but everythingmeans nothing.
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
im sick n tired of werking FNB line ar..ape salahnya aku ar?? sampai buat itu ini asik kene marah..tegur..padahal ape aku buat tu benar..dorg yg banyak buat alah..bile ditegur takmu mengaku..Shit!! wats tiss??? i hate it man! i tot new outlet i gud..but it really sucks man! 3 different manger re in different ways of werking styles.....TCC is not bz like CBTL u noe...its worse...no bisnes..no money! i dunt want Ot also i kena scold! fuck lar...
Tadi dila da dpt surat nursing..aku??tkdeponz...
haiz..biler?? biler sey?????ah.....im still waiting for the result k??i will...well...if its successful..i will stay n will be skuling n werking again like last tym..
Yesterday..i met sharul at his home..pagi da kuar..6.50 aku da kuar..keran dier..dlm 7.45 ku da sampai umah dierlar..just spending time with him..!! he go KL tadi morn t 7 naik bus..oh god...kau lindungilh dier dari ape saje dn kau kembalikan lah dier ke dalam hidupku...kekal abadi selmanya didlam jiwa..hehehhe... i luv u Dear..always n will be foreva..i now im full but i just cant bear to live without u...u light up my life...n u always do.. i just noe..i wont gif u everything..my precious thing,..i wont kay..i promise myself not to...!!! where to get guy like u whu dunt force me to give?? bukan cakap besar..but its the fact..28-1st jan... go baik2..jaga diri k sayang!!
erm...i got n mc,after werk i go yishun with m mum n then go doctor kat admiralty..erm..opposite mrt they close at 12 midnyte! dpt 4 obat..oklaah...aku mcm pening..n i get the medicine..mc!! so,im plnning to go kl with my mum tomorow morn..n be back on thurs...or fri..hehehehhheeeeeeeee...makn ngin..yati2! d sakit2 pon nak kuar ke m'sia..jgn terserempak ape2 sudah..especially sharul!! hate it man! hhaha...lupe..ari sunday de gempa bumi di lautan india..sedih sey.
ramai yg telh kehilangan nyawa..alhadulilah..tiada satu yg dari singapura meninggal dunia..haiz...singapore sssssooooo damn lucky!!! lucky man! k lar..i wanna cek my Reult..then makan obat..cek hotel in kl website n then watch tv..hehehe. i'll type more next tym,,have a save journey...thanks my dearest blog..wwweeeehhhhheeeeeee!!! gud nyte!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|3:50 PM
Monday, December 27, 2004
Dunia telah dijadikan tuhan..alam dijadikan olehnya Sebelum mencipta manusia..tiada tuhan musnahlah kejadian alam ini.. gempa bumi melanda lautan india hari ini..Sedih sekali..ramai yg telah meninggal dunia..hmmm....allah je yg tahu... ape hikmah kejadian diebalik itu..ya tuhan..hanya kau saje yg tahu segala-galanyer..
setiap kehidupan perlukan kemanisan hidup..aman..bahagia.. tapi..tak semua akan datang dalam tempoh yang sama...perlahan2 ia akan datang,kembali pada kite..! allah itu maha kaya dan mahal adil...
inyalalah..setiap ape yg terjadi akan dibalasnyer dengan kebaikan dan keburukkan... pertemuan dan perpisahan juga ade maknanyer... hanya kita saja yg dapat menilainye nanti erti setiap pertemuan dan kehidupan! insyallah....
~~~maklong dn kaklong datang..dgn anak2 dorg..wah!!!!! tapi aku dlm bilik tulis blog,bosanlah duk luar,boring tau..binget jer!! better listen to music and chat ke..errrrr..bored!!!!! besok im gona mit my Sweetheart first luv baby boy kat istana abadi..hahaha! mIz him sssoo much! but did he miz me too??? no..he dont.....i realize he dun luv me..but i realize i need him to at least be a fren... at least,sumone yg boleh jadi "penawar" aku!hehe..penawar segala ubat..dierlar!!! well....i jut hope n berdoa agar tuhan dapat ubahkan dier semula ke jalan yg benar... cinta saja tak bermakna..melainkan kita menunjukkan nyer...kite harus dan perlu!! then aku keje ptg lar 2-10....pagi jumpe dier...!!!
then hes going KL the next day..28 n will be back on saturday i guess...sharuL..i will miz u badly dear!! i will!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:26 PM
Sunday, December 26, 2004
i just finish eating my kentucky fried chicken meal..hahah..2 pcs chicken meal for only 3.95,Cheap hor??but..i cudn'tn finish it..halfway..1 pc give my abg..[azman]! jut now sales at TCC i can c not tat bad..quite a number of customer i saw...and shit! i got to noe ll the bar drink by monday..erm..how many hour more to go ryte?? i guess im gona be dead man! dead! bblluueeeekk!!! wateva it is,roy gona test me tis monday..im thinking of changing shift ti monday with brother Xavier but not sure yet lar..maybe i guess..!! erm..wana mit my penawar lar..but hahaha...im sick now! sick of him!
can i have u boy by my side now?? hahahha..just now,abby came to my tcc give photo..lawa gbr raya gue...tanks abby n guy...
i msg him..but he never reply..like wat i said..he needs me to lepaskan his.....wat eva!! i dun gif a damn..but my luv is getting deeper n deeper sey!! haha...takpelah..aku tak kisah..yg penting,satu hari tuhan akan tunjukkan yg mane benar dan yg mane tidak! besok 7.30-3.30! yeha...i wanna sliplar blog! tired amat sgt tired! k lor,,,gud nyte..asSalamualaikum!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:50 PM
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NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:00 PM
Saturday, December 25, 2004
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NuR Cahaya Hatiku|6:20 PM
hey!! MERRY CHRISTMAS to all those whu celebrate it!!i dunt,cos im muslim..islam! the best religious i noe..but people are those whu corrupted it like me!! hehhehee,but har....at least im not too bad kay?? im okey,not so worst lor..i still noe tat god luvs me..wwweeehhhheeeeehhhhaaaaa...!!!!!!! wats tis???????? haha...yati oh yati..well...im learning bar at werk Now..a bit pressure but sian ah..okey so far..im still learning from below to top..hehehe, kt full tym..mesti tau buat air pe?? btol?? all of the staff there are still learning and learning! after floor stress now to bar stress..
hmm...by 7 March..it my confirmation on werking TCC 4 three mths long! heheh..ok lar..my timing also everytime change..tired tired but wat to do ryte..its part of my job..i have to fulfill it man!
