Wednesday, April 13, 2005
The Day of Judgement (Qayamat)
When the earth shall suffer a tremouring quake.
When men will ask, what has made her shake?
When mountains will fly in the air like flake.
The sun will be lowered and the earth shall bake.
The day when a loud trumpet be sounded,
And all that is standing shall then be grounded.
With a bang so loud, the ears will be pounded.
With fright and fear, the hearts will be wounded.
It is the day of a very loud burst,
The day when mountains will scatter like dust,
These are the signs of the day of just,
And the day of just, its coming is a must.
The bones shall be taken out of the clay,
And then be assembled back on that day,
And then he be asked, on earth did he pray,
Khums and Zakaat if ever did he pay.
Each will be asked, what did you earn,
And all that you earned, how did you earn.
How much of Islam and Qur'an did you learn,
And how many beggars' back did you turn.
Questions will be asked on weight and scale,
Whether you deceived in trade and sale,
If money you conned by making some tale,
The breakers of law will dwell in Hell.
You will be shown your sins and your deeds,
How much you hoard and what was your need,
How many hungry stomachs did you feed,
And wealth that you made by means of greed.
Women will be asked, where was your veil
To cover up your hair, why did you fail,
Why you exposed unveiled to some male,
The guilty that day will burst into wale.
There will be faces, glorious and bright,
On reclined couches relaxed at a height,
And there will be faces filled with fright,
Exposed to heat, engulfed in plight.
A selfish soul will be the song of the day.
The guilty that day will have to say
Whatever he owed, he will have to pay,
Fifty thousand years will make one day.
To save yourself from being at odd,
Open up your Qur'an and listen to your God,
Say "Oh, God, you are my Lord,
Your faith in my heart is old and broad.
Merciful you are and also mercy giving,
Under your command are the dead and living.
Great you are, the great all knowing,
Glory be to you, Oh eternally living.
Oh my Lord, forgive me my sins,
After all I am, just a human being,
For getting your blessings, really I am keen,
From this moment onwards, I shall remain clean.
And from the bottom of my heart, this is what I mean,
'AL-HAMDO LILLAHE RABBIL AALAMEEN '.
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|12:19 PM
IF I WERE TO PASS AWAY
If I leave this earth and pass away
Grieve not over my departure and do pray
For life in this earth is only a temporary stay
For my time is up and my soul is called away.
Weep not too loudly when I'm deceased
Cry not too much if I'm dismissed
But pray for my safety so at least
I will not be in fear in the 'land of mist'
In the grave, I will be all alone
With my deeds which I have to atone
There isn't communication outside and no phone
I could either smile and relaxed or moan and groan
Just make a doa and say Al-Fatehah for me
To make it more bearable on my distant journey
Forgive my sins and make halal my debt if I have any
because my soul has departed from earth for eternity.
Don't be too grieved if I or anyone else dies
It's all Allah's Plan for He is All Wise
The separation is temporary and it may even be nice
With Allah's Grace, we may meet again, in Paradise
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|12:04 PM
Tujuh Hal Penting !
Barang siapa yang menghafal tujuh kalimat,
ia dipandang mulia di sisi Allah dan Malaikat serta diampuni dosa-dosanya walau sebanyak buih di laut.
1. Mengucap Bismillah pada tiap-tiap hendak melakukan sesuatu.
2. Mengucap Alhamdulillah pada tiap-tiap selesai melakukan sesuatu.
3. Mengucap Astagfirullah jika lidah terungkap perkataan yang tidak patut.
4. Mengucap Insya Allah jika merencanakan berbuat sesuatu di hari esok.
5. Mengucap La haula wala quwwata illa billah jika menghadapi sesuatu tak disukai dan tak diingini.
6. Mengucap Inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi rajiun jika menghadapi dan menerima musibah.
7. Mengucap La ilaha illa Allah Muhammad Rasulullah sepanjang siang malam sehingga tak terpisah dari lidahnya dari tafsir hanafi, mudah-mudahan ingat, walau lambat-lambat mudah mudahan selalu, walau sambil lalu mudah-mudahan jadi bisa, kerana sudah biasa.
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|12:00 PM
Suddenly,me n Nisa very the close..hmm..Heran jugak eh! aLL OF a sudden after me n her noe tat both the guys we noe are in the same camp..sumore very close!Well..behind everythings tat had happened,theres always a meaning babe!entahlah...aku taktahu pulak.. aku tahu..Allah ader disisi aku sekarang..he's been watching all tat had happened! erm...bagus lah kalau dpt kwn yg boleh ajak bebual n noes how to give u advice..i luv it! theres always sumone who noes how to help u wen ur in the situation tat u dunt even noe how to solve!So far,i found sumone who noes how to make me feel tat im not the only one whose feeling down!theres Sum1 out there who is worse then me..im ryte! mcm kak fizah??betapa nyer dier Tabah mengharungi kehidupannyer..tak sangka dipermainkan lelaki jahanam mcm dier?? azim! n now,sharul the other one who needs to be called Jantan Sundal..,!! ape2lah sharul...aku sedih dgn kau! patah hati dgn ape yg kau buat dah..aku msg pon kau tk Reply,bile kau perlukan aku..kau panggil aku sayang dan segalanyer! biler aku perlukan kau?? kau dimana?? kau bersama teman...kwn2 kau? matair kau kan???aku siapa?? tk pernah kau simpan aku dalam hati kau pun!!! damn it!
aku dah buat decision...after my lat msg "asking how r u,gud even!" im not gona msg u animore kay??? i will buat bodoh n go with the flow..im pissed off n i dun wana get involve in ur life! let it be..n tyme will cure n tuhan akan tunjukkan...insyallah!
