"Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Bersabarlah kamu (menghadapi segala kesukaran dalam mengerjakan perkara-perkara yang berkebajikan), dan kuatkanlah kesabaran kamu lebih daripada kesabaran musuh, di medan perjuangan), dan bersedialah (dengan kekuatan pertahanan di daerah- daerah sempadan) serta bertaqwalah kamu kepada Allah supaya, kamu berjaya (mencapai kemenangan)."
-Surah Al-Imran ayat 200
"Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk"
-Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 45
APA YANG AKU DAPAT DRPD SEMUA INI?
"Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli dr org2 mu'min, diri, harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga utk mereka... ..
-Surah At-Taubah ayat 111
KEPADA SIAPA AKU BERHARAP?
"Cukuplah Allah bagiku, tidak ada Tuhan selain drNya. Hanya kepadaNya aku bertawakkal."
-Surah At-Taubah ayat 129
AKU TAK DAPAT TAHAN!!!
"... ..dan jgnlah kamu berputus asa dr rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa dr rahmat Allah melainkan kaum yg kafir."
-Surah Yusuf ayat 12
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|4:17 PM
Tentang Dia
Melly Goeslaw Ft VJ Evan - Tentang Dia
Sehitam langit di angkasa
Yang mendung memurungkan bumi
Takutku ke masa yang lalu
Menorehkan luka dalam hati
Kekasih yakini cintaku
Disinilah cintaku berlabuh
Perjalanan mencari jawaban
Berakhir karam dihatimu
Cerita cinta anak remaja
Menggauli kidung kasih
Punahkah takut dihati
Terkutuklah bila kita berpisah
Selamanya harus bersama
Buktikan kita bahagia
Tentang dia tak perlu kau risau
Lagu cinta hanya untuk kita
Dan kini tidur ku tersenyum
Oh gadis aku cinta padamu
Tentang dia jangan pernah terlupa
Biar menjadi cerita
Di balik cerita kita
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|4:04 PM
When all the way to find job at Bodyshop..b4 that i went to Quality hotel..i still have to wait for their call.hmmm...lets just wait and pray hard i get either one.When i enter Bodyshop office, bit shocking wen the place is so grand and beautiful.So big n quite a new place...clean environment! haiz....that if only i get the position there as a sales advisor and then i get what i really want!
Then...the hotel i ty as F&B server..u noe,my life is always F&B and now..i wanted to try this line in the hotel...but i put my first priority to bodyshop of course.hmmm....lets wait and waitlah kay??
Im getting thinner but then...still not yet up to my standard.. i still got far to go now! hmmm....Dont give up yati!
oh yar...my fren from TCC Aisha,sudah pun mengandung.hehehe....all the best to u my fren!She carrying the baby for 5 month now.kak Nani,aku rasa round that time too...DEwi?? i not sure... then on my way to City hall,i saw Suhana n her husband! shes so seri..hehe! maklumlah..dah kawin per.. Rohaizan i think pun da ader anak... Hamizah??pun da ngandung kot?Shereen?? latest she werking at Carlton hotel..oohh god!! 7 of my frens have get married..and one is engaged tht is Siti.so fast...Who's number 8??hahahaha,kau biler??? wkakaa,im not gona married now and at this age..its too early and i want to enjoy life still.but then....if lets say da sampai seru dan jodoh aku untuk bernikah..aku terima jer.but then,So far belum ader calon,insyallah...aderlah tu nanti akan datang! klah... i wanna watch tv. blog agin lter with more stories...hehehe,peace!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|12:47 PM
Thursday, July 14, 2005
Sedikit masa dahulu,kita bersama menyaksikan bintang di langit..ada 3 bintang yang kau sukai...kerana ia amat cantik dan mengkagumkan..Aku? aku suka merenung ke laut...kerana laut begitu tenang dan selalu dipukul ombak seperti kehidupan aku yang tak menentu ini.kita riang ketawa,senyum simpul...ternyata senyuman di bibir kita itu tidak pudar...terlalu banyak cerita yang perlu dinyatakn setiap kali pertemuan kita..kita rapat seperti unggas... kesana kemari berdua dan sama-sama sedih mengingati kenangan silam...