Erm...today town..packo siah!eeerr.......so nice...got so many lights and so many people..but..errkkk..i hate wens theres too many people then..no gudlar..hate it! sesak nafas siul..eh!! ko tau tak??? aku da gile bayang sey!teringat wajah dier...arrggghhhh... i luv u lar dear sharuL!! tadi..balik keje,nampak si hisham..hehe,baguslah..da susut sey dier..gud,dier dapat ape nie.bravo eh?? si mn dpt echo..hahah! abbas pon da masuk tau! byk siak kwn ku da masuk..ish...nx yr harul turn to ROD! hehe..gud 4 him...then pi lah carik keje..but... in 6 mths tym..will i lose him??
will i?? im totally scared n i will be so sad n cried again 4 him although i noe its no use at all letting out my tears 4 him! but,wat i can do..i really like n in luv with him! im ok nd i will asep anything tat happens between me n him ..i swear to god...till i died..i luv him..he wil always be my boo!! hahahha..im wooried but will he 4get me?? will he?? just leave it to god..n he decide it! yg mane baik..yg mane buruk..hanya allah yg tahu...ekali lagi aku berdoa...,, [ ya tuhan,kau ampunkan lah dosa kami,kau jadikanlah kami anak yg baik,sihatkan kami dan panjangkanlah persahabatan kami hingga ke akhir hayat..kau jagalah kami dan kau ubahkanlah kami kepada jalan yg benar,jika tidak..kau satukan kami dengan cara yg baik.jika tidak...aku hanya dapat berdoa agar kau dapat ubahkan kami kejalan yg benar..ke jalan mu!! amin..yarabal alamin...!! ]
insyallah.... eh!! ape nie..nak makan ar..later aku free..aku sambung kay??? bubbbyyyeeee.......
**success through DiliGence**
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:50 PM
Friday, December 24, 2004
i just came back from meeting him,pi tgk crite incredible..hahaha,Kelakar siak crite..tgk kat great werld city..aku paksa dier turun,kalo tak..hapa pon tidak..sha..sha.......well...wt i can say,im totally in luv with him..its my werd tat always scold him..angry with him..wat so eva..but i do like n luv him so much!!his 4eva in my heart n soul..i Really want him..No Words can DescRibe how much i luV him..His luv,his Care,his touch,his kiSS,his lips..ArrrGGGhhhhh....u make me Wanna have u boy!oh God! y Dun u jus put us together?? y dunt u god?? i always pray to god(allah) hoping tat he dun seperate me from him! i just cant ber to lose u lar!! i just cant n i dunt noe y goD!hes everything in ma life..in my heart n my one and only love! i Really,Really,Really luv u ssooo much man! oh shit!!! i Dun wanna lose u boy! i cant bare to live without ur touch,u kiss,ur hug,ur care....coz im totalli in luv with u all my heart...u must have said that im Crazy..but im not!! y must god made me meet him?? y huh?? ade kah ia satu pengalaman..cabaran..dugaan...or like wat abby aid..god wants u to meet the wrong person b4 meeting the right one?? "ya allah...bukak kan lah hatinya..sharul nizam md saleh untuk kembali ke pangkal jalan,jadikanlah dier anak yg baik...yg dapat berubah ke jalan yg benar ya allah..aku pohon padamu..hanya kaulah yg dapat membantunya..aku redha dengan apa yg terjadi,tapi aku berharap kau bukakan lah hatinya kejalan yg benar tuhanku!! tiada yg dapat membantu melainkan kau tuhanku,ya allah..kau maha pengasih maha penyayang..kurniakan lah doaku ini..kembalikan lah org yg aku Syg ke jalan mu tuhanku..Astarfirullahhalazim...subhanallah...ya allah..."
kenapa harus dia yg kau pilih untuk ditemukan dengan aku tuhan?? kenapa dia?? apalah hikmah disebalik pertemuan yg tak kuduga ini allah??tidak penah kukeali tetapi kenapa dia yng kau pilih untulk ditemukan dengan ku di sepanjang kehidupan ku ini allah?? aku tak rela melepaskan rasa cinta yg terpendam di lubuk hatiku ini kepada orang lain selain Sharul!!!! padaku,dia teramat istimewa dan berharga sekali..mungkin tuhan hanya ingin menduga hati kite berdua...tetapi..sampai bila harus kita begini?? aku teramat sayang dan cintakan dia dan perit untuk jiwa ini untuk melepaskan nya.. tak mungkin dan tak akan ku lepaskan..walau ape pun terjadi..cinta yg 3 thn + terjalin indah disyurga hatiku ini..tak dapat dipisahkan dari hayatku... hanya allah yang tahu segalanya...i luv u my Dear SharuL...n i will always love u in ma life..one and only u...Will always be u sharul..no one else can seperate us melainkan tuhan!!! hanya kehendak ilahi dapat menentukan antara kau dan aku...tika dan saat ini insyallah...... :P
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:12 PM
Thursday, December 23, 2004
yeehhhaaaa... hari nie Off day aku! at last,aku free.. maybe nak go jb..tapi nie betul2 nyer..da brape kali aku nak pi tk pi..heheh! kenape kehidupan nie manusia tak pernah berlaku adil??bila aku renungkan,kenapa manusia harus begini??kita adalah sama,cuma bakat,pangkat,darjat,rupa dan keturunan tidak sama.aku benci dengan manusia yang mementingkan pangkat Dan harta.malah,setiap hari aku akan dikelilingi oleh manusia yg begitu.angkuh,sombong,mengada-ngada,ego n......ah,terlalu banyak yg perlu diperkata dan disoalkan di sini.aku tak faham Dan hairan dengan kehidupan manusia persekitaranku ini.. dahulu,aku seorang yg penyabar & lembut,tapi sekarang,aku tidak..aku tidak tegas juga... tapi...aku berani menyelamatkan diri aku sendiri..aku berani..dan aku berani menjawab. aku tak mahu manusia memperbodohkon aku dan aku mahu menang! kerana aku tahu,aku tidak salah sama sekali..3 tahun dalam bidang makanan-f&b..aku tahu selok beloknya...alah....boSan boring ar! mak aku pulak bebel!!semua kerana abg aku nie!! y must u be like tat ar brother??y?? fuck life..life totalli sucks man! U noe...sumtyme at tis tym..u noe who i need??? i need love,care,erm........from..... ah..u noe whu lar ryte..heheehhe me n onli me whu noes it kay!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|4:05 AM