Semalam im out with nisa...pegi makan,aku blanja! sekali sekala takpelah..then kau tahu,i go 4 the Coffee club interview again! where Frhan werk..ntah,i hope i get it! Holland village sey! alight at bouna vista n u will be there after 15 mins walk... after interview i went to mit niSa at bugis! kite makan mi Wantan,aku pulak puasa! saw tis baju punyelah lawa! butz....cant buy lah..waste money! never mine..hoping tat i get the job! aite???wel.......swensens,u're out of my list!!!! k lah..bubyyee....
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|11:37 AM
Setelah Aku Kau Miliki
Mereka lihat ku tersenyum
Gembira bagai tiada duka
Begitu indah dipandangan
Tapi hatiku keretakan bagai sinar
Purnama terang yang terbakar
Setelah aku kau miliki
Mana janjimu yang sejati
Segala bagai kiambang
Zahirnya nampak berkembangan
Akar tak jejak di dasaran
Terluka cintamu itu
( korus )
Jelmaan yang mendatang
Meragut menggoda
Membenam binasa cinta
Aku di genggaman
Engkau lepaskan
Kerna memburu khayalanmu
Yang menjanjikan
Rembulan keribaanmu
Engkau kehancuran
Tidakku mampu membencimu
Biarpun cuba ku lepaskan
Tapi rantaimu mengunciku
Di kota cinta jelmaanmu
Tidakku rela dibinasa
Bersama cintamu itu
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|8:30 AM
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Luka Dilukai
Kanan dan kiri Cuba berlari,Masih ku dihujani Tohmah dan caci...
Jangan sekali Aku diletak ke bawah Hanya kerana jalan Hidup yang susah,Tak siapa di antara Kita di dunia Memilih jalan hidup Yang derita..
Aku sering dipersenda Dan sering dikecewa Oleh hati mereka
Yang tak punya rasa!! Ingin ku mengecap bahagia
Padamu kasih yang menjanjikan setia,Namun belum sempat ku merasa
Mimpi yang di bina Hati mudah berdarah semula
Kerana dustanya...
Terhempas lagi,Kesekian kali,Luka yang dilukai,Menguji diri
Namun begitu Aku tabahkan semangat,Biar waktu merawat
Segalanya...
Sampai hati kau lukakan,Kesucian nilai cinta ini
Tanpa malam tanpa siang,Aku menantimu dengan hati-hati
Alasan yang kau beri padaku semalam,Menjadi awan
Bercucuran bertitisan,Di lautan tasik kerinduan
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|8:32 PM
Monday, April 11, 2005
Tadi bebual dgn Iskandar kejap..he ok lah!Suara boleh tahan sedap.. anak ketiga dari 4 adik beradik..he ask me out next sunday..24 yr old..hmm..kenal jerlah..dier da ajak kuar kuar jer,takkan aku nak menanti org yg tk sudikan??boring ar dgn dier jer..cari jer ramai teman...dahlah fadz tanak mit aku,y not i mit is! dier keje aircraft planner kt SIA! hmm...oklah tuh kan? as a fren y not?? besok nk pi interview Coffeeclub HV..hope i get it as im recommended by my abg Farhan!
hati aku masih perit ar,perit dgn ape yg telah Sharul lakukan..im damn Disapointed!im damn sad..he's such a LIAR..i dont care Sharul.. u make me like ti..1 day u'll get it..but tell u one thing,i already forgive n forget all the past thing u done to me! aku pemaaf dan aku terima segalanye..Allah maha besar... amin!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:50 PM
Betapa pilunya perasan hati ini
bila mengenangkan memori kehidupan,
harungi segala dlm mencapai cita pilu
dan gembira peraaan hati ku selama ini
kutabahkan hati walau telah dilukai,
kau kasih berlalu meninggalkan diriku
hidup tanpa harta membuat kau kecewa,
akan ku buktikan pintu kejayaan akan ku temu..
sepi dihati,pedih nya tak kau rasai,
kucuba memujuk diri ini menghindar darimu,
walaupun berat hati untuk melangkah pergi
ku memaksa perasaan ini untuk meninggalkan mu
ku menerima kenyataan ini,
walau pon kau tahu,kuamat menyintaimu,
biar aku simpan segala kenangan silam
akan kujadikan satu pengajaran dalam percintaan..
diketika ini impian ku terlaksana
kau ingin kembali merawat kelukaan,
cukuplah sekali tak mungkin ku kembali ...
cinta dihatiku tak akan berputik kali kedua.."
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:47 PM
HeYYY!! u noe watz????? Faizal taktau simpan rahsia! He ASKED around who is Sharul nizam??wat the hell is he doing huh???fuck off man! all guy are the same!! im so FED UP!! i tot he can be a fren but.... too bad,hes the same!im so disapointed bout tis! n now,im so heart pain!im very angry with the way he did!y must he go around n luk 4 tat idiot man??now my plan on the 30th with Nisa dah hancur mcm tuh ajer!go to hell ar..i dun bother animore...sorie to say nisa,maybe ur fren here cant follow u there!!u just go and take rashid ar kay??im not gona follow!!! im just disapointed bout tis ting! now...he noes,Sharul noes bout tis! argghh....merepek ar!! merepek mcm kerepek!! guys cant kip their mouth shut is it?? damn u ar... it happens wen they go smoking,then tis faizal tend to tok to sharul..n he k sharul wether he noe me!n sharul said "YEs"! he was a bit shock ar..then faizal said i noe her from net jer..well.....aku sindir ckp selamat berkenalan! tats wat faizal wants ryte??? bongkar lah semua rahsia sharul kay?? bongkar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i got no more time to bother!! im just sick n tired of all tis... wat eva it is..im sorie 4 wat i've done god!