rahsia disebalik rahsia kita kongsikan bersama...terlalu manis ketika itu...kini,kau dan aku membuat haluan masing2..
kau sibuk dengan sekolahmu...mungkin terlalu penat hingga kita tak dapat bersama serpeti dulu berkongsi cerita...aku doakan semoga kau bahagia disamping teman2 barumu dan keluargamu..Terima kasih temanku!
..........that is for a fren in ite who is close to me...hmm! well, i miss my school days and my school frens...but i hate reading books for exams and theories! i only luv,practical...that is where i cud practice and learn at the same spot.haizz.... its hard to find a true best fren in life.No one in particular...and no one ever is my best fren in life..i live in this world,all by my own supported by my parents and here i am,alone in this place called earth with my own life... challenge for me to start over a new world! turn over new leaf...this is my life,alone now,today,tomorow and forever...
p/S:Time Is Only A Visible Distance Away From Life And Death, But Love Is An Eternal Solemn
HAppy 37th Anniversary Mum and Dad!!
MaY god bless u 2!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|3:21 PM
im planning for my own future now..after i get job,im gona try my best to stay put,and then....after 2 years..when i get enuff money,im going to study..to Msia 4 a diploma..i wanted to have a diploma too like my other frens but,im taking a diploma at malaysia.hmm...hopefully! by that time,im gon be 23 n by 25 or 26 i already graduate n hold a cert..terus,aku boleh keja tetap dalam bidang yang aku minat..Hotel!then..i wait for my frens to get married ...dapat kad jemputan from them,makan nasi minyak! hahaha.
yang aku pulak??belum lagi nak kawin..hahaha coz i just wanted to start with my new career..hmm!
yesterday,Nisa mimpi aku...she said.. she get married and sanding atas pelamin..terus,i look so sweet,jambu and pretty.Very slim too n there,i becum her pengapit! tak disangka,Sharul was there n sharul saw me..he was so shocked to see my changes..then,Rashid kenyit mata dekat Sharul,giving him a hint to tackle me back..hahahha! yang aku pulak malu-malu ajer. i was laughing all the way wen she told me that...what a dream! mimpi itu mainan tido sajer...jadi atau tidak...kita belum tahu lagi. well.....lets c then..
Malaz pulak nak keje eh!kene carik lagi..then kene pegi keje lagi, aku dah tolak tawaran kerja Cheers dengan pacific coffee..but then, im still finding for a full time job now that i can stay long! i dun wanna run animore like all those past job! haiz....rezeki aku ditangan tuhan...aku hanya mencari,dier yang menentukannyer...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|9:16 AM
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
Masuk 7 hari aku tak keje! masa berlalu cepat sekali..rasa macam semalam je aku berenti.hmm,takpe,sekarang masanya untuk beristirehat dulu sebelum keje betul2 lagi.entahlah ..aku taktau apa aku nak buat sekrg nie..enjoy life first??no money pulak..hhmmm!!
Sumtimes,aku heran dengan manusia,mereka kerja dengan gaji seribu lebih setiap bulan tetapi tiada duit.kenapa??tkkan tak ada wang simpanan langsung?nie kadang2 nak makan pun kene pinjam orang atau terus cakap tak ada duit.entah lah eh...duit tak akan bawa kita kemana.kita mati duit semua tinggal..that time i listen to this ustaz saying,"beli apa yang kita perlu bukan apa yang kita ingin.jangan boros,jangan membazir" i learn from this ustaz from indonesia. now,i noe how the life of being sederhana.We dont need all the things that we must not have.we dont have to waste money to buy them..we just buy the important things.money can kill u... yesh!!
money cant buy anything especially love..i luv myself now.i learn all this tru my life journey before i reach 21 soon....hmm! god,help me...i need ur guide towards my life as a muslim lady.i need u to help me through my path n journey in the future.i need u god...one and only ALLAH S.W.T!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:01 PM
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Kita diberi kesempatan untuk mencari
apa yang perlu dicari..