Wednesday, December 22, 2004
N Nice
O Organic
R Responsible
H Healthy
A Altruistic
Y Young
A Amazing
T Tasty
I Insane
hmm....is tat me?? yar..i guess..i am!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:17 AM
Monday, December 20, 2004
helo...2 Days i have not Written anything.mised it but im too tired n got no time to type! At last...i've got thingS to Write...Today i the 1st day of great world openingtot i was late..but,im not! Lucky me! roy said im not late...ok lar..Well,werks fine..for the past three days,me,rahman our MT najib Were all around gwc jalan2..then,we go mc cafe..eat together,ok lar..fun! malay mah! roy was quite bz with his set up on Computer..[pos].so 3 of us together..yesterday got store meeting and a usual part tymers were around too...radhiah was saying "eh yati..najib hansem eh??" hahaa...crush lar tu...ok lar..papelar..hes single wat? y not u go gerL..he ok lar,quite fun werking with him n he Can get along well..
roy..yar..tot he Was 'strict',but after today i c he a nice person..dont always blame on us wen got any faulty n he still can Say,"its ok,at least u repeat the order n the customer said yes". poor me..kena by Alvin again,he kip on pointimng on my mistakes padahal it not bad an important at all...my 1st day wat at outlet..then im new..5 daes werking at CNL i not enuff man! it just a training Centre 4 me..but in terms of overall..i dont reali gain a lot! but..i can c how they run the shift..how to serve n how 2 et the food settings..haiz... Too bad..alvin luvs to point at me man! if theres no one outside,there wont be any customer at tat tym..btw 9-2..it me whu put in the effort to tell customer to come n try TCC food n drinks.. mcm aku ckp.. "no one appreciate my Effort although i put in Enuff of it..and it realli feel daamn sucks man! Well... im fine with it..treat a ma experience in tcc! due to my 3yrs experience in Food n beverage line,i found out tat tcc is a combination of Coffee bean,starbucks n piZa hut! am i ryte?? yar..it is..well..tcc is not bz at all...watevalar,c how it goes .. life still have 2 go on ...
hmmmm...luvly blog!! i would like to tell u tat i already apply for ite NITEC IN NURIsNG AT ITE COLLEGE EAST-[SiMEI]... get or not..i will try until i get! then one more thing,if i dun get selected january 05,i'll try 2006 january then... or maybe july intake for 2005? shud i?? yes i shud! im still young n need to thing of my future career..athough its tiring but i till Can be part of themm..a a nurse! cos..i can be patient...n im hapi to mit people n i would like to c them get well soon,console them too! if i cant be part of nre ti cuming jan or july..i tot of applying 4 digital media deign or Product design.. but digital have part tym..2 weekdays btween 6.45 to 9.45 and one weekend i a must btween 9-4...hmm.hopefully i get anyone..co i guess im ready 4 tat!im young n i want to study more..cant be in TCC 4ever! sucks..service line!!! arrggghhh....like wat i used to said.. not everyone i perfect,we cant be gud..unles we practice and we keep on Learning.. one more thing..nevermind if im slow..as long as i can/willing to learn..everything will be damn fine tru...hahaaha! life i short...live life to the fullest! i'll do it,i'll succes n learnt from mistakes... i will... whu noes..i'll be a nurse?? serving the nation?? hahaha..life sucks but...i must go on!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|3:18 PM
Friday, December 17, 2004
toDay halF day at werk..cos,my werk place renovation havent finish..maseh paku sane sini,haiz..leceh!! then..i met my Alex,tru beli handphone,kesian dier..pakai my hp kene block his sim kad n haf to use PUK code..then dier wait 4 me although im late..nevermind lar dier ckp,but he ok lor,baik jugak! kaya raya lagik,sanggup beli jam for 700+ haiz..kat city chain...nice but he got money,buy lar..then i met Captain,hehe..bdk cina..nama XAVIER..kiut tau! tapi sayangnyer,sorie to say,gigi Depan bogeh sikit,hahah.then jalan jengket2,tapi tetap kiut..and hes 22 yrs old..haha! then..Najib my MT! pon ok gak..gerek jugak ar tgk orgnyer..pon 22 n da bes nS jugak..then,i saw aishah hes a full timer to, n she's from millenia walk b4 gwc..dier pon ok lar,getting married tis cuming Sunday.Wen is my turn?? no way! not now!! earliest would be 2004,and latest would be ...no tyme limit! ade ade,takde sudah! after tat alvin release us at 1.30..n we have to claim tat hours.5 more hrs siah!
aaarrrrrgghh....b4 balik,we go buy Christmas Deco at buGis there! $50 bucks jut a little thing,like wasting eh?? hehe...biarlah..duit company pe,bukan duit aku! well,i bougth 7260! n i sold my 3200 to alex! his kwn nak..keian dier..but nvm lah..7260 fdunction same je dgn 3200..just add extra money sikit..hehe ade rezeki pe..belilor..
esok keje malam..3 to 11.. oklar tu..hmm.. nites..bapak sharul msg,wa mau belayar!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|3:58 PM
Thursday, December 16, 2004
Jangan mencintai seseorang seperti bunga, kerana bunga mati kala musim berganti. Cintailah mereka seperti sungai, kerana sungai mengalir selamanya.