Firah suruh aku bersabar..aku da lebih sabar! haiz tahlah...aku dah tabahkan hati ar...sampai dier menipu aku semua..!! pilu perasaan hati ini bila megenangkan memori kehidupan aku dgn dier.. perasan hati terlau sakit dan perit! pedihnyer terasa sekrg nie! sudahlah sharul...tak usah kau sandiwara dgn aku lagik kay? im done!!!
only god noe how i feel ryte now!!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:42 PM
SSSooo bored Sunday siah!! i story u kay?? I MIZZ my ITE Frenns Now..Wish i Cud be with them all A while together n foreva..Setiap pertemuan ader Perpisahan!kenape?? haiz.. sedih ar.. Mardiana,iRena,ZafiRah,Sulastri.. miz those Daes together..Sad..Sad..!!! I MiZ the GUYS..ESpecially MahmuD!!! Eric, IbRahim,Sazali,Suhaimi,Elmi..Where r u all??cn we meet up one Day?? Nazri....Sham,Man,RafiQ,HerFi,Azlee,Zahid..Haiz!!! gerl..i dun realli matter but guys yes! i miz u all so much! my joker fren..hope u all doing fine huh?mr chee my form teacher who luvs to nag..but he great! very funny teacher.. ingat tk dgn Rebond??? ahahah! lagik kelakar! during autocad lesson wen mahmud throw sumting on her head! ish! kelakar ar..dgn mahmud hari2 ketawa jer..kan best! tak pernah kite duk diam..hari2 bebual jer..hari2 ade je topik yg best! the tym wen we shared our stories..arggh..i miz those time! realli hope we meet each other again soon! tadi aku msg mahmud..dier baik n he in the same camp and platoon as Eric! wah..tats great! jumpe lagik diorang..baguslah...jadi hubungan antara kite tak putus mcm tuh ajer..! if i can turn the time..i'll turn the tyme wen i 1st met my ite clasmates..tats the best period of time! i like! happi everidae tinking of them..tak pernah takde crite wen datang ekolah..same2 pass...lepas mahmud brenti..aku asik keje jer..coz dier da takder! mcm nak brenti jugak.but aku tabahkan hati lah..im closer to ina n mar n start to noe bout firah too...tapi tak serapat ar..aku betulnyer sampai sedih n give up wen mahmud was not there with me in kelas!haiz....pegi mkn samer...pegi kantin samer..ish! mahmud2.. i miz u freen..
Suhaimi kite ckp dier suke bebual world..eric pemalaz,tapi hensem..hensem berg nyerlah dier..,terus dgn elmi yg baik hati jugak!herfi ade anak..ader tattoo..dah kawin pon..sham,talkative jugak ar,can understand certain problems!gud fren to talk too..man??atas meja eh?? haha,dat boy..great smile n cute chubby guy! ibrahim??garang nie..black metal favouite! pun ok gak! rafiq?? si penipu nie??hehee...hansem tapi kurus sgt..si Azlee?? pun hansem..boleh tahan..but not so close..,nazri??tido,tido tido! ingat motor jer...scram??? sazali...abang sawan!hehehe..best!kelakar sey deknie...zahid?? baik hati jugak..rajin keje..! ish..all my fren are great..guys...!!!!!!!! pasal gerl eh?? nanti aku cerita kay?? dorg lagik story manyak sekali! ehemm...did i miz out any guys?? i guess but nevermind.. i'll cek again kay? luv u all! miz u!!!
20 Daes 2 go....
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:32 AM
Sunday, April 10, 2005
Liza Hanim
Getaran Cinta Di Jiwa
Di hatiku cinta berbunga
Dan rinduku seharum bunga
Setiap detik kini nyata
Hanyalah dirimu sayang
Namun jauh di sudut hati
Mungkinkah kau daku miliki
Tak sanggup aku bersendiri lagi
Kehilanganmu oh! kasih
Tak sanggupku menghadapi
Tuhan sesungguhnya
Kau lebih mengerti
Pedih... menyaksikan dikau dan dia
Pilu... airmata kasih mengalir di pipi
Hampa... impianku luka berdarah
Mana harusku bawa hati yang kecewa
Tak sanggup kehilanganmu
Walau itu hanya dalam mimpiku
Dengarkanlah oh sayang bicaraku
Sesungguhnya ku menyintaimu
Ku luahkan perasaanku
Yang terpendam di dalam kalbu
Ku tulis lagu
Dengarkanlah getaran cinta di jiwa
Seandainya dikau mengerti
Katakanlah pada diriku
Siapakah yang ada di hatimu
Telah sekian lamanya
Kau bertakhta dalam jiwa
Setiap ketika rinduku untukmu
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|4:10 PM
NuRuL
Kerana Terluka
Beratnya rasa hati nak melangkah pergi
Tetapi apakan daya aku terpaksa
Buat kali terakhir inginku mengucapkan
Semoga dirimu berbahagia selalu
Tentang diriku ini
Terserah padaMu Tuhan menetukan...
Tak perlui kau bertanya ke mana ku pergi
Pandailah aku menjaga diriku ini
Sekali kumelangkah oh biarlah ku teruskan
Perjalanan ini walaupun sendirian
Hanya Tuhan yang tahu dukalara hidupku ini
Tak terkata, aduhai sayang...
1
Ku masih lagi teringat
Bicaramu yang terakhir
Pedihnya hinggamenikam kalbu
Bisanya...