Selagi kita membuka mata...
carilah apa yang perlu dicari...
carilah hari ini
kerana belum tahu lagi esok itu ada..
bersyukurlah dengan apa yang kita ada..
kerana semunya datang dari yang esa...
dialah penentu segalanya,
dialah pemberi dan pencipta nikmat seluruh alam..
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|11:15 AM
hai...bosannyer!! nak masuk seminggu aku tak keje nie..hmm,but quite great coz i've been relaxing at home now..cume no money lor!! no werk no money man...ish..boringnyer!! kat mane rezeki aku erk?? hanya tuhan yang tahu...herm...july nie will be a relaxing month for me but stressful month too...my mind thinking of jobs n jobs,werk n werk only!hahaha..need a big change in life of course!! how eh??? where shall i go for my bdae on this 25th?? hish!! im getting old! but i learn a lotz...im so thankful to god 4 what he had given me...
just now,met nisa for a while at jurong east then when to rashid house to accompany nisa,while waiting for visiting rashid at 12noon..rashid was admitted to hospital becos there's 3 malay guys bit him up! forgodness sake..what happen to this people??? i dun noe what to say animore...ntahlah.supposed i shud follow rashid n nisa shud accompany me to watch the soccer game at bukit timah yesterday so i can c that idiot guy,but too bad..i didnt n im still not feeling well.next time the truth will be reveal to u idiot..hahaha..well, i hope nisa n rashid will last foreva...luv u my both frens!thanks for everything!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|9:03 AM
Monday, July 11, 2005
di saat itu....
Saat itu...
aku merasakan kehilangan yang teramat sangat..
Dia pergi jauh dari sudut hati yang tulus ini
perasaanku duka,perit,hiba dan terluka
membuatkan aku lemah sekali disisi..
Saat itu...
aku mengalah,aku kalah..
Dia berlalu,meninggalkan aku keseorangan..
perasaanku mula patah...hilang segalanya..
membuatkan aku sedih menelan onak duri yang tajam..
yang telah meragut nyawa...
Saat itu,
aku harus pergi...meninggalkan dia...
meninggalkan perasaan yang jauh
aku pendamkan di dalam dada..
Aku kemudian hilang pertimbangan...
aku kemudian hilang kepercayaan...
aku berlari jauh...
aku mencari arah...
aku pergi jauh...
agar dia tak dapat mencariku dan menjejakiku lagi...
Saat itu...
aku bangkit bangun dari keperitan hidup..
aku gembira walau hidupku kosong..
aku mencari erti cinta sebenar...
dan kini...
aku amat kenal dengan ertinya Cinta
Cinta perlukan persefahaman...
cinta perlukan lafaz...
cinta perlu kejujuran...
cinta perlu pengorbanan
cinta amat indah...
hanya insan yg ikhlas
akan memiliki cinta sejati...
Cinta tak perlu dipaksa...
kerna ia lahir dari hati budi yang suci...
Sedarilah bahawa cinta itu akan datang dengan sendirinya...
tanpa kita mengetahui bila ia akan muncul dalam hati...
Rekaan yati...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:50 PM
Kesedihan,tidak pernah membiarkan kebahagiaan
datang Sendirian ke hidup manusia..
padahal kita seringkali tak cukup persediaan
untuk menikmatinya bersama....
Begitu banyak rasa sakit dan
kehilangan di dalam hidup aku..
padahal hidup terlalu singkat
untuk semua perasaan itu..
Beruntunglah manusia yang tahu
apa yang mereka carik..
dan diberi cukup waktu untuk mencari
kerana aku tak cukup masa untuk itu..
Bahkan untuk sekadar mengetahui apa yang aku cari!