Cinta kepada harta ertinya bakhil, cinta kepada perempuan ertinya alam, cinta kepada diri ertinya bijaksana, cinta kepada mati ertinya hidup dan cinta kepada Tuhan ertinya Takwa.
Minat bukan bermaksud cinta, bangga bukan bererti cinta, kagum juga bukan bermaksud cinta, dan suka juga tidak serasi dengan cinta, malah sayang pun bukan cinta. Tetapi, cinta itu adalah cinta.
Siapapun pandai menghayati cinta tapi tiada siapa yang pandai menilai cinta kerana cinta bukan objek yang boleh di lihat oleh mata kasar. Sebaliknya cinta hanya dapat ditilik melalui hati dan perasaan
Cinta ia tetap hadir, ia datang bukan dengan nafsu atau keinginan tetapi kepasrahan tentang yang mutlak, itulah cinta terulung.
jgn serik to get into a relationship..its a beautiful thing to happen..u can neva noe wens da last one ur havin..its juz so unpredictable,u neva noe wat gona happen nx..the heratbrak will onli make u stronger..its gud 4 the heart!
well....it true ryte??? hmm...jodoh tu di tangan tuhaN..
kite merancang,tapi hanya tuhan yg dapat menentukan jodoh kite..
ape yg akan jadi nanti....hmm.... be single lagik bagus..
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|6:18 PM
its my last day at cineleisure tadi...jason did not said anything to me..guess..he dun like me lor..! wateva!! y are people backstabbing each other??talking bad things about each other too??y huh?? haiyooo...im always stuck in the middle of no where..the feeling sucks man!Everything u put it onto me?? y?? here there everywhere..duno where to trust!!haiz... im sick n tireD of tis..fuck man!
BeSok dah kat my outlet...eh!! irena kol me..she had been transfered
to terminal one...haiz..tibe2..she kol n she said shes lost! aiyoyo..dekat baSement alih2..tru ilang jalan..hmm.,aku ngat dier main2,kali betul ar,she lot her way..ish..ina... kesian! but shes ok already..syukurlah.. Teringatkan aku Cerita SAW! hahaa..no!!!
klah..nak tranfer nbr kat phonebbok..eok alex nak jual tepon kat aku..hahaha.7260 tau! gudbye..3200...chow!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|3:57 PM
Wednesday, December 15, 2004
LoVe...hmm..i Fall in LOVE wen im in Sec 5,Tru internet,its a True Love man!! anD its my FiRst Eva luV..Cinta itu PengoRbanan,Cinta itu airmata, KeikhlaSan,KeSetiaan,kebahagiaan,HaRmoni,InDah SEkali...Adakah itu Cinta?? cinta sEbenar tak mengenaL Erti Rupa,maruah,darjat,pangkat dan Harta...yg pentingya hati...PeRtemuan,Percintaan Dan perpisAhan semua Ade hikmah Disebaliknya..
"God just want u to meet the wrong person before he meets u with the rite one.."...abby phrase 4 me... well,is it True??hopefully it is,aku dah patah hati!! patah hati untuk serahkan cinta aku pada insan yg bernama lelaki..kecewa sungguh hati ini!!!
pAda aku,tak guna sayang orang,kalau org tak sayang kita...
tak guna..tak akan dibalaS Dengan apa2...lupekan saja,..
cinta akan Datang dengan sendiri dan ia akan Datang satu hari nanti..pAsti!!
WeLL..... Guys R JeRKs.....
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:20 PM
aLiCia KeYs -- My FaVouRiTe SinGeR
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|6:30 AM
FinaLLy,i get my Day off toDay..yeSh! At laSt..hahaha!
hmmm....TirEd laR but I get 2 Learn moRe thingS n gain Sum Experience From CINELEISURE TCC... and tomorrow will be my last day at Tat outLet co im gonna go to my OuTlet at Gret worLd.. i Can tell u it will not be buzy at all! boRing siah like tat! tempt terSElit lagik...jauh lak tu..haiz... MemboSankan! shud pRomoTe TCC moRe.. go lar people..u like oreo,theRes oReo,Got banana,got ChocOlate,HazeLnuT latte,CaRameL,RespbeRRy ice tea,Apple Tea..woooaaaa....a LotZ.. u Name it..i maDe 4 u kay?? hmm..... brb later...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|6:10 AM
[veSpa]... HoPe to Ride OnE When I goT the LicenSe 1 Day...haha
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|4:40 AM
Monday, December 13, 2004
hi hie!! c u Again my bLoG!! im TiRed afTer a Day of WerK but im StiLL HeRe FuLLy Awake..YYYeeeehhhhaaa...Well its my 6th Day of weRk yesterday n i Find TCC ok lor...but Not the Best..haha coz..i luv the CoFFee BeaN & Te LeaF Coffee n teA stiLL,Erm..Strong and its PoWErFuL not like tcc..UUwwweeeekkk.... :p but,nvm..im Gona be transFered at GReT WorLd n im Gonna Be Controling tat ouTLet Soon, FuLL timer BabE! hehehe...
oN Sat,He got his Duty At dieppe BaRRack As usuaL,but Funny thing,If i dun msg him,he wont be msging me.im just his SEX toY i guEss,Nuting better i Can Said,now.....I REaliZe How He Treat Me As one..Wen he nEEd Tat,he WiLL Msg me.. [sayang,Dear,DarLing,] wow! oh Gosh!! u maN R sWeeTaLker..but im Proud oF myself tat im StiLL V here..hahahha...Allah tats my God Do Really LuVs Me man!! ALhamdullilah,Syukur pada Allah! Itu adalah satu pengaLaman bagi aku untuk Menempuh kehidupan ini,Aku terima dengan ReLa hati.. Tak Semua umat dan Manusia di dunia ini mulia,Perfecto! haha....