Selamat tinggal sayangku
Selamat tinggal kasihku
Aku terpaksa pergi dahulu
Kerana terluka hati ini
Kiranya tempias membasahai jendelamu
Itulah airmata yang jatuh di pipiku
Kiranya sang bayu menyentuhi paras wajahmu
Oh itulah rinduku yang menyebut namamu
Setelah sekian lama tak jumpa
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:45 PM
i wen Jb again just now with mum! hmm..ok ar,but tiring! ramai orang sey...kate Saturday pe...ramai yang pegi paSar beli barang2,borong! Well...i tot of finding new job ar!i need full tyme job! hmm...well, i dunno lah..i cant survive with just tis job!haiz...boring ar!!! tired! coffee club?? can take me??haha!
at tis tyme..i dun reali miz him! i dun miz anione nimore..i just miz my ite frens..my kwn2 sekolah!! dah lama tak jumpe!haiz..can i meet them???soon ar kay....get back later..
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:01 PM
Swensens....
Uh oh...tadi pi mkn dengan my mum kat swensens Yishun! sedapnyer sampai nk terbuang air besar lagik..sakit2 perut siak gggrrrrrrrrr....hehe!sedap tu sedap..kene $58.10! sekali sekala takperlahkan...well.... i pay half my mum gona pay half!tadi at 11 tok to nisa sey..kelakar ar dektu!bebual pasal itu ini..ehehe!then pasal cicak kobing,tengkorak hiduplah.,.papelah!hahaha! kelakar siak! mcm2 nama dier kite dua panggil..sampai tersedak2 dier agaknyer kat Taiwan! but...now at tis tym of time..at tis hour..n nyte...i can say tat...i miz him lotz! but...i cant miz him like dulu! his attached...i miz the daes wen we spent the nyte together... its great...he such nice guy to be with wen we together... but too bad..tats over kay...u dun need him yati!
he got his own life...n u got ur own live to jaga! prove him u can live without him..sumtymes...we just have to control ourself wen luving sum1.like me,i luv him n can say tat the luv is still strong! just tat i have to put it aside n i noe tat he dun even need me in his live though but nevermind ape yang jadi ader hikmahnyer yati..only god noes...! be xtra careful next tym..skrg dier dlm hutan..mountain!must be slipping in there 4 few days already ...heard tat its gona be until 11th April! sooner u gona be out of tat mountain dear,,ish!!! sape sey dier..haha merepek je ku nie..yelah..biler sudah rindu...! next week nk pi makeoverlah...mesti jambukan!hehehe...perasan...nak tunjuk tengkorak hidup! boleh tak??? eheheehehee...i miz u boy...but i have to 4get u!thnks 4 everything n tanks 4 being sum1 who care 4 me lotz! i appreciate u dear! really miz those days...take care honey!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|4:04 AM
Saturday, April 09, 2005
Firman Allah...
"Berilah Berita gembira kepada orang-orang yang Sabar,iaitu orang-orang yang ketika musibah,merek berkata:
Sesungguhnya kita adalah milik Allah Dan kepadanya kita kembali.."
Kalimah di atas ini mengandungi pengubatan dari Allah kepada orang-orang yang paling sesuai dan sangat berguna bagi orang yang ditimpa musibah untuk kehidupan dunia dan akhiratnya.Ayat diata mengandungi dua poerkara yang sangat besar,bila seseorang hamba iyu benar-benar memperhatikannya jika akan terhibur olehnya.
Pertama,orang yang ditimpa musibah itu akan menyedari dengn sebenar-benarnya bahawa dirinya,keluarganya,
hartanya anaknya adalah milik Allah SWT.Allah telah mengurniakan semuanya itu kepada hambanya adalah sebagai barang pinjaman..maka apabila Allah mangambilnya semula dari tangan hambanya,tidak ubahnya seperti orang yang mengambil barang yang dipinjamkannya.di samping itu ia juga mengalami dua ketiadaan,iaitu tidak ada sebelumnya dan tidak ada sesudahnya...
Kedua,Sessungguhnya asal diri seorang hamba dan kembalinya adalah kepada Allah semata,tuhan yang sebenarnya,justeru itu seharusnyalah ia meletakkan dunia dibelakang punggungnya dan ia akan datang kepada tuhannya di hari kiamat dalam keadaan sendirian,sebagaimana Allah menciptanya pertama kali,iaitu tanpa keluarga dan tanpa harta,Bahkan ia nanti akan datang kepda Allah dengan amal kebaikan dan amal leburuknnya..
Tiada suatu bencanapun yang menimpa di bumi dan(tidak pula) pada dirimu sendiri melainkan telah tertulis dalam kitab(Lauhul Mahfuz) sebelum kami menciptanya,sesungguhnya yang demikian itu adalah mudah bagi Allah,(kami jelas yang demikian itu) supaya kamu jangan berdukacita terhadap apa yang luput dari kamu,dan supaya kamu jangan terlalu gembira terhadap apa yang diberikannya kepadamu Dan Allah tidak menyukai setiap orang yang sombong lagi membanggakan diri...
Perhatikanlah yang diatas......ayat yang mulia ini.....
Amin.......