Kau pergi kerna kekejaman..
mereka yang menyebut dirinya ayah dan ibu
kau pergi kerana aku
tak dapat menjagamu..
maafkan aku adikku
Kamu boleh tak percaya dengan orang..
tapi tak percayakan orang yang
sayang kamu dengan tulus itu berbeza
itu sama maknanya dengan pengkhianatan...
dan itu menyakitkan...
ada satu hal yang perlu kamu
tahu tentang aku
aku cuma tak mahu kehilangan lagi...
From indon movie "tentang dia..."
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|12:02 PM
Sunday, July 10, 2005
IM SICK!!! haiyoyoyo...today woke up n dunno y my eyes,both eyes very pain,Swollen sey!!macam anak cina jepun mcm tuh lah...hahhaa! eeeee.... tak lawa sey!buruk sekali muka aku nie!erksss...hahaha! lucky my mum is by my side always!foreva n ever.....my mum,mummy n ibu!she's the light of my life..the new heart for me to grow to a new world...i luv u my mother! i luv u too dad...
when to Punggol with mum tadi..,cik Kamariah punye cucu cukur jambul. Cute baby tu...erm,u noe sumthing?? The punggol houses is damn nice but...the place is so ulu..n lots of houses are still empty waiting for people to buy..then,a lot of place are still like hutan terpencil..hmmmphh!ader anjing n even the LRT tade orang sangat tau..punyelah seram tu tempat kalau malam2..tasik sane sini.. ish...tak mu ar tinggal saner.. Woodlands is more better! punggol eh? agaknyer 10 tahun akan datang baru rumah2 kat saner akan ramai orang,akan jadi bandar terkenal macam kat wdls...tampines,bedok and Chua chu kang kot??then....time aku kawin aku kawin dengan orang yang beli rumah kat punggol?eh??? hahha....ish..jauh siak! not convenience to me...akan datang aku taktau pulak! nevermind lar eh...
aku tau aku nak tinggal...JB!
oh yar...i wanna relax till end of the month now...till i turn 21 now...hmm,better lar...stay home first now.look for permanent job!
oh yar...he msg me,i dun think im gona reply...no yati! plz!!! never!
hahha.... he will only make u tink of the past! ape yang jadi semuanya kebetulan...yesh! memang kebetulan!dun wanna talk bout him...i wanna rest..my eyes getting painful n worst!aku nk demam nie!god must hate me for the things i've done b4.. k lah..bubye!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:00 PM
is it hard to forget a person who u dun like b4?
y must u ask me how am i went u dun even care bout me?
y shud u ask me where im werking when u dun even need me?
u dun even have to noe where i werk...
u dun even have to noe how am i now....
u are blind man..
i dun need u anymore.....
thanks 4 everything...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:09 AM
Just finish eating Durian in the morning as my breakfast! hahaha...then mAnggis n LAngsaT.u noe lah,akunyer orang nie hantu buah!! buah-buahan ape je depan mata,aku ngap...memang patut duduk kampung dengan makcik2 aku kat msia tuh!hehehe
How??Shud i go or shud i just leave it like that?Erm.... Airport,Damn far!but.....Duno eh!aargghhh..shud i stay home,relax without working and just find and find for job??Shud i??? if theres man who wanna pinang me,hui...kan best!wakakaka...joking aar! im not into relationship for now,n i dun have any feeling for anyone anymore now.isnt it great???alone is better than having sum1..kita sendiri tiada siapa yang kacau..bila kita tiada kekasih ia lebih mulia kerana kita tidak menyakiti manusia atau tidak disakiti manusia pun...kerana kita tidak menganggu orang lain dalam hidup ini.hmm!!what do u think??be myself,alone,no one disturb me..no enemy,no one angry with me too...what i noe,u dun like,u tell..as simple as that but we tell them properly coz,people have feelings.me?? i do have feelings and i hate the feeling of luv..i had enuff of luv to other people but my luv never been return ...
that is part of life..just bb!! true luv will approach me one day.