Aku tk mahu jadi yg baik dan yg jahat,Asalkan aku SempuRna sudah mencukupi...bToL tak?? hmm........
insyallah,Dgn PeruBahan hidup aku Sekarang,ku akan Cuba gunakan masa Dengan sempuRna\sebaik mungkin... LiFe have to go on no Matter Wat NaTure cos Takes... hehe..mepek ar yati nie..pe je..englisH pon Bertabur!
k lar...aku nak Makan..ponat,then nak tgk tV,layan mama aku yg Tersayang kay?? dierLah buat hati ku yg Paling BerHarga. ..Dun worrY,i will be fine..!! aDios.. BoB maRLey Fan!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:25 PM
Sunday, December 12, 2004
BoB MaRLeY
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|4:29 AM
HeY! im TiRed Man! Just Cured From Red Eye SWoLLeN,so paiN liao!! haha...Knape people jus dun like to tell the truth huh?they like to keep it Quiet and HurT people feelings.i JuZ don't noe y People like to hurt my Feelings..isnt it Sad..i hate it! but..i have to go through it and i adore it.Kehidupan harus diteruskan..
Airmata ku mengaLir lagi..Kerana lelaki bernama SharuL NiZam...
Sedih Dan hiba tak Terkata...Apa salahnya aku paDa kau SharuL?? apa dosa ku?? sehingga aku DiperLakukan begini?? Adakah kerana ku tidak memberi kesucian aku paDa kau?? aku tak PeRLu memberinya kerana kau Bukan Suamiku.....kau juga bukan kekasih ku...mungkin pada kau aku hanyalah sampah yg kau boLeh dikutip Sembarangan di tepi jalan.. Aku REdha,Dgn segaLa apa yang Terjadi,kau Adalah cinta perTama aku,kau Wujud dalm hati ku,jiwa ragaku 3 tahun LebiH lamanya... DEtik permuLaan ku kenali kau,hingga Sekarang..aku KOrbankan SegaLanya untuk kau SharuL,antara kau dan kerja,aku pentingkan kau juga!
Aku menantimu...Sehingga sekarang...Detik waktu itu...aku jujuR Dan ikhlaS seTia menyintaimu.Aku ReLa diperlakukaan begini,kerana kau cinta hatiku..tetapi,Apa yang aku dapat?? nothing!!!! Kau hanya menyakiti hatiku.. Aku sabar dan aku Tahu..ini semua Dugaan Dari tuhan.. Allah yg Esa!!
Get From YelloWcaRd lyric- my OnLy one:
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know
Here I go scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only my only one
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Heeeyyyyaaaaa...WeLL,Wt to do..i FeLL in Luv n i Suffer it myseLf..
Dah patah hati nak Bercinta lagi Dan menyintai lelaki...
Succkkkkssss....!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|3:35 AM
Friday, December 10, 2004
Again im HeRe..i juS aRgue With Jae Actuali...
Hmm...im just Being myseLf n its me yati..am i in the wrong??
am i a backstabber?? am i?? im just telling u tat,people just said u are like tis n tat cos i wanna u to improve man,y u cant take it?? y?? well..its up to u to judge..it u... im just being honest,truthful to myelf..since u're my fren..im just teling u the ryte thing..not giving u a bad impression on people kay Jae?? thanks 4 being my fren all tis while...n dont blame me 4 wat i've done wrong,its u too who have to change kay?? remember!! thanks!!!!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:54 PM
Tcc---The CoFFee ConnoiSSeur!! people might not noe wat they seLL,never even here that TCC Words ryte?? people might also taught that its a standard cafe...Well,i would told u that TCC is actually a coffee boutique..its about the same a Coffee bean,starbucks,Mc Cafe and even coffee club..hmmm...u Shud come in to TCC stoRe n look at the menu and try the drinks... there,LaTTe,Iced latte MoCha,iced Chococinno,soda float...Hmmm..a lot lar...Raspberry latte,hard to make but Shud try then...its take an effort n skill to do it seh!
Dun be ScareD to Try sumthing new...They have hazelnut,caramel,mint,irish cream,vanilla,oreo..wow...Wat a nice Taste..shud try..it just cost u 5.90 for a Flavoured drinks[frappe],n it taste great!! i luv it man...but,people like me is into coFFee n i luv coffee so much,hope 1 Day i can be one of the coFFee master in singapoRe.yeeehhaaaa....my Dream to be A management trainee at CoFFEE Bean hancUr berDerai,MuSnah Harapan...aLL becoS of New manager lor... in Anywhere u go peeps...Those of u who get a managers,supervisors,captains or greaT staff is a great chance,pleasure n opportunity 4 u cos u can go further,Kamcheng n happy working! not stressed at all tau!!! seRius....its all depend on the management trainee! hmm....Well..wat i gotta aid,Go Try Tcc Drink,u'll luv sum n especially dun 4get to get sum Desserts n even Cakes,its worth tasting it,worth ur money kay?? hahhaha..promote nampak yati!!!!!!!!
My eyes is swollen..hehe..my mum just now when Doctor and i Sibuk2 mintk obat mata Kat Doctor..hmm...Marah dier tapi nanti jap lagik aku makan ler obat..nak update nie!gatl tu mata i nie!!
Eh!!!!! besOk Birthday TAUFIK!! my idol man! n will Always be mine!! hehehehehe......... :p
DiEr lum reply mesej aku..OutFieLd ke takmu reply?? haiz....
u noe wat?? i got a Bad feeling tat i might lose him soon! Wat shud i do huh?? Definitely forget him?? im Tring my Best to fill up my Day with my New jobs,Frens..new frens around me and new environment!
im slowly trying to..so tat i'll forget him...insyallah... im aLso trying to slowly change my MiSEraBLe life now..Aku nak Sembahyang,blaja agama Semula mcm dulu,spend time dengan keluarga,parents dan kawan2 yg ada di sekeliling aku nie! Nak try Cuba2 pakai tudung pelan2 Dan jadi Seorang gadiS yang bertauladan,inSaf,murah hati,Baik Dan Sentiasa Hapi..Walaupun,hidup nie bosaN aku akan cuba seDaya supaya aku untuk Jadi yg terbaik...