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|6:00 AM
Mum Dun wanna go!!! aarrgghh...shit lah!! b4 i sleep yesterday,i let down my tears,again it falls but its not becos of Sharul but becos of my Family.,..im just sad,y my family are not like others..we dun have the time spent together,im lack of luv,hapiness,care n concern! i dun get enuff of it! my dad is always with his werk,my 1st brother always with his wife n never think of us! while my second brother till now havent werk...use dad money! oh god!!! u're 32 man! u still dun even noe wats the meaning of Tanggungjawab???????? huhhhhhhh???? wat the hell???if i were u,i already get married n get suitable job n help mum n dad..if i dun get married also maybe i can just support parents n ur sis here!but too bad....im just a gal whose gona reach 21 yrs old soon! haiz........wat evalah!!!
i wanna go KL siah...buang masa amek off sey! baik aku keje!mcm not worth it gitu argghh....boring sey! hidup memang bosan selalu! becos of money i werk,if not becos of money...no i dunt! kaki aku pon da sakit,keje 7 eleven berdiri jer..dahlah boring,,,asik "tet,tet,tet"!
then banyak orang pulak tuh!haiz!!! masuk nie,dah lebih 4 kali aku gaduh dengan customer..keje fnb tak gaduh pon sey! kesabaran aku ade tahapnyer..kesabaran aku pada Sharul pun sudah melebihi batas..! i dun wana be lembut mcm dulu! lives damn bored with just werk n werk n werk! guess,i have forget him bit by bit...insyallah.... i can!!! he's never worth my luv man!
hey!!!!!!! u noe wt??? kak Fizah aku Dgn matair dier Azim dah Putus cinta! guyyzzzzzz........!! hes been playing behind my sis back for 3 yrs past...they matair for 5 years n its just like tat! she's being cheated by him! u guys r fucker!sedihnyer!!! kesian betul sis aku! i tot im the only one who suffer but there's another person who i noe who suffer worse then me!dia dahlah sakit,kurus.sedih sey...dah lama aku tak jumpe dier..akhirnya jadi mcm nie..sad to hear it siah!dorg break 1st april...aarrggh...lelaki! kenapa?? kenape mesti kau sakiti hati gadis yg terlalu setia padamu?haiz! ntahlah....susah nk cakap! hanya tuhan yg tahu! i wana mit sis Fizah! rindu kat dier sey..dah lama tak mit up! i reali miz u sis.. sum1 who is so nice lady n cool..my manager n becum my sis now! luv u!sampai pi pub semua sis aku nie,then lucky she's not rosak..biaserlah orang kalo putus cintakan...mcm2 leh jadik..guyz! doesnt mean u're the onli one kay...we still have lots to choose.. klah..i blog later...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|3:53 AM
Friday, April 08, 2005
AVRIL LAVIGNE LYRICS
My Happy Ending"
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something You said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
[Chorus:]
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
[Chorus]
It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done
[Chorus x2]
[x2]
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
So much for my happy ending
Oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:30 PM
Yesh!! Finlly i had my off day tomorow till sunday! then..there my weekend goes! yyuuhhhhhooooooo........kakkakakaka! gerekz.... well im happi n im going to enjoy my weekend n fill it with gud day man! im trying to 4get the past..my past experience tat is so..bad n pain!
im trying hard! i will forget the past...well,im fine now.
today sales..arghhhh 1st tym pick up 9! $2642.85 my sales for register 2! isnt it great?? well...its not my money..its 7 eleven money mah..haha! buat ape btol?? haiz mum..can c tat u feel like not going to KL! hmm...entah eh!
hmm...i miss my ite frens lar...Mar,Ina n Firah!biler bleh meet up geng?? haiz....i reali miss u all! cn i mit u now?? mcm nk hug je korang semua! miz the tym spending together..mar,gadis hitam manis...pandai main bola dan disukai ramai! lupe!!! u're a gret fren n mata besar sey..ehehehe,luv u gal.. now minah polis plak! then irena..she noes my secret! luvly sweet charming gal! i like ur smile sis...ehehe,now keje kat airport as screening agent n sooner gona be future nurse! all the best gal...mizz u! n firah...garang tapi soft hearted gal...she's sweet n adorable! manis orangnyer...very active person n kecohrable! hahaha! now in temasek poly doing hmm..ape electronic tah! haha! i not sure! luv u too sis! weellll....... they r my ite gud frens til now..among 4 of us,only mar ader yg punye! yelah....orang yg lembut mcm dier tuh...sape taknak tul??aku sentiasa doakan kawan2 aku nie dapat jodoh yg baik...jangan jadi mcm aku nie,mcm tunggu buah tak jatuh,,dan mengharap cinta pada yg tk sudi..but!!!!! i had enuff...i dunn wana leave in tis dreamland anymore...im tired of tat! sumhow,i realise myself tat im still ok...lucky im still fine but....tat will be a great experience in my history life huh!oh god...plz help me 4get him....plz..i hate him 4 making me fool..lying me n im so sad... plz make him realise how i feel god! watevalah....i hate u ShArul!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|4:08 PM
its already gona be two weeks im not meeting him...n hes in Taiwan without any news..wt can i do??? sumtymes i feel the luv towards him is still there..but,i guess,he' not worth 4 my luv! yes he don't.im fool to him,he's a liar,hypocrite,n he play my feelings. y shud i love him?? umtyme its just not me who luv him,its my hert who like it..n my heart is the one tat get hurts n not me..wat a sad ting. y am i like tis?? i dunnoe..,i just need the tym to 4 get him.my heart realli hurts n i need to 4get! i cant only werk to 4get tis,but i need to control myself..emosi aku nie! arrrgggh....knape dier mcm nie?? tuhan ku,tunjukkanlah dan berilah dier keinsafan ya allah! knape harus dier sakiti hatiku ini?? aku sedih dgn ape yg telah dier lakukan...nasi pon da jadi bubur,tak guna menyesal..i just need tym to heal it..i need god! iman kene kuat! sedih tetap sedih,tapi ...tak boleh terlalu menyimpan nyer dalam hati..!
biarlah dier dgn cara dier...i guess im not impoartant to him...just took it as an experience in life! 4get bout the past...
just now nisa mimpi yg rshid akan tinggalkn dier..n the other ting is tat,rashid pun mimpi yg dier tinggalkan nisa...hmm...,coincidence!
she cant control of herself wen rashid is not around..haha! kesian ar dier,she so lucky to get sum1 who really luvs her,not like me?? no one luvs me..hahaha! well..today again 3-11 n im off!! yesh! i like! gtg...nk mandi n kol nisa...bubyyyeee,....