oopppss.....its gona be 2 weeks more b4 i get into 21!!!damn fast man! and i think....years of being 20 is the most wasted years i have in life! i've been changing jobs,i have been heart broken by......AND ITS BEEN VERY THOUGH MOMENT FOR ME! i hate this 20 years old life..but i really get a lot of experience in life..the journey to 21 is so painful....too many ups and down! i'm very upset too.
thinking what will i be next???i really dunno man...i noe this is part of growing up but y????? y must be me who always have this feeling??? this problems???y must me?? i dunno..... only god noes y!
i need to think of today,tomorow,the next day,and the day cuming in the future..........i hate myself for all the stupid things i had done!! peace.....
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|3:08 AM
Saturday, July 09, 2005
pening!!haiz...sampai biler eh?dier nak jadi mcm nie??
aku hairan,bile dier nk ubah??ubah cara hidup dier?
hidup sebagai manusia berguna?mcm manusia biase?bile eh??
hmmm......ntahlah,aku sendiri tak pasti dgn dier.hati dier tak tetap lagi...duit ade,habis mcm tuh je.sedihnyer,tk abes2 mahu menyusahkan mak dan ayah!mcm tersiksa batin mereka...entahlah,ape bleh buat,puas sudah dicakap,tetap mcm tuh juga karenahnyer...i give up on him!!! hidup hanya sia-sia dengan .......
my eyes is so kuyu..ntah kenapa tibe2 mcm nie ajer mata aku nie.
tak cukup tdo semalam mungkin sebab aku sibuk baca novel yg aku nak habiskAn hari ini and i finally did..."saat cinta bersemi" tentang musuh yang akhirnya jatuh cinta antara satu sama lain...hmmm! musuh pun bleh jatuh cinta..nice novel..i luv it!!!! now im reding the next novel..."cinta pertama" from Norhayati berahim...ingat norhayati salleh tadi..!!hahahha..mimpi jer yati nie! ish.... besok mcm ner???weekends??where shud i end up my day?? shud i go to.......
hmmm,besok je aku tau.L'occitaine tk mungkin aku dapat!yelah aku nie bukannyer paham pasal beauty2 thingy!haizz.......... ntahlah... tgk jer,wait for kols!n saturday i noe,no one will kol coz its bz n im not important to them! gtg...chiao....
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:00 PM
eNTAH MENGAPA,AKU JADI BEGINI...sampai bila aku boleh menahan diri aku ini?im fed up!!! today is 8th of july n few more days to go...17 more days to go to my birthday!haiz...cepatnye masa berlalu..so damn fast!hahah...well,if i stay at Coffee club it would be 2 weeks soon.. but too bad,i dont like the environment there n i cant werk there!So boring man!!i cant adapt with the place either!! they selling pork too..i cant touch n i cant eat..of course!! aargghh...
hey...nisa kol me and ask bout the job she wanted me to join.Shipping coordinator???u tink i can?i dun noe..its totally different...actually,i hate to learn new thing!!i hate it!!! but what i can do...i have to learn...wateva it is,life still goes on n i have to learn from mistakes!its a challenge for me then...i will learn from those! i will! i need to pray...it been a few days i forget my prayers,not forget but no time n my body i too weak for that.im sorry god...aku berdosa,sin!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|9:00 AM
Dulu.....
aku kian lemah...
aku tk pernah membantah...
aku turutkan kata hati...
aku turutkan perasaan...
dulu..
aku yakin cinta aku akan bersemi..
aku yakin cinta aku akan berputik dihatinya...
aku yakin cinta aku akan dibalasnya..
namun....aku kalah!!!
aku hanya berharap pada yang tak sudi...
aku gagal...
aku lemah disisi nya..
kenapa???