Masalah nya sekarang,Apa harus ku buat untuk Elkkan diri jumpa sharul?? y must he did tat if he dun like me?? Frens but why must
ask 4 more??y huh??? y??? knape?? tak paham ar aku nie Budak2/jantan2 yg bernama lelaki nie! 1 thing i cn tell u...I nev regret wat i've done with him...its just n Experience and im Happy for tat..pengajaran dan ERti sebuah kehidupan,Erti Mengapa kite Perlukan semua ini dalam hidup kita.. I need it too...But i guess, its not Now..1 dy if i've found the ryte guy who can took care of me,luv me 4 wat i am..n can be trusted...but for the tym being let Me be alone,i Wanna achieve wat i have to Achieve first in life..my goals n dream in tis world.. i wanna be a Carrer woman,since i have been in Food and Beverage line for 3 Yrs..y not i continue n Be the best 1 day...its hard to start everything all over again but u neva noe if u neva try..ryte??? Cinta akan datang satu hari nanti..tak perlu dicari,tak perlu dinanti.... ia akan datang dengan sendiri, jus wait n c.... SEdih SEy aku,coS i LuV him sooo much more then luving myselF but better i slowly kip him away from me...lyk wat abby,irena,leenah,syafiq said..."theres no point luving him if he doesnt appreciate ur luv,ur life,neva care 4 u...isnt it true??"
its hard 4 me to take it..."he doesnt worth ur love yati, he dont"
buat ape menunggu orang yang tak sudi betuL??Aku dapat rasakan dalam hati nie,hatinya Mungkin telah Diragut seorang gadis,insan yg memiliki apa yg dier nantikan..ciri2 yg dia inginkan dalam hidupnya....aku tidk.. like wat u said b4 sharuL "im luking aand searching 4 a gal,i penah terfikir pasaL u,but u 'doesnt fit in',U're not the gal.." U stiLL blind yati??? Hes just using u 4 his own great pleasure,sick man!! Sabar jelah yati...insyallah,tuhan akan membalas nya dan tuhan akan jaga hatimu yang ikhlas Dan Setia menyintai lelaki Walaupun Dier tak Sesempurna mana.... kau haruS tabah Dengan apa yg telah berlaku dan jadikan sebagai satu pengajaran,tauladan dan Pengalaman silam..wat u are now is the future...4get the past...no one Can help u unlesS u UrSELf yati...onLy u...!!!
SinceRely,
me
myseLf n
I................... Yati...
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:50 PM
Thursday, December 09, 2004
My job at TCC was fun...orientation class for two days..n i hope im gona work there happily n peacefully..i'll story u again bout my job later on..
Tadi..at werk...hes asking me[sms]..."hows ur new werk??fun werking there??""Lately,ade org u tak kenal msg u tak???"" ape nie hah??haiz....tibe2 jer tanye..heran bin ajaib sey! haiz....,Wat e hell?? he neva give my number to anyone b4 tat i noe...n he ever said..he wont! but y must he ask suddenly?? im thinking it must be a gal,n who noes tat gal is her gf..stead 4 long tym..wat 4 he throw his tattoo away becos of no reason ryte??everything done have its reason,u must be patient yati......Wateva it is... u,yati..must be strong n becareful...be patients n dun cry...go to hell ar! i wanna slip..my eyes swollen n its red! fuck ar!!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|3:58 PM
Tuesday, December 07, 2004
Ermm....i neva even go JB just now..oopppsss...yeSterday nyte!!
becos...its far too late Already,the traffic there wiLL be A heaVy one lar..my mum Cant waLk Later Sakit kaki,aku pon Tgh sakit kaki..
itu Ari pakai KaSut tinggi,tu paSaL jadi mcm tuh..WEEEhhheeee!!
pegi tamp maLL je..CeNtury square,then pi makan kat Telepark.. Sedap!!! Had grEat Tym SpenDing witH my mum n i Finally bougHt A digi Camera!! $399..isnt it cheAp??hehehe.BesT PuNye keDai..haha!
ok lar...Lawa..light n NiCE!! I LuV Ya MuM!!!
ERm...LoVE..wat iS love??love is pain and Pain is love..isnt it true?? without love..u'Re be Bored,So pityfuL as no one love u..
but..i noe,God my mum n dad loves me soooo mucH!! how about frens??
maybe lar...i Guess they love me too but,hhmmm...dunno!!
How about....Tat guy??? SharuL?? i love u Sssoooo MuCh sHaRuL..
stiLL Cant 4get,the Dae We met n get contact Tru inTernet,[MIRC],
i love u,i love u,i love u......hahahaha....... aku sayang kau,aku Sayang,cinta dan rindu kau sharul..n will always will...till e end of my life..sad 2 Say..he dun even undeRstand n love me either..y??? entahlah..ape kekurangan aku nie sharul??ape?? aku tak memaksa tapi hati ini terlalu menyayangi kau sedalam aiR dilautaN yg Dalam..ape siak aku mepek!!!???? hahahaha.....
kau tau tak?? perasaan aku pada kau tak pernah berubah hingga ke hari ini..7 Dec 2004.. Detik pertemuan dgnmu teramat indah.. handphone menjadi komunikasi kita..internet juga.. perbualan di telefon membuatkan kita semakin erat...kau kirimkan gambar,aku juga begitu..Sehingga kini sharul,gambarmu maseh ku simpan buat tatapan dihari akan datang..in the Future..Tulisan mu yg Cantik membuat aku tahu yg kau begitu kemas orangnya.. pertemuan hari Raya buat perTama kali membuat ku Gembira kerana aku yg mempelawa kau keluar..tak sangka kau nak seh!! HHHHAAAAPPPPIIII giler nyer!! makan kat mcdonald..hehehe..best eh?? kat Causeway point lagik! tat our 1st date lar..b4 u masuk ns!! then we go catch a movie..gerek tapi i cant remember wat movie we watch 4 a 1st tym! its ok dear...