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|4:06 AM
siDe of me.. 
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:18 AM
Thursday, April 07, 2005
Haiz..Tis few daes i've been werking non stop!wt a tiring week siah!
lthough im getting weekends off but im still bored..doent means u get off on weekend u're free n relaxing! no! i dont...i still tired,got parents to support n im just wondering till wen i shud be like tis??im so restless...need enuff tym to rest..well,dunno wether my plan with mum to KL is Successful tomorow lar..not so sure yet.. im werking swensens on sundy n its from 12-6...sumtymes i tink i dun wnt to werk there but becos im in fnb line n i guess i noe the job due to my experience,im fine! wt u expect from FNB line?? i just need patients,be friendly to customers n behave well....just do my werk n im ok already...but.... i got 1 more point... im not gona werk there full tym i guess! not worth it..
i desperately need a full tym job but,i have to suffer 1st lor...i learn from below..then...go up!! i just upset n kecewa wen my dreams to be CBTL MANAGER was soo Fuckked up! tat lisa!! wat a bad lady!
well,its just not my luck..im luck in differents thing maybe! nthlah..all up to god...
im just Sick n tired of werking part tym! just cant stick to one! sad...sad....
maklong birthday,..59 years old...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|3:03 PM
Penatnyer....ish! i guess,i've choose a wrong swensens outlet siah! banyak melayu pompan!yg aku tak suka sey...well...just c ar,after a few mths mybe aku quit ker! tgklah amcm! aku nak duit despeately tu pasal aku buat mcm nie!kdg2 keje mcm tuh is not worth it!gaji pon kecik n not even enuff lah..itu kalo aku join full tymer! basiccally..tats fnb line! just have to bare with it! aku masuk swensens the people dun even tech me..a bit jer! kat merepek! i just hve to remember my table numbers n the menu well n then im up to it.. ku boleh buat keje sendiri semua! saner kalo pompn lawa takpe..semua plum plum siak! bukan nk ckap ape ar,i guess im more prettier then them although im quite big enuff! hahahaha.perasan siak nie yati!! even ade butch semua!merepekz..kentalan! wake up galz..!!!!!! u r born with the "up n down",as a lady,y must u change??? for goodness sick! alah,biarlah..i think i need to find a new job still for my future..mcm aku kater..ini setakat tambahan untuk future life aku..
aku prefer keje part tym hrs je siak! 7 eleven pon ok,da kenal org2,sayang nak tinggalkan! entahlah..maybe if i got a new job,im still stuck to 7 eleven...but not swensens! c how... orites!
talking bout new job,im applying 4 poly clinic! kalo dapat lagik bagus..ofis hours!! i noe how to use computers man!!! hmmm... keje lagik baik! duit ada! penat tetap penat tapi ape boleh buatkan??
SWensens ok but the place i step to not ok ar! hmmmm..... entahlah...bosan!!! kerana duit aku sanggup buat ape sajer!asalkan tidak jual maruah aku! biar aku da kene sekali biar dgn yg aku cinta..tapi bukan dgn jantan yg inginkan kebahagiaan dan kesedapan,kenikmatan hanya untuk memuaskan nafsu berahinyer yg sial itu!....hmm! hahahaa..ape siak aku mepek! smlm bebual dgn Nisa punyelah lama! 2 jam+ sey..ish..kelakar ar dektu..tapi she's ok ar.. happy toking to her,experience lagik pasal make up,fashion semua! learning from her ar...aku kene kuruskan badan nie..baru leh nampak jambu!
pasal Sharul??? tak sangka eh?? dier tipu aku mcm nie!! hes realli sucks! y u like tat huh?? still got the cheek to play n get others galz..kau nak mainkan dier lagik?? ubahlah sharul oi..ubah! u're just a normal guy who actualli dun have luks,dun have anything! but u realli catch my heart which is hard 4 other guys to catch.. u noe sumthing?? i dun wan to lose u as fren though..aku pengampun,pemaaf.
aku tk mau balaz kau punye kejahatan..kalo aku nak buat kau,da lama aku buat sharul...cume hati aku berkata JANGAN!! tak baik buat orang,biar kau sedar.biar kau kene balasannyer...kalo aku buat kau,nanti aku pon kau benci lagik! ku takmu ku ungkit2 semua..no used man! its such a waste! alah...aku nak kau sedar sendiri ape yg kau dah buat! satu hari,kau mesti tau jugak...kalo ko rindu aku,hmm...kau msg jelah mcm biaser...but aku rasa,no more tat ting k? hard to say but i have to... enuff is enuff!! insyallah,satu hari,tuhan akan membukakan hati ko,untuk kembali ke jalan yg benar,dan itulah masanyer untuk kau kembali...tuhan maha adil,maha mengetahui,melihat,mendengar,maha kaya...one day u will noe!