Dulu
kaulah segalanya dalam hidupku...
kaulah permata hati...
kaulah impian aku untuk hidup...
kaulah putera yang aku hormati...
kaulah yang menceriakan ku...
kaulah yang menghapuskan
semua perasaan sedihku,resahku,payahku...
kaulah yang bertahta di hati...
kaulah yang teristimewa...
kaulah cinta hatiku...
kaulah segala-galanya...
dulu...
aku hanya mampu menangis...
aku hanya mampu bersedih...
aku hanya mampu berduka...
aku mencari arah ku...
aku kesepian...
aku janggal...
hatiku kosong!!
aku keseorangan sekarang!!!
tiada teman....
tiada siapa di hati..
tiada siapa bersimpati...
dan kini...
aku bangkit melupakan kau dalam ingatan.....
aku bangun menuju keinsafan...
aku bangun dengan semangat yang wajar
aku kini bangkit dari kelemahan...
aku kini bangkit dari kegagalan...
aku kini bangkit dari kesedihan...
aku kini yakin tak akan tewas lagik!!!!
aku yakin dengan perasaan aku ini.....
kerana aku Norhayati....
Cahaya seluruh hidupku....
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|7:36 AM
nak atau tidak?aku tk tau mcm ne skrg!dulu,aku penah mintak dan pernah dapat,tapi tak pernah masuk pun.tak pernah keje pun.i dunnoe what i shud do noW! errrrrr...is it gona be great werking at Airport??yesh,it is...gaji pada aku tak penting!yang penting ku dpt duit untuk belanja tiap2 bulan lah kan...agghh.....what shud i do now??dunno..empty!blank!my head never think of anything except my life as a lady who wanna be successful.but i dun think im gona go far from fnb line!!entahlah...rezeki aku hanya pada tuhan! rezeki ku dgn allah!
my life now is thinking of werk,werk,werk n werk! tats all!haiz...
sampai bilekah cita aku ini akan berakhir??sampai biler? hmm.....
ntahlah...aku tak tahu!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|7:14 AM
Thursday, July 07, 2005
Sendiri aku mengenang kehidupan,
Mencari arah dipertengahan jalan..
untuk keluar dari pelabuhan yang mencengkam jiwa..
tak kusangka dalam perjalanan sekali lagi
aku bertembung dengan manusia durjana
yang menghancurkan hatiku
menjadi punah ranah tak tentu arah..
aku kian sabar,tabah menghadapi dugaan ini
yang perit dan mencabar.
aku redha dan aku tahu apa yang terjadi ini
mempunyai makna tersembunyi....
Biarlah ku bersusah payah dahulu di dunia
yang penting akhirat ku tidak memusnahkan aku nanti...
ku tetap akan bahagia bersama kehidupan ku sekarang..
sememangnya kau memang lelaki yang buta segalanya...
terima kasih kerana kau membuka mata dan pikiranku..
kau juga ku ucapkan tahniah kerana menemui gadis baru
yang akan lebih merosakkan jiwa dan raga kau!!
itulah hakikatnya Sharul....!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:52 PM
aku sebenarnya ada impian,ada cita-cita dan harapan.aku ingin sekali mengejar cita-cita aku yang satu ini.aku hanya perlu perbaiki saja kata-kata aku yang aku buat.Jadi aku boleh maju kehadapan.Right now,im reading novel...novel yng ku beli kat JB larkin! tajuk novel dia "Saat Cinta bersemi.." from DAMYA hANNA..i luv novel especially malay novels.im learning from them..my aim is to be like them too one day.hopefully,my aim n my ambition will success...insyallah...
Right now,im gona cuti..cuti rehat lepas penat berkerja brape tahun sejak sekolah lagi.aku penat lah,nak pergi holiday ke,carik keje yang boleh menjamin masa depan aku,well, life is so stressful now...
when to isetan tadi and many people were queing for their turn! i came first but turn out to be the 2nd last! hehehe....one of this lady,eeee....so disgusting!pakai seluar pendek then digging her nose while waiting for her turn to be kol up!geli aku siak!! GELI!!! hahaha,when to Pacific coffee,Royal sporting house and sum others too...hehehe! dunno! lets c... im just tired..wanna rest!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:55 PM
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
Aku mula bosan dgn hidup skrg..keje saje tak mendatangkan hasil..i really feel like giving up!!almost n going to give up...i feel Real bored n very pressurised by him sumtimes! So stressful liao! then,the environment never happy,Never Smile,Never joke,never laugh!!