As day passes by,we get to noe each other better,till e dae i told u the truth i love u sharul! but...u rejected me coz u're gonna eRve the nation,NS in e army..Gud luck! at tat moment...u've told me the true u...the true stoRy bout u and Ur liFE..
i WAs so Shocked n aNd bout tis...Cant be but it the real FAct abut u...upset!i cried n cried... but..the thing i tat..im stiLL in love with u...till now...i just dont underStand y must i love n give my heart to Sum1 like u..Wat so speCiaL bout u Tats make me cant forget u till now..pelikan?? korang yg baca pon pelikkan?? heran bin jaib ar cinta aku nie! Ade Ape DiSebalik perhubungan kita yg sebenarnya nie hah??Haiz....y??? wat damn gud bout u tat u make me mad bout u 24 hrs round the clock man?? kau curik hati aku,kau lukakan,kau sakitkan dan pedihnya berDarah bagi dicucuk Sembilu..Ermm... Knape eh??knape mesti kau sharuL?? dalam banyak2 jantan,lelaki dalam dunia ini..kenapa kau yg ku Sayang??Kenapa meSti kita berdua ditemukaan di dunia yg hanya sebentar ini sharuL?? Jawapannya..Hanya aDa padA tuhan,,Allah yg maha kaya,Pengampun,maha berkuaSa..yg benar hanya kamu..Wallahualam... :p
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:55 PM
AlhamduLiLah...syuKuR laR.. U NOe Wat,I get to UpLoaD pic Kat bloG Aku!!! Hapinyer...isnt it GreaT ryte?? WWWeeeeHHHEEEeeeee,Damn CooL Man! CoOL,LeT RoCk N RasTa RisE agaiN... Tak sangka percubaan aku Menjadi yer?? hhmm...K,smlm Aku Dgn AzzA DecIdeD to Go To Wtch The TeAter "MAT ROCK MINAH KENTAL" ,Tapi kan,too bad...da abe ar ticket dier,sedIh SeY!! At Lat i InA ajak Aku pi Tgk Wyg CriTe Shutter,tapi...sekali lagi..tym plak da lmbat kan,we decided to Wlk2 n go ZaRa Tgk Baju,MAHAL sungguh sik,ngak ade duit sik! ehehehhe,Tru aku ajak dier pi Esplanade plak..Lagik bet,Relaxing jer,B4 tat we Singgah beli makan cos lapar kat mAc Marina squarE.hehe..hmm.. fun lar,Great n enjoy my Day so much! nampak abg body!! WWeeeehhheee dgn pec dier..awww...Kental...hehe! n ina kip on Disturbing me..Said "i Like tat abg body" no!! noo!!! u noe Wat,B4 movie we taught of going to Hard rock! kirekan,malam RegGae,RasTa nite Pe but we tak jadik..nx tym jer..i got baCk HoMe at arounD 12+,haha..n there he starts to BeBeL Again.. ok lar...gtg..nak Siap pi Jb jap with my beloved mum!! nanati Dier BEBeL Lagik..kekeke,K..BubByyyEE..Catch U LaTer BlOg! PeAcE!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|8:20 AM
Monday, December 06, 2004
My PiC... SwEEt RyTe???
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|4:00 PM
EaRLy DiS moRn..I WoKe Up..ArRRRgggHHH..SuCh a LaZy suNdaY But Im FuLLy AwaKe..TiRed But I Cant Kip My Ass On The Bed ItseLf..HEHE!
HoW 2 UpDaTe My BloG NiCE2 huh?? muSt ask my Fren who R bloggers! i onLy noe how 2 Write,Type n Type hehehe..
Wannaa Ask..Y GuY r So unpRediCtaBle?? Y r they Always Kiping sumthing From us?? mosT Of TheM R SweeT TaLkerS,saId OnLy But NeVeR EveN Do Or PrOve It EiTher! Haiz.... Wat E HeLL!! afTer YesTerDay Case HappeN I DeFiNiTeLy CaNt staNd GuyS..LELAKI !!!
U saiD u R GeNTLeMan??then,Y NOt U SpeaK Up 4 UR RiTe man!!
I Just Cant Stand Ur Nonsene,wAt have i DoNe to u guys tat make u Hate Or Dump Me like tis?? iDun have the LooKs,The PeRfeCt FiGuRe buy PLZ.....I stiLL Got The HeArt! FRoM 2ay On..No MoRe GuyS in Ma liFE!...I Jus Need FreNs..NoT A Guy Who Will BreaK My HeaRt Again!
i had 2 muCh of All Tis StuPiD Crap!!Even //// gud Gud,Brape baik pon Tetap Ade jahatnya,Brape jahat Tu lelaki TEtap Ader Baiknya...
I WAnna TuRn Over A New LeaF....
InSyaLLaH..Im TryinG HaRd!! TuhAN SAJe YaNg DAPAT mEMbANTU hAMBA mU iNI.. Gud LuCk yati..Gud LuCk.. I MeaN Wat I sAid! U GuyS R jeRk!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:00 AM
Sunday, December 05, 2004
yyyeeeehhhhhaaaaaa...im so TiRed and laZy after Being out of the houSe 4 Few days non stop...penat siul..but im stiLL DegiL..nak mrayap jer! lum stat keje mrayap saner Sini..issshh..pe nie yati??
nak taip ni blog pon Ader malaz..tapi,memandangkan i havent written 4 quite sum daes,better type sumthing!! On saturDay..Early morn out just To mit my lover...My OnLy OnE lover tat never appreciate me but StiLL i Want him In My So CalleD MiseRabLe LiFe! y huh??? y??
ntah eh..i dunnoe...he got like Sumthing tat Make me Stick to him like gLue for 3 Yrs 6 Mth LoNg.. org kawin anak da nak 3 siul!!!
hahahaha....y huh??? i Try to 4Get But Tak Dapat gak..mcm pakai BoMoH erk?? cannot be siah! NO!!!! Hmmm...TheN i SpenT my tym with him 4 lyk 7 Hrs +...GoT To slip bSiDe him,so huggable..i like to be luv! but........did he luv me?? iF he does...he will be mine now..but??? no im not his yet!u Can cakap.."Alah Zaman moDerN pe skRg tul??" tapi..ish...Sampai BiLakan harus Aku menanti???