24 daes to go..wwweeeeehehehehee!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:43 AM
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
Mengapa Dirindu
Anak punai anak merbah
Terbang turun buat sarang
Anak sungai pun berubah
Ini pula hati orang
Mengapa dikenang
Asal kapas jadi benang
Dari benang dibuat baju
Barang lepas jangan kenang
Sudah jadi orang baru
Mengapa dirindu
Kasih yang dulu tinggal dalam mimpi
Kasih yang baru simpan di hati
Kasih yang dulu tinggal dalam mimpi
Kasih yang baru simpan di hati
Selat teduh lautan tenang
Banyak labuh perahu Aceh
Jangan kesal jangan kenang
Walau hati rasa pedih
Mengapa bersedih
Kalau pinang masih muda
Rasanya kelat sudahlah pasti
Kalau hilang kasih lama
Cari lain untuk ganti
Mengapa dinanti
Patah 'kan tumbuh hilang berganti
Akan sembuh kalau diubati
Patah 'kan tumbuh hilang berganti
Akan sembuh kalau diubati
Sayang mengapa dirindu
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|12:24 PM
yesterday my 1st day at Swensens Plaza Singapura...oklah. biaser jer..gerek jugak but its my 1st day wat...penat semcm..im in f n b so..mane2 pi pun fnb mesti ader..darah fnb nie! ehehehe... alah..wteva lah.. today pon keje 6-10..aku penat ar! can i 4get him??? im so bored! bored!!!!!!!!!!!! gtg ar... aku blog later kay..bubyyee!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|7:02 AM
Monday, April 04, 2005
aku apply for keje kan?? ko ingat?? swensens?aku DAPAT! yesh lah... n now..im Back to FNB line again!at last..yahoo... im happi for tat,n i tink i wanna stay there all the way,learn slowly n be better! at last..rezeki tuh ader! suka ar...but im still with 7 eleven too.. im gona werk there too... both places! okies!
n yet..... i made up my mind...im gona let him be like tat..im not gona take ani revenge yet,tk baik buat orang..biar orang buat kite! betul tak?? hmm..... just be like normal...hope he will be fine. the hatred i still there..but i've forgive u.. thanks again 4 cheating on me Dear..haha! so great of u...,tadi chat dgn Faizal kat taiwan. best! ehehehe..oklah,he fine,sum leg injuries...btw,wheres Fuad?? lm ilang sey! tkpelah...i gtg kay...c u!
P\S: cita-cita aku mungkin tercapai...insyallah....!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:10 PM
Sunday, April 03, 2005
helo,Today i werk 7-3,then after tat go watch The Eye 10! then we go jetty Lower Seletar reservoir,chill outz! then we walk all the way to yishun mrt! best! penat2 pon jalan jugak...mcm exercise sey! gerek jugak ar movie dier..it about people who wanna c ghost! hehehee,wel... its too short siah! 1 hr 20 mins like tat! not eNuff man! aku penat ar, tapi maseh takmau tido..kakaka! boring! but....i enjoy my day today...same goes as yesterday...life is not bored now with frens around me! Gerlfrens! hahahaha....im tired lar... gtg to werk later...wanna go slp..i made up my mind... i'll tell u tomorow! nitez....!!
28 Days to meet him..yesh!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|3:30 PM
Saturday, April 02, 2005
Tadi pegi Beach rd dgn aZza n nisa...jumpe jugak diaorg.. erm... i saw where they sit wen nisa saw tat jantan keparat! heard tat tat gal is decent..but nobody noes! i dun even care.. wat i noe,im heartless! my heart is realli in pain! entahlah... aku tk paham...knape harus jadi mcm nie??? aku geram ar dgn dier... klo boleh aku nk maki hamun dier..tapi biler aku pikir, tk baik kite balaz org...biar tuhan balas...tu yg hati aku pilu dan sayu...
entahlah....let me tink...give me tym k my 2 fren?? after tat then we mainkan die... Fuck ar...!!!!!!!!
gotta slp,nites...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|3:44 PM
All tis while...he has been a sluT...!He make me Sick,tired of his behaviour n stupid attitude!..its useless afterall..Damn it Man! PENIPU...im so fed up! wen i tink again y he did me like tis..i just dunno im stuck! i will cry...i will be sad...but,i cant be like tt foreva..becos of him,i closed my heart towards luving other guys.. all my dreams are gone...then,i also Dream him everytym...a worst nightmare! u Cheated me Sharul!! thanks a lot!
i Still stick to my plans..i will n have to..tats gona be a place where i will be very happy..miting god,pray towards him n i really hope n wish to go there...its been a long tym i cancel my hajat to go there with my beloved mum!June..is cuming,n im gona go there..
insyallah..sudah sampai serunya..kalau benda ini tak terjadi... aku maseh buta agaknyer! buta dengan cinta jantan penipu..aku tau kau tak suka aku..but y Cant u tell me the tRuth??????? u dun wanna hurt me?? go to hell lah man....i jut dun have a werd to say bout u animore...u realli make me heartbroken n Sad! Enuff of u kay?? i give up,n im just witing 4 30th April! by tat tym..i wants to noe wether u still wans to be my fren?? after 3 tyme having tat S__***
ting with u...i had enuff! u tink u're gud huh?? nope..u're actualli plain boring guy!thanks 4 teaching me bout all tis luv,all tat Stupid things...i've learnt my lesson,n i noe i still have god to help me!
its just a waste of time...U're using me 4 ur own gud! u think im weak?? im not kay....i've woke up n start a new life...Gudbye my DEar Sharul...once i take u out from my heart...theres no turning back! im sure.. n i will make sure u Suffer...u make me...god makes u back... just c..wats gona happen! Pretty gals are not pretty 4eva...the heart?? black ryte?? let her suffer with ur attitude that realli sucks kay??im not gona be ur toy again!
after 4 years........I HAD ENOUGH.... Be Cool NuR... llah itu SEntiasa bersama..takdir tuhan sudah tertulis,yg nyata kite harus redha..dan dekatkan diri pada yg maha esa... Amin!