haiz...i just tahan,sabar je dgn dorg nie.Ape bleh buat kan?susah nk idup mcm nie tau.emu trainees..,mati ar mcm nie!hmm... hujung bulan gaji!hahaha,betul tak? erm...cant wait for 28!! Actually,i cant wait for 25th! for my bdae..yahhooo,yabeeddbbeedddoo!
Seow ar u yati??hehehe...
hey!aku dpt semangat from a fren...~"Dont curse him. If I were you, I'll be thankful to him. This is how we grow,you will end up like Anakin Sky Walker..Bersusah2 dahulu bersenang2 kemudian,forget about him and how you feel. For goodness sake.Remember, everything is fair but we do not comprehend.The war is not outside.It is inside..
Itulah "Jihat".If you think the enemy is outside. Then that is not "Jihad" but "Jahat" instead.Fight your own self. Your fear... your anger... your frustration...they're(mgrs) presured by their own superior.you must think like a manager to be a manager.Is that not what you want to achieve.If I were to train you, I will torture you to be the best. Thats the only way like "Electra".You must be realistic in a real world.Think like your manager.Learn whats in his mind.By letting the manager "tekan" you then you will see his motive."
Remember tis kay yati??thanks my fren for telling me...i'll try my best to go with tis!i will stay first..try again...the war will end one day...peace!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:29 PM
kemana dia menghilang eh??hairan sungguh aku..tk sangka...aku carik dgn titik peluh aku sendiri,tibe2 hilang mcm tuh jer..sedih!!! hati dan jiwa retak terluka..pilu hati ini.tk pernah AKU menangis mcm nie sekali bile kehilangan sesuatu yang datang dari titik peluhku sendiri!..pedih sungguh hati ini mengenang nasib aku yang tk kesampaian.."Duit" yang aku perlukan,dan yang aku carik...hilang begitu saje!! payah sungguh untuk aku lupakan! menangis aku..aku hilang benda yang bernilai,berharga... haaaaaaizz..........
hanya tuhan yang tahu mane letaknya "Duit" itu!! argghhh.... i really saD!! tk sangka!! tak kuduga!! ya tuhan!! kau saje maha mengetahui...hari ini ilang,hari esok kau kembalikannya padaku... insyallah!! sabar yati..hanya dgn sabar saje hidup kite akan tenang dan selamat! amin!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|11:44 AM
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
Manusia punya hati dan perasaan.tapi tak tahu menilai dan tak tahu merasa. antara berjuta manusia yang kita temu setiap hari...hanya segelintir saje yang tahu menilai hati budi seseorg insan..ada kalanya aku hairan kenapa manusia sebegitu rupa?Mereka punya hati untuk menilai perasaan tapi mereka tidak mengunakannya.mereka anggap insan lain tiada yang terasa...shits!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|11:22 AM
Monday, July 04, 2005
A'kum!!its my off day today..Too buzy that i cant even update my BLOG!So sorry..July will be the best month hopefully for me..Just now i when to Darul Ma'wa Openhouse.The ticket i bought From Las my ite fren last month.saw her too inside train,coincidence!Then i Go to Jb with mum.Tiring day too...reach home at 7+ in the evening.I did buy Vcd's,tudung,adidas bag,malay novel that is "saat Cinta Bersemi" a new novel for the month of july.there's few more novel but didnt hd enuff money to buy it,mybe next week when i went jb again lor..i luv reading novels especially malay novels. i luv it!!! tomorow will be 4th of july,so fast again...n i've started the job like 1 week already.next week also Sunday off and tomorow i werk morning!!.. hahaha...great!!