Susah Senang aku yg tanggung tau! sumtymes..i just cant reSist him n Cant let him go jus like tat man!...nvm...
TaDi pi Jemputan Kawin SRI DEWI! my ClaSmate in Sec 2 onWards!
Gud TyMes N Bad TymEs..PeNah GaduH,Salah faham..hehehehahaha!!! oh ye! he jus make a simpLe wedding,alhamdulilah..selamatz semuanyer! elamat Pengantin baru Gal!! oop...da bukan gal..iSteri org dok! Lawa plak tuh!Ermmm.....Wateva... MiT ma Fren Anim,Amin,IsnaDy,HamDan N couple dier Aisyah...ah..martin ong ader!Mi them..TymEs we All pent together in ClaSS..jokes,FuN ryte?? Be together with Them..so GuD! i Wish i cud TuRn My LiFE BaCk To sEcOnDary scHooL TYmEs,,but..no! not Again!! BoRiNg Ar LiFe!! so BoRiNG ... TaUfik!! Nyanyikan Untukku bleh?? Dah lah tadik i fadz buih! sedih Siak aku!! shit!! guy...cant be trusted..AAArrrgggHHHH....... Go To Hell guys!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|3:15 PM
Friday, December 03, 2004
tauFik batisaH
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|2:48 PM
Thursday, December 02, 2004
YeSS!!!!...he won the TitLe..AS Singapore idol! im SSoooo Proud of u Taufik...U're The Best,my idol..always n foreva!!...
hmmm.....Great voice..with talent..Suweet face/smiLe, hansem,smart,cool n relex all the way... N tats TAUFIK BATISAH!!!!
takkan melayu hilang di dunia....!!
Erm....Guys...Im so pissed off diS few daes..2 many things happen to me tats reali makes me sad..y must tis shit always happen to me huh??
Cant understand tis WErLd..full of Imagination,sucks ryte???hate it man! i Finally leave my SEcond home which is CBTL,CoFFEE BEaN And Tea LEaf...monday...Wat a bad monday i haf! F**k tat bitch! She makes me LOse my JoB! Y musT he Did tat?? y?? just becoS i sabo her 4 1 Day.. n she make things like tis! u will never be hapi Bitch,im sure u wont be hapi,tuhan ALLAH ku maha adil dan kaya..takde yg benar melainkan kamu allah!Ku serahkan pada mu Semuanya!Tat TuESday,My CBTL Frens were out for raya..n again im in a bad mood..Sum1 i Need dun even kotakan janjinya..Sedih sey,sedih...
well..after writing tat emel..hope it will helps her to open her eyes n luk forward..frens are very important..they are part of our life.without them,u're life will turn out boring and it really sucks!
i always need the frens around me..the love..from parents,frens,pple surrounding me and my deaRest "luv life"...
Well Sis..i hope..if u're reading my blog..i hope u're gonna 4give me
Sis,im NoT a PERFECT PERsON...i noe im not..n neVer WiLL me..Take cr Sis..miSS u..!! hhmm...wat else??? taufik??? hahahahah...U're The BesT!! LuV u my IDoL!!
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:44 PM
...so far..im still singLe + noT LookiNg..
duE to My PaSt ExpeRience..i've RergEt to InVoLve mySeLf in LOVE!!
i DUNNO Y...BUT i REGrEt it..SSiigghhh.......!!! i Noe that everytime..wen im in luv with sum1,i'll never get the Chance to be with him.. U noe??? WiLL u wait for umone u luv for more than 3 Yrs?? 3yrs 6mths?? will u??u wont rTye?? and.....tats me im here..still standing missing sum1 i luv SSooo much n so in luv with him TiL now!!!Did u noe tat SHARUL??did u?? im still here surviving kiping my luv 4 u my only one!U had made my life different from last tym i had,,its been a great pleasure to be with u my Dear!! im Lot sumtyms,y am i so InTo u huh?? y??ppLe around me had been asking,y n y n y????? hahahah...Still REmember how i get to noe u,TRu miRC,internet,wen u pass me ur nbr.u're still in polytechnic Ngee AnN n im in ec 5 taking my oLevels tat yr..but im so sLaCk..Lagi2 Ade computer..Da 4 thn dah Computer nie BerSama aku,Di bilik ini,,Menemaniku Di Waktu malam,Dan Siang...hehehe! Menemukan aku Dan juga kau Sayangku ShaRUL!!Aku Cinta paDamu,Dan hanya Kamu Yang Aku sayang dAn Rindu SeLaLu...Kau membuka hatiku kepada realiti SEbenar,DuNia yg SebeNar Dgn MeneRiMa hakikat bahawa tak smeua manusia itu SEmpurna dan tak Semua yg Baik itu jahat,Dan tak Semua yang Jahat itu Baik..Aku paham dan aku terima dan sudah pandai menilai kehidupan aku SharuL...PerTemuan kite Teramat BeRharga bagi ku..kite berdua SharuL! Sayangku padamu tak akan pernah luput Dari ingatan ku ini kerana kauLaH yg pertama dan yg terakhir membuka hatiku kepada Cinta dAn Dunia sEbenar...KauLah SEgalanya ShaRuL, Akan ku Haragai mu Hingga ke akhiR hayatku nanti..Cinta ku hanya untukkmu WalaupUn Perit Dan amat Sukar untuk ku Terima Peritnya kerana kau..Tak mungkin jaDi milikku Satu hari nanti...
apekan Daya..Aku hanya dapat beRDoa agar TuHan ((ALLAH)) akan Membuka Hatimu,Menerimaku Dan memberi peluang kepadaku mengiSi ruang hatimu itu Sayang.... Luv U 1 And onLy u ..
~SharuL NiZam BiN MOHd SaLeH~
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|5:21 PM
~MaRiJuaNa~
NuR Cahaya Hatiku|1:56 PM
NoRhayati Bte SaLLeH 