********im off today...Yahhoo....!!! n its APRIL.....
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:49 AM
Friday, April 01, 2005
i went jb with my mum tadi nie,baru lik! ponat den...then kene pi keje! tk tidok lagik! ingat tempat makan kat tempat biasa kite pi beli ayam dgn ikan bakar da tutup..rupenyer ader..diorg buat flooring jer! ok per,lawa ar,but abang hansem yg buat roti prata takder!!!!! hahahaha...dier dua org gerek! pandi but prat cheese,telur,ape2 lar! then buy roko sampoerna 4 adik Syafiq jugak! besok jumpe dier jap then trus jumpe Nisa n Azza! nak kuar jumpe..rindu sey dorg,lama tak mit! hmm....
tadi,bile ku pikir2 balik,im gon make a new azam.... how about changing!from worst to better... aku da banyak buat dosa yg tk tertanggung siak! neraka tetap masuk! jadi sebelum kiamat....aku pergi meninggalkan dunia ini atau menghembuskan nafas terakhir, biarlah aku bertaubat ke jalan allah dahulu... aku nak enjoy puas2,tapi dengan cara betul lah... dengan family n my frens..
next week going KL! yeshhhh...!
then im going to go out n celebrate with my ite frens,then c how it goes after tat im gona follow nisa go airport to fetch her guy! there....the story will goes,duno wt gona happen ryte??? after tat,im gona live life as usual...no more sadness!no more 'HIM'in my Life! i hte him n it will be the end of him in my life...but it still tooks tymes for me to 4get him..slowly..like fuad said before,"u can yati...,i hve confidence in u!!!" n Fuad,i will change...ina,abby n nisa,i will change to...
i wants to build a new world...cari duit keje,then go back 4 a study! maybe to mlaysia..kolej at KL..taking the course i want! hotel..fnb...where im suppose to be... hmmm..... then,im going umrah with my mum! insyallah...mungkin disana aku kan dapt petunjuk yg sebenar..dengan tuhan..petunjuk mu! hikmah disebalik semuanya....
kemudian...aku nak carik keje baru...carik duit baru continue skolah pat M'sia...lepas tuh.... 25 JULY 2005 is my birthday...
if my hearts reali opens to wear tudung...insyallah,i will...
but its a bit hard to...i really got to change... going cameron highlands with my parents again...u remember my mum get free??? then....enjoy again...
tis are my plans....guys.... i'll live it to god.. sipe jodoh hanye tuhn yg tahu! sharul?? if u want to be a fren...be kay? if not... go fuck off with ur GF! aku takkan membalas,tapi sharul..tuhan nampak kesalahan kau pada aku....aku sedar segalanya!! ku bukan lelaki yg sesuai untuk aku! ur stil a fren..but plz.... no more like last tym! its up to u...n i hope,u're damn happy with ur life... if 1 day u cums back to me...only tymes can tell...allah yg tahu jawapannya! dialah yg menentukan segalanya..
but now.... i really wants to 4get u....im really running out of tym! 1 month...n a few mths to change b4 i get 21!!!!!
thanks god.....i luv u!!
P/s: thinking of taking the Nitec cos?? dunno leh??? how??
gtg..im late 4 werk...hahahahha! last day of March...2morow..april! yesh!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:00 PM
Don't want to have you hangin,
Around me like a leech.
I think you're just a problem,
So stay the hell away from me because I don't believe in you.
And I wanna sit here all my life alone.
This may sound a little rough,
Don't wanna fall in love.
Don't need security.
I ain't no dog without a bone.
Don't have no time for love.
So stay the fuck away from me because I don't believe in you,
And I wanna sit here all my life alone.
This may sound a little rough.
Don't wanna fall in love.
This may sound a little rough.
Don't wanna fall in love.
This may sound a little rough.
Don't wanna fall in love.
This may sound a little fucked.
Don't wanna fall in love.
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|11:13 AM
penat Sey..Nisa nie asal offline pulak?? heheh,erm,dier crite kat aku,smlm Rashid kol dier,ahakz..! one more thing,bout tat stupid guy...jantan sial tuh.. nis ask whether sharul yg kite jumpe kt beach rd tu dgn pompan matair dier eh?? "yupz" n dat hes new gerl!! wat the hell!! jantan keparat tul..Sumore rashid say dier bdk baik??baik ke hape siak??perangai setan mcm tuh!setan pon tk mcm dier sial!binget siak aku...ok! cool down yati..u have to accept the fact..hes such a coward! using people..4 his own use sumore! chibai!! i hate him! hate his attitude! dunno y tis cud happen to me? i really hate u sharul... im such a fool to trust to u badly! how i wish he gets the balasan balik?? ya allah,kau saje yg dpt membantu aku!thanks nisa...thanks again!
DIA GUNAKAN KAU YATI!!!!! GUNAkAn!!! WWWAAAKKKEEEEEEE UP MAN!!!!IM HURT! N I DUN WANNA BE HURT AGAIN....MY MISTAKES,I LEARN FROM IT!NOW I NOE,WT I SHUD DO...TUNDUK MEGALAH PADA ALLAH...Y MUST IT BE U AGAIN??? NTAHLAH...APE HIKMAH DISEBALIK INI SEMUA??MUNGKIN SEKARANG BARU AKU NK SEDAR KE?? ITS TOO LATE...BUT,ITS NOT LATE TO GET BACK TO GOD YATI.. NASI DA JADI BUBUR..it tyme 4 me to change.. i will n have to,insyallah...
P/s: i hate u Sharul!!!!! HaTE!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|8:25 AM
NoRhayati Bte SaLLeH 