Lifes is better then last time for me...few months back im such a stupid lady! boring...moody! now im more better...my way to the finishing line is 80% done... 20 percent is still under process... coz...wen im on my way i bump into him accidentally...coincidencely
and its making me feel full of hatred! towards him...he is so happy but me??? i suffer all up and downs in my life.i learn tis and i remember this..."kita sama semuanya sama,apa yang ada hanyalah kehidupan.." hmm...betul tak??? akhir nanti kite akan mati juga,duni ini hanyalah sekadar pinjaman sahaja.Kehidupan hanya sebentar,tak usahlah kita mencari nikmat kehidupan di dunia ini,manakala kita lalai mengerjakan perintah kita di akhirat.Dunia ini adalah persinggahan kita sebelum kita menuju ke akhirat.Dunia tempat kita mencari rezeki,mencari jalan hidup untuk hari esok dan kejar akhirat.
dunia hanya melalaikan...yah!! aku pernah lalai dlm kehidupan dunia ini.Aku mengejar cinta pada seorang manusia yang tak menghargaiku,lantas meyakiti dan mengecewakan hatiku ini.aku kini sedar,Cinta sebenar adalah cinta pada tuhan allah yang esa..itulah cinta yang akan dibalas,cinta yang agung dan amat bermakna dan berharga!!.. im hoping to be the best lady as i can..Whats past is past...move on miss yati!! klah...taking care!! update again esok.
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:00 PM
Sunday, July 03, 2005
Its Me!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|11:32 PM
Hmm....kene pi keje later..in 1 half hr time till 3pm!Mesti bz eh..
bz giler...hahahaha! wteva it is,i just do my werk,get pay end of month!tapi..ish,bz tau!!penat jugak keje nie!Sumtimes,when i tink back...wen will i progress from tis line?? Food and beverage??haiz!
i werk under people only,when can i werk in a place where people is under me??Sighhh.................!! i just got my Polar pay!The thing is tat they Deduct my money!!!!!! $$230..wt e fuck! its ok....
well,if i get a better job and offer from other jobs or line,im sure im gonna move on...lets c...
Tuhanku,jauhkan aku dari segala malapetaka,kesusahan dan kepayahan di dunia ini..maafkan lah ku,berikan aku rezeki yang setimpal dengan kerja yang aku lakukan ini tuhan....janganlah kau susahkan kehidupanku,aku sabar dalam ape jua yang aku lakukan di dunia ini..
Demi allah,tuhanku,aku mencari rezeki yang halal demi membantu keluargaku dan diriku sendiri di masa hadapan...aku tabah dan aku bersyukur dengan apa saje dugaan yang menimpaku! Amin!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|4:26 AM
Friday, July 01, 2005
oh yeah!!!its JULY!!! half of the year gone!! helo...i've been bz this few daes.. u noelah,my job is very the bz place!!TOWN aREa MaN!!! What else??the best thing is dat..the two Overtime day is over! n yahoo.....left another day before my of day on Sunday! weehhee...actually,i just got back home at 1am!i supposed can be back home by 12 but i wait for my colleague thats H----! 20 Yrs old guy and he stay wdls..near Masjid An Nur there.He's from Ite Machperson taking Infocom like Anim!Not a bad guy lah,very frenly like those guys i noe from other job places!He do kitchen while i do the drinks at the bar...hmmm..Barista!! im proud to announce to u all im a "barista"! hahaha,fun u see!!! Then,bz outlet time Flies very fast!yesh!!! now...its gonna be Sunday! then next time,go topshop get 30% discount tau,the staff i just noe just now,Amin is one of them the staff!he's a mix guy!chinese malay man...now im thinking.....wen i get my pay??? for polar puff and cakes!Shit!!! AArrgghh...later in the morning im gona go collect my pay! by hook by crook,i must get! well,its fun werking in this kind of environment but tiring man! So far alhamdulilah...H----,U quiiting soon,tke gd care of urself my dear fren,be gud boy aite!! Cheers..........god bless u!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:32 PM
